well nobody reads this anyways so it's alright if i just write freely right??? cool well i'm going to anyways....

God has been dealing me some pretty tough obsticles to overcome... but great ones they were.......first of all i took a big step in believing that asking my mom to go back to church with me would hopefully not only bring me closer to God but her as well and i believe it is....and i'm so excited......and i've just been working on my relationship with God by praying to him as much as possible constantly asking for his strength and you might not believe me or understand but i can feel myself slowly getting closer to him each day....

Today was my biggest challenge when i felt like i needed to go to the youth service and i went all by myself.......that's where my trust in him and his trust in me blossomed...i just let everything go and walked right in there like it was nothing and it felt like nothing....i felt like i belonged because i did and nobody talked to me but i didn't need them to because the lord was talking to me and sitting with me through the whole service...but i will try and be more friendly next time...lol........i want to share my church with everybody because this place means so much to me....it's been the only place that has ever felt like my family fits in....that partially is because it's where i grew up and i was baptized and the pastor who baptized me still preaches there which is so cool....but yea idunno i just had to vent on here about how excited i am for finding a church that i know is mine and a place i can really get to know the lord