Long distance relationships are hard... and I knew that from the beginning. But it's really frustrating when I feel like I'm always the one calling him. And if he does call me, it's usually because he's returning my voicemail. There have been times when we've gone 3 or 4 days without talking to each other...not by my choice. I don't know what I can say to him to make him understand how much it bothers me to go days without talking.

He was supposed to meet me this weekend....but because of military obligations he can't, and I understand that. He can't control when the Marines tell him he needs to report in for something. So I've been trying to get him to come visit me at college, but again with no luck. I found out the other day that he's actually been working so much to save money to go visit a friend in the Air Force that stationed in South Dakota. This friend apparently has no one, and I have tons of friends at college...so he needs the visit more then me. But it still kind of hurts.

This is the second time we've done distance. And the first time it was amazing! He was finishing intelligence training and didn't have a cell phone, so I had no way to contact him. But he called me almost every day...and we would talk for hours. Sometimes he would give me wake up calls at 5am and sometimes he would call me multiple times a day.

I know he's capable of putting forth the effort to make this work. He has already proven that to me. Everything else about this relationship has been amazing...it was an instant connection the day we met. We broke up for a few days before I came back to college because he was afraid of the distance, and I had never cried over a boy so much before. And then he asked me take him back. I remember him saying, "I think i'm falling in love with you all over again." That means apparently he fell in love the first time. There is just something different about this.

I know this got really long, but I just want some advice or words of encouragement....something.