3 and a half more days, and then I'm officially a Junior.

I suppose i'm worrying about it a little in advance, but its kind of scary to think that in just a little more then two years, i'll be 18, graduated, on my way to college, and an adult. In two years I'm going to have to find a lot of maturity to make it. This year has gona by so fast, seems like weeks agao we had just started the year and we were picking on the new freshmen calling them immature, stupid, young, etc like typical sophmores. Man... it's absolutely mind boggleing to think that a year has actually come and gone. I'm both happy and sad to see it all end. Thus ends another chapter in my life. As everyone knows, this was a very hard year for me, emotionally and physically. I can remember many a nights spent thinking and pondering about things that at the time were so important to me, and now that they have passed, seem almost pointless. I remember the long nights spent doing homework until the birds were out singing. Nights spent wondering why the world had to be so cruel as to end relationships so important with what seemed like complete and utter disreguard for my feelings. I now realize that all of this, has helped to make me grow and become the person that I am today. I now realize this importance of this year in my development as a person. I now realize, how lucky I am to be surrounded by so many great and wonderful people. Finally, I realize that life, whether I choose to roll with the punches or try and fight it, will go on, with or without my consent. The life lessons that i've learned, in this year alone... are... miraculus. There are a countless amounts of things that I've learned this year, both in academics and in life, that I know I will use till the day that i'm 6 feet under. Man, what a year. I want to personally thank everyone that has stood by me this year, for it is in you that I find my strength and determination. I also want to thank those that haven't quite stood by me, because it is because of you, and the mistakes that I've unfortunatly made that i've become a better person. You have taught me so much, and for that I can never truly and completely thank you, that goes for everyone. I can only hope that next year will be as jam packed as this year, and I pray everyday that I will have the same great people, and perhaps even more standing by me to help me through it all. Thank you, everyone. I really and truly do love all of you . Good luck next year and I hope that everyone has a safe summer, you had ALL better be coming back next year. Everyone, have a good evening and everyone PLEASE give me a call sometime this summer, even if its just to say hi. Happy end of the school year to all, and to all a good night. .

                                                                                - Joseph

P.S. Heres a quote that I once wrote for someone (even though i'm sure someone came up with it before me) that all of you can use in your daily lives.

"Find Strength in thy pain."

What a night...

Last night was awesome, Everyone was looking good in their prom best There were so many people their! o.0 Kelsey & Ronco, Kelsey F. & Jessica, Roseanne, Emerald, Natasha, Silivia, Darcell, Veronica, Lety & Sebastion, Suzi, Sally, Sara B., Elizabeth, Matt, Joey & Jennifer, Jake & Jamie, Chris & Emalee, Samantha G. &, Mike, Etc. ALL of yall LOOKED GREAT!! And ofcourse my date, Brandi, looked absolutley gorgeous... ugh.. I hate her.. lol . But yea, I had a really good time, lol even though I had a hella hard time keeping up with that girl. When I get my pictures developed, I'll see if I can figure out how to get some of them posted up here. But once again, to all of yall and anyone I accidently forgot, yall were all looking super sexy . Life's been pretty good lately, aside from prom there's been only a little excitement lately, but I still consider life to be good. . I'm happy with everything... except my damn grade in spanish GRRRRR!!! Lol but other than that, I'm happy. Brandi and I are doing wonderful, and today its exactly a month and 2 weeks, oh so exciteing . I love that girl to death... But yea . I hope everyone else is doing as well, if not better . But yea, I gotta run and do my homework X_X, lol so unfortuantly, I must go, but MUCH LOVE to all of ya.

                                                                                                      - Joseph

Man, If I drank, i'd sure as hell wanna drink right now, and if I smoked, i'd sure as hell want some smokes right now. Tonight was a lot of fun until I got home where things kinda just entered a seemingly endless downward spiral of depression. In all actuality, my life, not to brag is so damn close to what I would consider perfect that its insane. Only one thing stands between me and perfection in my life. A friendship. Just a mere friendship. Although friendships to most people may be something that is just easily picked up or thrown away, for me its not. I'm not the type of person that gives up on someone or something that I love and believe in, no matter how bad the situation may get and no matter how hopeless it may seem. Some might call it being stubborn, I think of it more as dedication, and determination. Dedication in the sence that im dedicated to acomplishing anying that I set my mind to, and determination in the sence that I refuse to give up, FOR ANY reason whatsoever. Like I said before, some may just call this being stubborn, I do not.  So yea.. screw beating around the bush. I'm done with trying to fix things by myself with the help of a few others. Fact is, my mind wont change, I will always still consider that friendship everlasting, despite what the other party may think. I will always be there for them, No matter what happens. I will never change my opinion about them or give up on them, and as long as I am still able to breath, they will be able to come to me with anything they ever need and I will do my best to fulfill those needs, if they choose to come to me. But i'm done going out of my way. When and if ever their ready, they can come to me. Another thought on the stubborn thing, no, its resillance, resillance in that EVEN in the face of absolutely terrible odds, I refuse to give up. So fine, you wanna call my stubborn, have at it. Whatever it is that helps you sleep at night is fine by me.

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On a happier note, Yesterday (friday) was Brandi and I's 3rd week . Hey babe I miss ya and I hope I get to see ya saturday! XOXOXOXO. Also, I hope EVERYONE has an awesome, but still safe spring break, I hope to see everyones bright and shineing faces when we get back. Much love to all of yall. Once again have fun, be safe, and don't do anything stupid!

                                                                  - Joseph

Howdy All.

This is gonna be a REALLY short entry but yea, I just wanted to direct your attention to my new song quote. It's dedicated to a certain someone, most of you if you think about it will know who, and I'm sure they know who they are. Understand this dosen't mean I don't want to be your friend anymore or that I don't care about you. I'm just standing my ground on what happened. Thats all. If it makes things worse, then so be it, things can't get much worse. To everyone else, much love to all of ya!

                                                                                         - Joseph

P.S. I do hope they taste of me forever... Heh heh..

Hello to the world,

 I abosolutely hate these godforsaken things we call computers, I had this LONG ass post that I put so much work into and when I clicked submit.. THE CONNECTION TIMED OUT AND I LOST IT. So now I have to type it alllllllll over again . Ohwell here goes .

It's been so long since I posted. My life has been a perpetual rollercoaster with its ups and downs and at times, I hate it. Recently i've been putting a lot of extra effort in forming friendships with the people I meet, and strengthening the friendships with people that I already have. Because losing a friend is like losing an appendige, its painful and traumatic and something that I really wish I didn't have to go through. I've had a few close friends in my life and I recently lost one of them. Losing a friend is probably one of the things that I hate most in life, its devestaing and unfortuantly some of you known what I mean. But for those that it hasn't happened to before, I pray for you that it never does. I pray everyday that things will be set straight between this person and although god hasn't answered my prayer yet, im not losing hope. Despite them not considering me a friend of theirs, I love them and care for them, and worry about them everyday just as much, if not more so then before this stuff happened. I recently told someone that "honesty was all I had that I could still claim." I realize now that, that with in itself is a lie, heh. Ironic and contradicting, yes I know. But thats not the important part. The important part is that honesty isn't all that I have to claim. Despite losing one, I still have many friends that I can still claim. I want all of them to know, including those that don't consider me a friend of theirs anymore, that I love all of you with all of my heart and for no reason will that ever change. Everyone that I hold and held dear to me, I will love you till the day I die. Some people that have helped me out recently that I would like to thank, Roseanne, Erin, Tiffany P., Kelsey F., Jen E., Emerald and countless others. So many people helped me merely by being there to give me a hug. I thank you all very much for that. But yea, like I said, to all my friends, I love ya all ta pieces . On a much happier note, I recently got a g/f . Her name is Brandi and shes a junior, some of ya may know her, but if not its ok. You'll probably whind up meeting her sometime . Alright well to everyone thats taken the time to read this, I apreciate it greatly from the bottom of my heart. I love all of you from the bottom of my heart. I've taken plenty of your time now, so I'll let you all go. I hope everyone has a great and safe weekend. Much love.

                                                                                            - Joseph.

P.S. My first post was WAY better in explainging things out but due to technical circumstances, it is something will never be seen by anyone but my own eyes. Anyway, hope yall weren't to bored reading it. TTY all latter.