poor old xanga. i never give you any attention anymore. oh well. no one left to talk to anymore. xanga is dying. in the odd chance anyone reads this. i got a new job at a daycare. still going to school. changed my major. i wanna be a life-coach now ( aka hippie psychologist). getting married soon. quitting smoking. falling more in love everyday. maybe ill write again in another 6 months. until then, be cool my babies.

<3 Amber

long time ago

and sometimes walking backwards leads to a dead end. growing up i always thought the worst thing would be when someone close to me died. now i realize that there are small deaths everyday. the loss of friends, the loss of boyfriends, little pieces that i shut down in myself everyday. all of these tiny deaths. these are the hardest things ive ever had to deal with.

sometimes you have to walk backwards just to move foward. things are looking up. for now.

Amber