Quick update before I go to work. I hate school. Community colleges suck and I work the first football game. And I have started to read The Host.

Leaving is the easy part. It's what you leave behind that makes it difficult.

You deserve the right kind of love, the kind of love that makes you happy, the fantastic love that's in books and movies. Even if you aren't together forever, you'll want to look back and never regret falling in love with him. That's the kind of love we all deserve.

You will laugh at me like I'm not happy with anything, any time, anywhere. And the half of me is all about apathy, and the other half just doesn't care.

I wanna believe in it all again. In art, fate, and love. And I want to believe that I've made the right choices and that I'm on the right path and theres still time to fix the mistakes that I've made. And I guess I want hope. - One Tree Hill

There's a big fucking world out there. It's messy, and it's chaotic, and it's never, never ever the thing you'd expect. It is ok to be scared, but you cannot allow your fears to turn you into an asshole, not when it comes to the people that love you, the people that need you.

I think I've realized that I grew up too fast And listen home I'm thinking of my past. The good times, and when the sun would make my day.

"And that was it. All this buildup to a great leap, and I didn't fall or fly. Instead I found myself back on the edge of the cliff, blinking, wondering if I'd ever jumped at all. It's not supposed to be like this."

Once upon a time, we really loved each other, but as time went by, there just got to be all these things, little things, stupid things, that were left unsaid. And all these things that were left unsaid piled up, like the clutter in our storage room. And after awhile, there was so much that was left unsaid, that we barely said anything at all.

Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favorite scenes. Then holding hands and life was perfect, just like up on the screen. And the whole time while always giving, counting your face among the living.

There was a time when everything we did seemed second nature. There was a time when everything we did seemed free. And all in all I guess it's for the better if you don't remember anything, sit and sing.

Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you've found laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.

I have started school. Booooo. I like most of my classes except advanced biology. The teacher is an asshole. Only 178 more days until graduation. I have also finished Breaking Dawn. I loved the last chapter. It made me really happy.

I thought growing up was something that happened automatically as you got older. But it turns out it's something you have to choose to do. - Scrubs

I've been waiting my whole life for the right guy to come along, and then you showed up. And you're nothing like the man I imagined. You're cynical and cranky and impossible. But the truth fighting with you is the best thing that's ever happened to me. And I think there's a very good change that I'm falling in love you with. - 27 Dresses

I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches. If suffering alone taught, all the world would be wise, since everyone suffers. To suffering must be added mourning, understanding, patience, love, openness and the willingness to remain vulnerable.

"I see the worst in people. I don't need to look past seeing them to get all I need. I've built up my hatreds over the years, little by little. There are times when I look at people and I see nothing worth liking. I want to earn enough money so I can get away from everyone."

"And yet, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain- the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head- but it was manageable. I could live through it. It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it." - New Moon

We spent our nights on the sidewalks. Streetlights and stop signs held our destiny. We peeled out through the intersections. Hoping to feel a little more free. But kids like us aren't lucky enough. Yeah, we will never get out of this town.

I'm in love with you. I apologize for the blunt delievery, but as problematic as this fact may be, I am in love with you. And I'm not feeling this because you're leaving and not because it feels good to feel this way, which, by the way, it does. I can't figure out the mathematics of this. I just know I love you.

(My father is an EMT. These exact words have come out of his mouth.)

People should strive to be happy with who they are and not be obsessed with how they look. Beauty is nothing.

Poll: Which was your favorite, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, or Breaking Dawn?

My answer: It's a tie between Twilight and Eclipse.

I have exactly 200 pages left in Breaking Dawn. kind of depressing. I start school on Tuesday. That's really depressing. My eighteenth birthday is in one month and three days. That's amazing.

four / eighteen / oh seven

I love you.

"I guess it's hard for people who are so used to things the way they are - even if they're bad - to change. Because they kind of give up. And when they do, everybody kind of loses."

At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared, some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day, others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one. - One Tree Hill

I'm alive but I’m losing all my drive because everything we’ve been through, and everything about you seemed to be a lie. A guiltless twisted lie It made me learn to hate you. Or hate myself for letting it pass by.

We're so arrogant, aren't we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. We don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair. - P. S. I Love You

Calm is for losers. I've spent my whole life compromising and being a good little girl and not doing what I want or doing what I want and hiding it and feeling guilty for doing it and I'm sick of it. - Gilmore Girls

Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing someone at the same time, at times you can absolutely love a person all the while wanting to hate them; life comes without guarantees. Except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes and falling in love will change your life.

In the day by day collision called the art of growing up, there's an innocence we look for in the stars. To be taken back to younger days, when there was no giving up on the people we held closest to our hearts.

He seemed like the kind of person you could show your messiest self to. And not have to worry that you were letting him down in some way.

I have just finished the first part to Breaking Dawn. And all I have to say is that I totally saw that coming.. I mean come on! Lol. Well I'm updating then starting Jacob's side of the story.

When will you stop and see me through, there’s something else I’d rather do. Although you’re getting angry, I know everyone gets a star.

I'm so tired of fighting. Or not even fighting because he won't fight. He just gets mad and disappears and then comes back and I don't like how I feel and I don't like what I do. - Gilmore Girls

I fear being like everyone I hate, I fear failure, I fear losing control. I love balancing between chaos and control with everything I do. I always have a fear of going one way or another, getting lost in something or losing everything to get lost in. And I fear being a completely acceptable sheep in society. I never said to be like me, I say to be like you and make a difference.

Let the music move you, let the moment take your hand, let it lead you out into the middle of the dance floor and embrace you. Dive off the high board, ride with the top down, thrive like a wildflower.

We run back to each other when it's convenient. We know that in the end we're meant for each other but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we're okay when one of us has someone else. When it reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it's that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.

I cant do the talk like they talk on tv. And I cant do a love song like the way its meant to be. I cant do everything but Id do anything for you. He is the sunshine, the moonlight in my life.

I am a being who is unique. What I discover depends what I seek. I wish to travel without to within, to discover existence outside of my skin. I feel and I smell and I taste and I see - understand reality. I'm living life's journey the best that I can - but often I find I don't know where I am. I often perceive the world out of context but wondering makes me perplexed. I look to balance and self harmony while I'm in life and while life is in me.

Now it almost seems incredible. We've laughed too loud and woke up everyone. I may be wrong, but I thought we said it couldn't happen here.

I have just received Breaking Dawn. I will see you all in a few days.

"Childhood is not from birth to a certain age and at a certain age the child is grown, and puts away childish things. Childhood is the kingdom where nobody dies." - Edna St. Vincent Millay (Breaking Dawn)