| Ok, real update time. Like I said in the previous post, I use xanga, as most others do, for venting. And now is a perfect time. Today hasn’t been the best of days, first I mistake my classes and ended up going too early to school, when I could’ve showed up for work instead. Then afterwards, I went to try and fill up my gas tank, but for some reason, my credit card wasn’t working at the station I went to, so I was worried if I would have enough gas for the remainder of the day and if something was up with my card. Finally, I get a ticket. My first ticket in 5 years of driving, heck, I’ve never even gotten pulled over before. So first issue, first ticket in my life, yes this does include parking tickets. The second issue, the one the stands out about the rest… I didn’t feel that justice was fairly dealt.
I guess I should paint the picture here. I was going down 23rd and at the end of the block a white van was ahead of me. At the stop sign the van slowly rolls to the middle and can’t decide on which way to go. Since the van was in the middle of the intersection that would mean that I was at the stop sign waiting for it to move. As the van finally chose to dive forward, I took my turn onto Princeton. And there’s where the cop also turned, please note, the cop is only at the other end of the block just turning at the other intersection. So the cop pulls me over and says, “You just blew that stop sign, I mean you didn’t even stop.” I simply replied, “Yes I did, I was behind that white van.” And the cop being a cop says he didn’t see it, well of course you didn’t see it, and you were just turning, it’s hard to see around another corner on another block. Also, I’m pretty sure it’s the law to stop before the crosswalk, not on it just so that a cop can see that I stop, but to make sure people can cross. And in the end, they gave me the ticket. I guess my first fault was that I shouldn’t have said anything to try and win, because I have everything to lose and nothing to gain.
I guess this post goes beyond just the ticket, but it really gave me something to reflect on. To learn that not everything is fair to me, but God is a just God and I believe that. Not long after the ticket I was reminded of something someone said, “If you go around trying to seek justice for everything, you’ll go crazy…” and honestly I was going crazy, but “that’s when you have to leave it to God”. That’s something I have to do. That not everything in this world is fair to me, but in the end, justice will be served, but I may not be able to see it. I guess too many times I want to see results, that I want to see fruit, but sometimes it’s just not for me to see. And sometimes I get upset when I feel that people have let me down, one of my greatest fears is letting someone else down, and try to fix it, but it’s neither for me to fix nor for me to judge. In the end, it’s just something that only God has control of. I try so hard to have a tight reign on my life, “but once we give our lives to God, it’s no longer ours…”
“At the end of the day (Tommy Lee)”, I guess things aren’t that bad. Finished the meeting and talked to my parents about it. Because even though I was going to pay for it myself and just get it done with, I didn’t want to hide it from my parents. Surprisingly, they took it well. I wanted to talk to both of them but my mom was the only one available at the moment and she pretty must said, he must’ve been trying to meet his quota. Then my dad comes into the room, “Oh no, what’d you do now…” of course he heard what me and my mom spoke, and just said, “That’s how it is sometimes.” My parents agreed to hire a traffic court lawyer or whatever so that it wouldn’t show up on my record and so not to take me out of school just to stand in court all day for my turn. I guess it’s just another lesson, that no matter how far I want to push my parents or how far I want to be from them, that they’re still there for me. Now that was a real update, happy now? |
