Agreement

I can hardly believe it wow! What kind of agreement is it we reached between you and me?  Just it is such an unfair treaty to you but wow-hoo thanks so much for being kind and it looks like a special offer.  

Happy that I have got you who is frank and have your background totally understood. Honestly I don quite agree with what you did in the past yeah but it was history and everyone got history. 

We are extremely talkative and fun-loving with some similar point of view although there are some disagreements too in the other hand.  Thanks for telling me that I am quite different from others and please don think that I don feel the same to you.

To be frank I miss previous ?still and I just want to let you know everything without hesitation.  If a two-month period could prove then I love to be on the path.  

I Hope I Think I Know

I just think about being employed is not a way out if I wanna have a better life, especially in this pity place called Hong Kong.  Friends think that I have to accept the reality but fuck it, I just want to know what I am doing.  I think what I can get from being employed are experiences and got something learnt rather than the money I get from salaries.   I have my plan.

The Letter

Since I told you to let go, since the letter I received at the same night from you last month, I forced myself hard for not mentioning and thinking about you, it was so artifical and stressful.  The more I pushed myself, the more it reflected back.  So I decided to write it all down somewhere like here. 

Received your letter the day we let go, it took long time to read it through as it was too long.  Regret to know that you felt me the same as how I felt you, you said you tried your best but I didn't even try, I probably tried it too hard and pity that you didn't know. 

We got same personality and ways of thoughts but surprisingly it became our burden.  The only thing we have to do now is to face it for a while, for me it's gonna be quite a while I guess.  You said I made you crazy and lost or frastruated but actually I didn't do anything behind you if you'd try to think twice.  Gradually I 've started hating myself but not you, I predicted the troubles before getting together but we still got us to the wrong way. 

I was not dreaming of asking you for change but at very least I hoped you to understand that you were not always right.  Things didn't have to be always dramatic and although tears were free of charge, you didn't have to stream them down everytime.  Was I really that evil to you?  I think you knew the most.

I made many mistakes in this relationship, even though the whole story was a mistake.  I fell in love by your smile and soul, I got short temper due to struggling inside, I made you cry which I forget how many times, you were quite into me and I was too.

And after all, I treat this was such a big lesson and I am not going to watch your smiles again.