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Name: Elisa "Meche"
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: carlisle
Birthday: 5/31/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Music. Art. Photos. California.
Expertise: Every fucking thing in the god damn world!
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
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AIM:  DeadDoll25
AIM:  AcidDoor22
Member Since:
1/14/2006
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| I don't know......I just feel kinda...weird and lost. Like my life is average which is good, but lately the really tiny small things seem so huge and horrible to me. I just always expect the worse...Not good.
Well...I hope things get better soon. Cause it's making me crazy.
Laterrrr
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| I know I got it tattooed for a reason...Has this become a habit? Maybe because I feel like I can vent on here without it being said behind my back fifteen minutes later. Yeah. :]
I miss Fr. Rothan so incredibly much!! Just because I knew I could always go talk to him about anything and everything. It was comforting. But I do get to see him and talk soon. Which makes me more upbeat.
I also really miss James. Just because we used to be closer but he's been working way too much and I mean...I miss my friend who I met through myspace and then actually met in person and became BFFs with. hahahaha! He's my husband. lol. Also...I am still craving the West side of this country realllllly badly. I miss my cousin Beth and she wants me to go visit her but I don't have the money!!! I need three hundred dollars. And I have five. Damn. I'm like so close to just stealing money from someone just so that I can spend that blissful month away from PA.
Overall, since the last time I typed in this thing, I've been better in emotional respects. Physically, I've been getting migranes and stomach aches and weird parts of my body would just start aching and throbbing...I don't know what going on..maybe I've been having weird heartattacks and I didn't even know it?
Mayyybee...
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|  | Currently Watching
The History Boys
By Samuel Anderson, James Corden, Stephen Campbell Moore, Richard Griffiths, Frances de la Tour
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It's Just One Fucking Thing After Another...Well another update to no one. I did lose Nathan. Fuck him really! I don't know what turned him to be such an asshole! Insensitive, unresponsive, and selfcentered. Seriously. Why do I need to cry that I can never find a person who can just be there and let me feel the way I want to feel. LET ME FUCKING CRY! God damnit! My family is falling apart slowly but surely. I wish I had enough money for a one way ticket to California. I wish I could be more independent than always depend on a friend to help me out of my problems. Fuck! I am so helpless it's almost pathetic. If I was going through this in eighth grade I'd be dead from a drug overdose. Thank god I became smart. I wish I could turn to an old friend but I'm so god damn afraid he won't even give a fuck about me. Everytime I see him I long to just talk for hours like old times but something is always holding me back.
I hate myself. I loathe myself. God Dammit.
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| I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you.Well...its been forever. I don't really know why I'm writing on here. Maybe cause I know no one will read it.
Well this month so far is going pretty badly. I think I'm losing Nate. I think my friends at trinity are fake to me. And my bestestest friend Claire isn't even in PA for the summer. I feel like this summer will be completely isolated. You know what? Everytime I try to make friends my own age it goes horribly wrong and I end up crying for a month about it. I think this summer will consist of James, Ernie, Kari, and new people I met at Friday's. (I love them!) I hope I get to see Claire a lot. I miss her so much. Everyday without her around is like slow torture. I've had to go a whole school year without her by my side and now I have to go through half the summer without her. It's tough.
I really hope my dad lets me travel on my own this summer, cause I know the first place I'm going. Washington State. Olympia Airport. To see my lovely adored Ambah Lova. My phone acidentally called her from my pants and I'm glad it did cause I got to talk to her. It just reminded me about all the good times we had last summer and throughout the half of this school year before she went to Washington. I really hope my dad lets me go.
I might be getting some new piercings this summer also ( I just need to find new ways to hide them when I go back to Trinity). Some ideas are: eyebrow, ceptic, nostril? any of those good?
Also all my long hair is leaving me in three days. Along with losing my hair I'm gaining hair color. Blue? i think so.
Anyway I'm leaving.
Fuck you
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|  Thats basically all I have to say. That smiley.
I dunno whats going on with meeeeeee.
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