| Ah...here it is. It has been exactly four years since I first created this on my birthday...I think I will make this my last. I should probably try to make it a good post. Id rather not, though I had so much I wanted to type.
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sigh. I wonder what going to happen ten years from now, hell I wonder what all the people I care about will be doing. I wonder what I will be doing myself..
Im just looking forward to enjoying myself, I only have four months before I take a step towards life.
Austin was one of the few times I had fun and didn't mind anything. Im looking forward to it.
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| Merry Christmas? A hour too late...
Things that has influenced/transformed my life.
-The Catcher in the Rye.
-The Doors(movie).
-Music.
-Peers.
I use to be this strait organized person. That made me felt like I had something going for me. All these things made a turn for bad....
I now don't care. I just want to slack, get really shitty. Woooo.
Life about how much you can take. How much can you bear. till you break on your knees. and then when on your knees, you keep going. Harsh.
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| Sometimes I wonder if my brain is Nuked. My memory is sloshed and sometimes i just feel stupid. Things that use to be easy are now hard.
Maybe sometimes its better to be stupid than smart. Never have to know whats going around you. its always bad. and if its good it is only temp. Never have to know the truth.
Work, eat , sleep and sex. I think life is just ran by Sex. you only work so you can have money. money to eat to survive so you can sleep to regain energy to work again. with all the hopes you can fuck that girl.
this is pretty fuckin emo. eh Happy Holidays cause you arent allowed to say Merry X-mas anymore.
I only hope this is all just adolescent, id like to grow out of it. make fun of myself later for how stupid i am.
I feel so bad sometimes.
Only thing I really think about now. Who do I want to spend my last day July 6, 2007 with. That is gonna be a giant phase shift.Im gonna go into the Navy the next day. I wonder what will happen. Im truly scared.
I met an interesting person at work this week. A kid not much older than I that is a run away child. or so he says. but it got me just thinking. he from Utah. took a train ride to Texas. survive a job at Best Buy and does his things on his own....like is that what it is suppose to be.
I just want to be rich. and travel every where. go all over the world, to the moon. but not bymyself. with a beatiful girl. isnt that what everyone wants?
Catcher in the Rye is a good book. mainly because its the only novel ive ever read.
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| Austin Texas my favorite fuckin place.
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| The end of summer.
The start of school..
Life goes on.
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