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Name: Elly


Interests: shoppin,cooking, soccer, sk8ing, poetry, dancin', anime, surfing the net, watching movies, practicing the craft, bodyboarding, reading shakespeare, reading books, guy tests, poetry writing, martial arts, dancing~hip hop,jazz, ballet,
Expertise: Comps, valentines day, significant gifts for one another, dancing, moshing, my choice of music, my own trend, giving my approval on guys, grading guys, giving the GUY test


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Member Since: 10/20/2003

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

I Miss You but…

So at 2 am in the morning, i was inspired to write a poem. I was feeling very sad. I hope you enjoy it.

 

I Miss You but…

Everything was okay in the beginning

Just phone calls filled with laughter and happiness

But one slip-up meant goodbye

Forever? Temporary?

How long?

Didn’t realize that I had lost you until reality finally set in.

No more fun

No more late night calls.

Where did you go?

 

Memories that we had.

Flashbacks of the past.

It was enough that you had to hurt me

But to cut me out completely?

 

I miss you but I’m angry

Inside I feel confusion, more thoughts

About how we used to be

Now, nothing.

I miss you but I’m even more confused

Puzzled by your actions even more by your silence

Now apart with our memories fading

Tell me what I want to hear.

 

Times passes by and I hear nothing

No word of existence

Nothing to notify me you are okay.

Wondering about you and maybe I did do something wrong

This cold guilt setting in my heart

Tells me that we are both to blame.

 

It was not only me, it was both of us.

Stubborn people with stubborn p.o.vs

The ones who said “want nothing but the best” led to a question of trust.

Look outside the box

Before judging.

 

I miss you but I’m angry

Inside I feel confusion, more thoughts

About how we used to be.

Now, nothing.

I miss you but I’m even more confused

Puzzled by your actions even more by your silence

Now apart with our memories fading

Tell me what I want to hear.

 

I hope these scars heal

By the time I see you.

But for now, I will keep moving on

Pretending that everything is okay

And that you do not exist.

But when I come home, I will miss you.

 

So tell me.

Should I forget you? Or Forgive you?

Let me know so I can move on.

And let this pain go away.

 

I miss you but I’m angry

Inside I feel confusion, more thoughts

About how we used to be

Now, nothing.

I miss you but I’m even more confused

Puzzled by your actions even more by your silence

Now apart with our memories fading

Tell me what I want to hear.

So I won’t miss you anymore.


Saturday, May 03, 2008

people make me mad

People make me mad. All the time. So I'm compiling a list of things that make me mad.

 

1. People who pretend to be my friends just ebcause they want to get into my pants.

2. People who say that are friends with me but only come to me when they have emotional drama going on.

3. People who say they are friends with me but are only friends with me in hopes of networking with me since I apparently have "connections."

4. People who tell me they saw famous celebrities the night before. I don't care. I could care less.

5. People who tell me they screwed up by getting really drunk and sleeping with someone and tell me that they will never do it again. But do it again all over.

6. People who say they will do their work and don't.

7. people who ask too many questions.

8. Girls who walk down the street and you have to walk around them because they hog the entire sidewalk.

9. People who are close-minded.

10. People who say they will be there for you and when you need them the most, are not there.

11. The guy in my class who always has to say something to our teacher when she is talking. Just shut up. Stop talking.

12. I hate it when someone makes me choose between them and another person. Thats messed up. I don't tell you to fucking do that.

13. People who try to use me for my brain.

14. People who will not talk in front of the class. You are going to have to talk sooner or later. Might as well do it now.

15. Bitches who dress like hoes.


Tuesday, April 15, 2008

I feel

betrayed. Someone took a knife and stabbed me in the back.


Monday, April 14, 2008

The Unknown by Me

Aggression. Frustration. Raw passion.

Clothes ripped apart.

Tongues submit to the ancient dance that has not been forgotten. Battle for Dominance.

Perspiration. Sweat builing as the temperatures of the bodies increases each passing moment.

 Pants. Sighs. Moans. The music of erotic play intertwined witht he drum-like tempo of the hearts. Beating.

Bodies pressed together. Soft and Firm. Molded into One.

The Heat of the Breath sends shivers up one's spine. Quivering one with excitement.

Touches. Force and Gentle. Generate thrills of excitement and enthusiasm.

Pure White Bliss.


Thursday, March 27, 2008

Life has been great!

I accomplished my goal and did really well on my midterms. No more worrying because I know by the end of the semester that I will not be worrying about my GPA anymore. Onward, lately I have been focusing on the fashion show, school, then social life. For a while, I ignored my social life since school is my main priority, but then everyone started to throw parties all fo sudden or went clubbing. My only role at the parties is making sure that Michelle does not hump anyone under my watch. I love the girl a lot, but I do not want anything happening to her if I am not there, especially if she is drinking. Also I am the designated driver. No matter how many peopel ask me to drink or smoke Hookah, I'm not going to do it. Everyone else can do it, I just won't. I don't mind if my friends do, but I will look after them.

More updates on my life, I nailed my interview for the Careerbuilder scholarship. If I do not get it, I really could care less, but I could use the money when I go study abroad. If I did not mention before, I'm going to study abroad for the full academic year. I was thinking about going to England...but that wouldn't be fun...plus I would consistently be monitored by my cousin. I'm thinking about going to Italy since my family has a condo there. I woudl rent it out for the remainder of the year. If not Italy, I would go to Spain. China is also another option, but maybe London. We shall see.

Saturday

Chris held a great bonfire. Turnout was really great, especially with the FutureShock kids. Got to know Mo and Jamie a lil bit better. However, they surprised me a lot. Later, there was a breakdancing battle at the beach. I will upload videos later when I have the chance. Andy felt kind of bad for doing something....i'm not going to mention, but he looked hella sexy in his rashguard. However, Jamie and I will be going clubbing sometime soon.

What to look forward to:

1) Spring Break -> removal of the wisdom teeth

2) Welcome Back Party for Ryan

3) Shopping

4) Beach

5) Research

6) If I can and able to heal -> trip to Irvine



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