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| Soooo, Im finally updating. Things have been busy busy busy. I have been getting alot of hours at work so I'm working way more which is causing me to be extra tired, so I've been sleeping alot. Well, as some of you know Mike and I are talking again. Things are going great for the most part. It was funny because he stopped calling me because he thought I wanted to get serious are whatever and I thought he stopped talking to me b/c I was distancing myself, so we both were thinking the wrong thing. Well, we talked things out and discovered we are on the same page as for as relationships, so things are going at a nice pace for me and we're having fun together, at least I am. I still dont know if I can handle the stress of a relationship right now and yeah my trust issues run deep so I have to work on that but I think he's someone that can be trusted. On an even better note I got 3 A's and 1 B this pass semester which gives me a 3.69 gpa...Woot!!! I'm so excited. I def thought I was getting a C in my psych and law class but I pulled a B. I am so proud of myself. I guess hard work, lack of sleep, and late nights really works out for the best. I am almost done with Holiday shopping. I have a few more gifts to get on Friday and I'm done. I really don't want anything this year except a digi cam that I showed my mom...plus books I've shown a couple of people that I want and Gladys is getting me a ring which I'm excited about b/c I know she has great taste. I think this is going to be great holiday this year. I'm so much happier these days. I have some awesome friends, school is going good and I'm having fun...that's all I need right now. | | |
| Sooooo...this week has been a little bad for me. I got food poisoning or some kind of stomach virus or whatever Sunday and was vomiting all night...I mean all night...ever 20 to 30min...there was night left in my to throw up...just stomach acid...which burned the hell out of my throat and mouth...I was weak all day yesterday and a little today...but I'm feeling alot better. Stressing about that guy Mike didnt make it much better....what is it about this guy? I havent heard from him since Fri...he texted me about email me back about an email I sent him and he still havent responded...I'm sorry but I'm an impatient person...I dying to know what he has to say...its like really getting to me...I think I won't be able to move on until I know...I seriously think I let him get to close...but he was different from all the guys I've met in the past year or so since me and Jonathan called it quits...like I'll meet a really cute but that would be eat...just another cute guy...but him, he was different...I dont know...anywhoooo...I met this guy name Jorge Friday but I havent called him....dont really know if I want to...but maybe. He's cute and he's from Balize...I dont know if I spelled that right. I dont remember if I gave him my number...I was really drunk...but I think I got his....I dont know...I really miss that Mike guy...he was cool and we had alot in common...I swear some of the stuff I think about that I never tell people he think about too...but I guess I wasn't what he wanted...I dont know...it seemed like he was more into then I was into him and then he just up and disappear...I swear I don't understand guys...one minute they are all in your face, calling you and texting you a million times a day then they just up and disappear with no explaination...Why can't people just end things...to me talking to me one day then not talking to for two weeks is basically keeping me holding on by a thread...if you dont like me just say it so I can move on...I just hate to have a what if in the back of my head...ahh well I think I've pretty muched moved on...I'm not sad anymore...so I think....lmao. | | |
| wow...I must have been really fucked up last Sat at Live b/c I don't even remember taking this pic...hahaha I found this on nightfunctions.com in their photo gallery....
lmao...me and paul....I really really dont remember taking this...lmao | | |
| Ugh lately I have been so stressed out and down...I guess I've been letting things that shouldnt get to me get to me lately. Nothing is really helping to make me feel better. I hoped the blindside/trapt concert on friday and going out and drinking my kidneys away sat was going to help but it didnt...my drinking sat only made me more physically ill and I've been feeling physically bad plus emotionally bad. I think the emotional part is mainly due to that guy I was (hints the word "was") talking to....I really dont know what happened to him...I assumed everything was going great...we had so much in common...he was basically perfect in my eyes...everything I really wanted in a guy...He have my 3 key features I look for in a guy...he was physically attractive, sexually attractive, and the main thing, mentally attractive....I talked to him the Sat before last and we were planning to have lunch/dinner Sunday but I never heard from him and havent heard from him since...its like the fucker fell off the face of the earth....I don't guess goods things arent meant for me....I thought we had something atleast...I let him get to close to me to fast or I got to close to him to fast...either/or/both. I dont know....he made me happy at least....I dont know...I've pretty much have given up on him but something is telling me not to...I dont know if its my heart or my mind...most likely my heart cuz I know right now I'm think fuck this dude, I'll meet someone else...but I dont know...I met him kinda out of the blue and he was everything I wanted in a guy so it'll be hard finding someone else I really like...but I know next time I'm going to keep myself at a distance until I know its safe from me to let my guard down....
Anywhooooooooo!!!!! Man, the Blindside/Trapt/Aphasia concert ROCKED!!!! last friday...I had so much fun...Blindside and Trapt are by far the best bands I've seen play live aside from Incubus...Man, they rocked out hard and the crowd was mad crazy....I got to meet this guys from Blindside and got my cd signed...I didnt get a chance to meet Trapt but I wished I did...Trapt is badass live...I recommend hearing them live then listen to the cd b/c they are much better live. I have no words for Blindside that were just awesome and both bands played all my fav songs by them....
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| Soooo, things have been a little rocky for me lately. I'm just overly stressed out with school and work...work mostly. I've grown to hate my job with the most amount of hate that can be formulated.It was great working there at first but all the people I pretty muched liked are gone...After Gladys and Bobby left things just went down hill. I like a couple of the people there, like Mil, Karena, and Uneather on some occasions (her and Sam pissed me off Monday but I wont get into that, all I have to say is for someone who dropped out of college to become a Manager at Gap you have no room to call someone dumb and say they have no common sense). Anywhoo...the half ass employees we have at our store now are pissing me off...I hate having to work extra hard b/c they don't do shit but complain all day about what they dont want to do. Then the customers..ugh!!!! Monday I had 8 or 9 people from New Orleans come in and steal and do return fraud at one time...Ugh you can't even imagine how this went down. I was overwhelmed being over on the kid side by myself dealing with these people...Sam and Uneather nowhere to be found...Sam came over just in time to save the day. Ugh does people irritate me so much. They make me ashamed to be black...its people like those that bring down my race. Funny how Martin Luther King Jr. and other civil rights leaders fought so hard for our rights and equality in society and here they come stealing and doing all kinds of illegal shit...its a wonder why black people get watched everywhere they go b/c of people like them...Ghetto people like them irritate me...I don't consider them black, they are on a plane of their own...I dont want to be associated with that. I'm black and I'm proud to be black but people like them just to me bring us down and I'm ashamed to consider them part of my race....Anywhoo...I'm starting to give up on my new guy...I know he's been sick and dealing with issues at home but yeah he could still call or send me a text so I can know he's ok...the last time I talked to him was Sat...so yeah I'll give him to the end of this week but I've already been checking out other guys...like the new cutie at our store. Ugh I hate I got so close so soon but yeah I can move on faster than lighting....Well, Halloween was great. We went to a couple of parties on Sat and got all dressed up. Here's some pics....
hehehe...I was dead. my vampire fangs didn't work and I paid $25 for them
another dead pic in color
me and the girls
me and gladys
gladys taking a buttery nipple shot
gladys...sexy pirate chick!!!
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