Just a tad late but... FINALLY i'm outta school, well been outta school but u got the idea  i DEFINATELY needed the break from school, haha.

Anyway, summer time... soo much stuff i need to do. For those who don't know, around this time last year i decided to set a bunch of goals and whatnot to strive for a perfect"jed" haha as funny as that sounds. i KNOW i'm NO WHERE near perfect but hey, its nice to set goals really out there. i guess? lol, maybe i'm crazy but yea.
So here i am, just about 1 year later... and the results? TOTALLY different mindset, values, attitudes, and personality (maybe?) Not to mention 35 lbs LIGHTER!  wooo! 

before and after shots... xmas 03 and xmas 04 pretty much halfway but u get the idea

Enough of the talk, i think its time i re evaluate how i stand with where i wanna be, and i'm FAR FROM IT, but yea... what i hope to accomplish by the end of the summer is:
- get a job (seriously need the money..)

- lose 25 lbs (last year hit only 15, 5 short of my goal)

-get cut, god i'm sooo fat..

- "find myself"

- figure out my future

- be MORE RESPONSIBLE

- be less of an ass.hole (blaah)

- get over my shyness (i've been shy for my WHOLE LIFE)

- get better with my bboy"ness"

- make new friends?

- write more of my thoughts and stuff down...

- learn to sing? maybe? lmao

but yea, i doubt i can do all that... we'll see. There prolly more stuff i wanna do or accomplish but can't think of them now, basically i just wanna strive to be really nice person inside and out, and get sexy, xD lmao....

Went to ruishu's pool party saturday, good stuff . even tho i didn't know anyone it was funn.
and i leave u with my coolio green shirt i wore saturday haha

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

EDIT:

Check out what jed bought thursday at woodbridge, hehe i can't help buying shoes, damn....

Its about 12 am the night before the pep rally and i was talkin to a friend of mine when I realized and was told that I AM a prep, i never thought about myself that way. But the way i think of myself isn't a gangsta nor did i fit prep, kinda my own thing lol. I thought about it hard and it bothers me to see that everyone thinks of me as a prep apparently, but I shouldn't let that get to me. Only thing that matters is what i think and what truly is me or what i'm trying to be or emulate.

Theres so many classifications and cliques at school i don't think i exactly fit the description of one. I know basically some people from a variety of these "cliques", but still it never occured to me to be seen as a prep. Can anyone actually tell me the definition of a prep? Do i truly fit that? Is it because i dont wear size 55 pants and XXXXXXXL t shirts that makes me a prep? So if i dont wear those things i'm instantly a prep or i don't wear t shirts with band names and such does that instantly make me a  prep? BLAH it really does bother me, i know i'm not, maybe because i'm clean and shit but hey do you really think i can pull off a thug look or a rock look, truth is no. I can't and just how i dress is what i think fits me best, so i dont wear humongous shirts like some friends of mine or anything else but i wear clothes that i like and i dont need them to be huge or anything. Nor do i think that not wearing my pants down to my knees makes me a prep.

Anyway shits kinda depressing actually, maybe i'm over reacting but what do you expect when we live in a world that is based upon everyone's perception and idea of you. Think about it, when you see someone on the street INSTANTLY you ASSUME something about them by the way they look or dress. But i'm just babbling cuz who am i to tell someone else what to think. But today i just realized how people percieve me and it bothered me and still does but all that matters is what i think. Corny as that may sound, that is what i think and feel about my appearance. Classify  me all you want, thats ok i won't judge ANYONE until i get to know them and i'd like to see other do that too. This entry isn't directed towards anyone but i'm just saying that what i feel about some people seeing me as a prep.

ehhh, just another lesson in the class of life....

Put a background pic... i think its ight. Anyway now i guess i'll start writing again soon, got so much to do and i want to do.. good stuff  So yea check back soon i'll start putting up actual entries, lol

I think i'll be trying to start up a xanga again even though i never really tried. Lots of stuff gonna be happening this year. I'll explain later when i get the time to make my xanga look "spiffy" lmao anyway til then check back cuz soon enough i'll be writing again...