It's been a long time since I've used xanga, but not many people use xanga at all anymore.

Life is difficult.  I'm sure you all know that.  I know that everyone struggles, but I just wish it could be a little easier.  Hahahaha.  Sometimes I feel like my parents are controlling my life too much.  On the other hand, I see why they're doing it -- they want to make sure I'm okay.  It turns out that I don't always make good decisions.  Well, duh.  No one is perfect, but my parents, and even I, thought that I could make better decisions than the ones I chose to make.  They were not REALLY bad.  It's true.  Many, many other kids make hella worse decisions than mine.  I guess it was just a shock to everyone.  Sometimes I feel too dependent though, and my parents don't help with that by controlling my life, because there is gonna be a point where I need to operate on my own...become independent.

And I'm attending school at the University of Washington ----- Bothell.  Hahahaha.  That means... I am living at home.. for a while.  -___-;;  Yes, I was waitlisted for the Seattle campus, and FINALLY made the decision to go there.  Actually, I only applied to three schools in the beginning -- UW Seattle, University of Hawaii, and Western Washington University.  I got in to UH and WWU.  My parents said no to UH because they did not want to send me off or pay out of state tuition when I don't even know what I want to do with my life.  Hmmmmm... this did not exactly make much sense to me.. considering that WWU and UH have almost the same tuition costs...I would have wanted to go to UH... kinda... =/ ;; Anyway, so a while I was planning to attend WWU, sent in housing fees, acceptance fees -- then UW decides to tell me that they're not accepting anyone from the waitlist...and that I should apply to UW Bothell.  So I did.  And that's where I am going.  It sucks because they don't offer many majors, but I will pursue the business path.  I think I'd like to get into advertising or something.  Business works for me!  I may transfer out of UW Bothell and try to get into the Seattle campus, or somewhere else.  We will see!

Gaaaahhhh.  My love life.  HAHAHA.  It's pretty dormant right now.  My choice though.  Er, not to sound cocky or anything.  I have chosen to remain single for now.  Haha.  Wow, I wish the future looked a little clearer than it does now.  This subject is another ... wait and see type of thing.

I want some new shoes.. Nike.  Or Puma.  Hmmmm.

OHHHH.  I am also on a hunt for a job.  It is so stupidly hard for me.  Haha.  No one wants me.  I'm obviously applying at the wrong places.  Boo.  If anyone knows anywhere that's hiring... LET ME KNOW.  Okay, thank you.

spring break is so nice.. i dont wanna go back to school.  tomorrows friday >.<