Someone once asked me "What's worse? Having something fade away or be gone suddenly?" I believe that my answer was having something fade away, because you can savor the remnants of those moments. But I'm not sure anymore. Fading away leaves you with the agony of knowing that something will soon end, that you can no longer have it in its fullest, and that you can do nothing about its disappearance. At the same time, something suddenly departing can be detrimental.
Summer is fading into a blend of fall. I love summer, but I have no animosity with fall whatsoever, particularly because it holds a remembrance of summer.
I would like to snowboard when the season comes around. This is, in my opinion, the only positive thing about winter.
I catch myself day dreaming a lot. Not to a point where I remove myself from the present moment, but those day dreams where I think about something and hope that it will turn out a certain way. Fortunately or unfortunately...they never turn out the way I think they will. Not once has it happened.
Nevertheless, these are my hopes for the next few months:
In early January, I'm planning on transferring to Moody. Until then, I have a semester of 12 credits at community college, and I'll be sort of keeping my job I have now.
Technically my secretarial position is seasonal. I didn't have any desire to, but I thought I would have to find another job after the end of August.
There is a girl here that does childcare. She's going off to college, so there is a need of someone in child care.
Starting in the middle of September, I will have Monday-Friday, 8:00-2:00 and be the new Child Care person.
I filled in for the girl that normally does childcare today. I watched old Mickey Mouse cartoons 3 times over, played with Legos, a very large Dinosaur puzzle, and cleaned up different puzzles that were dumped out of the box to see the affects 5 times. I also caught a half an hour of Gilmore Girls when I had no kids to watch, as well as read a book on the psychology of suffering that Concentration Camp victims endured.
Because I won't always have kids to watch every half hour of the day, I'm really hoping to fit most if not all of my school in at work. Although all my classes are online, I'm hoping that I'll be able to do little school work at home. And what is wonderful, is that I have the permission to do so.
So. Maybe I will go crazy from seeing Mickey, Goofy, and Donald a few too many times, or crave intellectual interaction from someone other than a 4 year old that can kick my butt in Memory even when I cheat. But, this is looking like it will be a good set up. That's what I'm hoping for. Please, please, please...nothing go drastically wrong. We'll see what happens....maybe something as little as my lack of motivation is enough to upset that scale.
Well, that's my update for now :)
Good mention:
I guess you're not technically supposed to have favorites, but do you know those favorite people in your life that make you laugh or something when you think about them? Well, one of those people to me got baptized on Sunday, and I was absolutely ecstatic. I can still harbor energy from the mere thought. I was too tiny of a frame to carry such an amount of energy...I couldn't sincerely contain myself. I realized that I hadn't had that much energy from that kind of excitement since...the last baptisms.
Things like that prove God's existence to me. If someone getting dunked in water, despite any amount of symbolism, was devoid of some kind of true spiritual authority, then I (and other people around me) would not share that amount of anticipation and exhilaration.
113 people ended up being baptized Sunday night, and service went from 830-1145p; the longest service in 707's history. It was pretty wonderful...and there wasn't even a message. I suppose the testimonies spoke for themselves, hmm? :)
-Yours
Mackenzie | 
