I'm annoyed with people who are too lazy to get their asses in gear to get what they want in life.

So apparently I need to post again or my xanga will be cancelled and I like reading my friends' blogs so... this is me posting! : P

So I've been thinking about what it means to be unavailable. Oh of my friends brought to my attention a few months ago that I had become closed off and emotionally unavailable. I have been very concious of this since as I used to be easily open and free to let others in.  What happened to me that I became reserved and hardened? Oh, wait... I remember now. So since my friend brought this issue to my attention, I have been slowly but surely TRYING to let people in as best I know how...

So now that I'm unavailable in a different way, how does this first unavailability play in? Can I force openness? What if I'm just faking it right now? What kind of effect will that have down the road? I don't want to be ingenuine but I also don't want to be cold or, well, Fort Knox.

And what of expecting him to be less unavailable. Long distance is no fun... How much should I really expect or want to see him? And how much can I expect or want him to open up? Is it okay to push for more? Or is that just demanding and high-maintenance?

Being a girl is hard work.