It was great to see all of you at Wicks's party. It was an interesting night and it seemed liked everyone had a good time. It was nice to fall asleep under the stars but it was better to look up at the stars and imagine who else was or did do it too. I do realize that last night was the last time I will ever see most of the people there, atleast we all get to say goodbye with one last happy memory. I also saw that someone took the liberty to update my site on Saturday and I just saw that today...I don't care and I think it is cool...I know it was probally stan and her devilish ways....
Today, I plan to clean my room and finish packing my things. I realize that in my room I have a lot of stuff that I like, yet I do not need to take with me. So I plan on setting one box for things that I want to keep other than my clothes and computer. I am doing this so that all though with every possesion there is a memory of how you got it and what happened, I need to leave that go with a lot of other memories and go try to make new ones. My stack of hundreds of picture will probally take up half of the box but they are my favorite possesion that I own. I should really organize them and put them in an album or something but I kinda like the huge stack of them.
For all of those who don't know I am moving to Camp Hill with my mom. I will stay with her until I can afford to move out and get my place, or find some reason to come back. I will be attending HACC for 2 years and then Lock Haven to finish out college. I will become a Gym teacher and I know that I will enjoy myself in my profession because it incorperates the two things I have: will to teach and also to be active. Most people think that it's a joke and that I am doing this because I don't take things seriously and that it is not hard work. A lot of people have no respect for teachers, I was ignorant like this too but I have hassled my teachers for 13 years and realized how much they get payed to deal with all they have to do. Yet in the end they are still willing to help because for them it is not about the pay, or benefits. It so they can do what they can to help out the people struggling and make it so they do not become a failure and make them realize they can do what they want if they just work for it. I know that sounded cheesey and kind of stupid but it is what it is.
I will miss most of you...I am sorry for what I did to those that I hurt but not sorry that I met all the great people that I have over the past two years. It has been some good times and also some very rough times but in the end all I will remember is the good. Most people, when they think of somone they tend think of the bad things that person has done in the past, and if they can get over that then they think of what also has been good. I tried to tell everyone that I was sorry for what I have done to them and that I am a complete jerk, but I am no fool and realize these are only words. If I could I would go to each person and make something up that I should of done or even something extraordinary that could be done to make that person's life just a little brighter. I would love to do this all but I am weak, I am weaker then ever and I proved that to myself in a conversation with a good friend. In weakness everyone will find their true self and I found myself about one week ago today and I still have been sick but have never felt better.
Again I would like to thank you all for being there for me in these past two years. It has been quite a ride and I know we all have learned somethings from it. With moving I am also dropping my SN and this site. I will be on my SN till about Wednesday and then I will make a new one. Just leave posts here or talk to me online. I hope you all grow to have great lives and just always remember to not lose faith in God and he will always be there for you.
Thank you all and God Bless.
-Cody
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