I've let myself go. I have to stop this yo yo bullshit. I drink too much..I say as a take a sip from a gin and tonic (diet tonic) I also tried to quit smoking so I think I nibble too much now. And I ran out of adderol during midterms.

So I saw my hidious reflection and decided to weigh myself. My roomate (who I have alsoways considered to be on the hefty side) was less than me.

I was 128.

that's midlife crissis weight.

that was a week ago.

now I'm 121.

She was 120 then, and I challenged her to a race to 115. I think I might win. Because she hasn't lost anything.

and I'm still fat.

I've got 3 auditions coming up after thanksgiving and I want to be down to 115 by then and maintain. I've ruined it today though, I had chips, a reeses mac and cheese and small french fries. wow. that was hard to say outloud.

So starting tom until thanksgiving. I'm doin all liquids, maybe some fruit and raw veggies. No sauces (maybe viniger) and no junk food. oh ya. no beer. no beer. no beer. Hopefully I can find some addies soon. They kill hunger faster than my reflection.

EEK!!! I just remembered I have to do a scene in one of my acting classes next week in nothing but my skivvies. And I have a beautiful 2 % body fat hunk of a man teacher. I don't want them to laugh me off the stage, so now, I FAST!!!