Random ToughtsMy head is full of nonsense at the moment. So I am just going to type it all out, and we will see what we come up with. :) We shall start with my mother. I can't stand the woman, but i love her anyways. I can't help it, she is after all my mommy. We haven't been on the best terms since I was in... 8th grade? It just got worse over the years. See I was sexually abused as a child for 9 years, and I somewhat blame her for not protecting me. (yes, I have been through bunches of therapy for it) My dad is a contractor for the government, and he got promotions a lot so we moved a lot. When I was 12 we moved to Beavercreek, Ohio. I refused to make friends, because I got so used to leaving them behind. Eventually I was promised that we wouldn't move again until I finished high school, because my dad was stuck there for a good few years. They lied. Not only did they drag me away from all of my friends the day after my freshman homecoming dance; they basically cut off all my communication with my 1st love. Sad huh? They tried keeping us apart for a year or so when I lived there, but it never worked. Oh well. Once I moved out here I just snapped emotionally. I guess it didn't help that I started cutting in 7th grade and became suidical then. So I got out here and hated EVERYONE who tried to talk to me. It took me 5 months, to even go hang out with some people. Sadly, those people were losers who want nothing but drama. At the time that was perfect for me, because I wanted to screw with peoples lives. The poor bastards let it go on all summer long. Then I went ober nuts. I ODed and then called my dad because I realized what I was doing. He zoomed me off to the hospital, but I don't remember much beyond getting in the car. I know the evil nurse made me drink charcol (i dunno how to spell it) but OH MY HELL that shit was just nasty. It was pretty much like having to drink a big ass cup of tar. And if you threw it up, they made you drink a whole other cup. That woman was a whore. She made me go pee, but I was all loopy from the hundreds of pills, and the nasty ass drink. She threatened to stick a tube inside me to get it... gross? I think so. The charcol was ment to "clear out my system" of all the pills. They didn't mention EVERYTHING else in my body would come out as well. Every living soul in the ER saw my rear that day. I had decided to go to the bathroom on the bed, since they wouldnt let me get up. Then decided to get up anyway and walk around. Lets just say I was butt naked under my little gown that wasn't tied on properly. So I was sent away for 6 months. The entire time my mom kept making trips to Egypt to see her online lovers. Every time see actually came to see me for family therapy of just to visit, she reminded me how stupid and selfish I was, and how I was just taking up her time. She even decided to tell me that a friend of the family had killed himself. (yea... she's a bitch) She started by making me cry and telling me how awful I was, then said "Steve killed himself, just shot himself in the head behind the car store. His family has been blaming themselves. Do you want to do that to people? You keep trying to." I ended the visit then. And went to cry in my little room with my tiny ass window. Well my dad got a divorce. Thank God. And we shall continue the story later. I am off to see my cousins baby. Toodles | 
