okay. i've decided to get a job and not run cross country. i applied at borders in greenwood and i really really really really (did i stress "really"?) hope i get the job. i need cash flow badly. so let's all pray that works out for me.
It's going to be extremely wierd for me to not run cross country. i hate it so much, but i love it at the same time. going to practice at 8:00 on saturday mornings after staying up and hanging out with friends after friday night football games and not getting home from school until 5:00 or 6:00 pm after school, not drinking pop because you signed a contract, turning in progress reports every week, and generally hating to run is the worst. i realize that its the biggest thing with my highschool experience and the one thing that will stand out most in my highschool memories later on in life, kind of a bummer, but something you will only understand if you run cross country. at the end of every season i am so proud of myself and no matter what else im slacking in the rest of my life not too many people can say that they put that much work into what they are accomplishing. cross country is one of the hardest sports. for most sports running is punishment and in cross country choosing to run is like self discipline. you do it if you want and if not you just don't as well. i only live 5 minutes running distance from the school...we know this because we've cut out practices and sat at my house for 30-40 minute periods while we were supposed to be running. anyway, im bummed about that.
buuut on the up side: my boyfriend, alan, will most likely be going to college in indiana and not ohio or illinois and that is exciting news for me! alan has been in chicago for about a month and a half and its been depressing and we've had or ups and down down downs, but we're still kicking and that rocks. he makes me a happy girl. what more can i ask for? he has minor disappointing qualities that i think we've already worked through the majority of.
my two best friends have graduated highschool, elizabeth and ali. im scared im not going to have anyone to "buddy up" with at school next year. im extremely personable and can talk to anybody so its not a social problem at all. i just don't want to feel alone. but then again, if i do i'll focus more on school. i think the next year is going to be a busy one and i need to start thinking about colleges and what i want to go into and thats sooo scary!!!! im spoiled and have had things handed to me for the most part and now i have to take charge and make my own decisions. it feels kind of good. well im done complaining. thats just what has been on my mind.
p.s. elizabeth i haven't forgotten about those adorable dresses at von maur. save your money because im getting a job and i want a shopping a partner!
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