| its time i stopped lying to myself as well as everyone.im so pathetic. i judge other ppl before meeting them. i make fun of
other ppl. i cant let go. im so uptight.im selfish. im heartless. im a
hypocrite. im a compulsive liar. and all for what? to cover up my own
insecurities. not to mention, i have hardly any confidence and low
self-esteem. i hardly EVER express my feelings. everything that ive
experienced is pent up and its only been building up. the worst part is
that i cant change it. no matter how hard i try to better myself, i
always end up being that same person again. and its quite depressing.
ive never actually admitted to it but its always been in my mind. im
pretty sure my brother is goin to read this and itll worry him, but i
assure you i'll be ok. this is my problem and its only something i can
hopefully one day solve. until then, i'll see myself as that same
pathetic person. i dont know what to do anymore. |
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| why does life
suck so bad? every day i live is in vain. i cant contribute to society
and i cant even fend for myself. whats the point? i feel like crying right now.
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| I passed the ap calculus test!!!! I got a 3! im so happy now! hopefully i wont have to take as many hours for calculus! |
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| i'm goin to seattle tomorrow!!! and ill be there for ten days! and then when i get back, two days later, im leavin to austin for orientation!!
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