sometimes you can never really understand life. life is so crazy and confusing all at the same time. the process of letting go isn`t easy; but it`s part of growing up. life is getting harder everyday and i have to learn to not let things get to me. i have to learn to hold my head up high and learn to say good bye without letting myself cry. why is that when you get to know someone real well and you think you know them but it turns out that they are just a complete stranger. no matter what happens to me, i will always have big dreams and one day they won't be dreams; but reality.

Best friends?  Mhmm that word doesn't even have a definition in my book. people are in your life for a reason; a season , or a lifetime. there are always going to be those who make an impact on your life and those who just come and go. i don't think there is a "best friend" or a "perfect friendship." people grow up and change for a reason. people also make tons of mistakes and you can't always hold a grudge. a good friendship takes time and many arguments and drama. if you can't see each other at your worse, you don't deserve to see each other at your best. i know i'm the worse person to be talking about this subject because i can't seem to keep a friendship period myself. the thing that always gets me is trust, i don't have too much in myself or anyone else. i feel like in the end i'll always end up by myself and that is one of my biggest fear in life. it's like that one saying, " you came into this world alone, and you'll die alone.

so school's over and i'm a senior! :) i don't think it's really going to hit me until i walk down that isle with maria le.

you should always believe in yourself but it would be nice to know that theres someone out there you who believes in you too...

Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh & talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all & it can be the best time of your life, just cause it was with them. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, & just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you changee. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you & they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common & are tied together by memories, tears, laughs & smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love & my life.

my girls are all i have left <3