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Name: Courtney
Country: United States
State: Kansas
Metro: Wichita
Birthday: 5/2/1991
Gender: Female
Interests: going to the movies, music, talking to friends, eating, sleeping, dr pepper, love, kissing, rain, kissing in the rain, making out in elevators(especially the ones with mirrors on the ceilings(long story)), orbit gum,(the green kind), holiday inn, Arkansas, the game bullshit(when i win), cheese curds(hahaha lol omg funny) "geetars", pennys, hollister, slow church, PNIs, Van Gogh and Uncle Faustus (actually im scared of them), fortune cookies, being a retard with sarah, my bf turtle, my bird chasing buddy, wills car, room 135, MEPS they r hotties, waffle dance, waffle house, cow partys, partys in fields with people from arkansas louisana and georgia, Galleria, falling down stairs, midget country, waking up and "exercising" at 4 in the morning, fill in the blanks, propel, kenzie, lauren, brittny, mattie, aileen, sarah, andrea, glen, hillary, graham central station, cheerleading,
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message me
AIM:  BLNDatHRT5291
AIM:  FoRgOtEnTeArS09
Member Since:
6/24/2005
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<3Courtney | | |
| i want a boyfriend i hate the feeling of being alone! i hate it i mean i need some1 to tell me they love me and if its possible i want a boyfriend 2 tell me they love me and actually mean it! i make mistakes and its not my fault but it is and ive learned that! I havent had a boyfriend that cared in a long time actually for all i know i probably never had a boyfriend that cared! i want a guy that i can talk 2 for hours and they dont care if i say somethin stupid cause they do it 2 and we laugh about it for hours! i want a boyfriend that calls me when he gets home from school around 4 and we talk tell 9 when my dad kicks me off the phone and even then he trys 2 talk 2 my dad so we can talk longer! i want a boyfriend that breaks our awkward silence by saying "i love you" i want a boyfriend that is nervous to kiss me and does it when the time is right! i want a boyfriend that will walk down the street with me holding hands while the other 2 are way in front of us and just talk bout our family and how weird they are! i want a boyfriend that when me him his friend and my friend are tryin 2 find a movie and his stupid friend puts in a porn movie he turns around with me and we just laugh! i want a boyfriend that asks me 2 marry him the first day we meet. i want a boyfriend that isnt perverted around me or even perverted at all! I want a boyfriend that is nervous just laying right next to me! i want a boyfriend that just lays next 2 me and just looks in my eyes 4 hours! i want a boyfriend that sits outside his house and i sit outside mine and we count the seconds in between the time i hear the thunder to when he hears it! i want a boyfriend that picks our song himself and when he does its perfect! i want a boyfriend that when he has to leave after our long good bye and hes walkin away we just look at eachother and til we cant see eachother anymore and so he calls me and tells me how much he loves me! I want a boyfriend that smiles only a few times but when he does it means alot like the time we 1st met b4 he kisses me and when hes nervous or when his around me! and his smile is the cutest thing on earth! i want him to let me sit next to him on his skate board and we just talk 4 hours! ya i know that this dosent sound like a real guy but it is and i still love him and i always will! idk if hes changed we dont talk anymore and when we do its for 10 seconds but i still love him!!!! and i also realized that when uve had everything uve ever wanted and they leave u it is hard 2 b with some1 else that is almost what u want!!! cause u know its out there!!! its realy hard!! well thats all 4 today!! i think! i love u!!
ya weve all read this one before but its how i feel except i dont want a boyfriend i just want someone who well do all of this and more and NOT LIE TO ME HINT HINT COUGH COUGH!!!! | | |
|  thats love there!!!! natural brunette
 not with me obviously!!!
more later my moms kicking me off right now!!!! | | |
| ummmmmm i would first like to apoligize to everyone who blackwell called last night we were talkin and he said i love you and i was like whatever dont even start that bulls**t and he was like fine and so he called everyone in his phone book and yes i did get to hear all of u he had u on speaker and i was on a diffrent phone the WHOLE time so if u decided to be a bitch i heard it!!!! ummmmm congrats to allison on her first day of practice u did great!!! idk what else to say my life is crap right now but thats ok!!!! im gonna go!!! love you all!!!
<3Courtney Nicole<3
EDIT
&& be the
tell me i`m amazinq and why.
tickle me even if i say stop, you know i love it.
hold my hand.
tell me i`m beautiful.
tell me i`m the most amazing qirl you know.
tell me stupid jokes, whatever it takes to make me laugh.
let me wear your clothes.
do things that make me smile.
when i start yellinq at you, kiss me.
kiss my forehead.
kiss me in the rain.
let me fall asleep in your arms.
push me on swings and give me piqqy back rides.
call me. stay up with me all niqht on the phone.
leave me unexpected notes sayinq how much i mean to you,
and then we pinky promise that we`ll be toqether forever,
& i`m holding you to
lets slow dance e couple everyone *wishes* they
could be us
lets look at the stars
&& kiss all night long lets take
it slow then speed it up;
lets take stupid pictures
&& laugh till
we can'`t breathe;;
x3 lets be forever you && me <3333
*love* is* when* you* can't* sleep* because* you* can't* stop* thinking* about* them* love* is* when* u* cant* talk* cuz* ur* afraid* ur* gonna* say* something* stupid* love* is* when* u* barely* move* cuz* ur* scared* u* will* do* something* dumb* love* is* when* u* stare* at* the* phone* for* hours* hoping* that* they'll* call* love* is* when* the* only* thing* that* makes* u* feel* better* is* their* smile* love* is* when* people* can* say* anything* to* u* or* about* u* and* u* just* dont* care* love* is* when* u* get* online* and* u* sit* there* for* hours* and* wait* for* there* annoying* sound* so* u* can*finally* talk* to* them* love* is* when* u* find* someone* that* u* can* tell* everything* and* ur* sure* they* wont* make* fun* of* u* love* is* when* u* can* just* wake* up* have* makeup* running* down* ur* face* from* crying* and* they'll* still* say* ur* beatiful* love* is* when* they* would* do* anything* to* see* u* smile* love* is* when* there* dying* and* the* last* thing* they* want* is* to* hear* ur* voice* one* last* time* love* is* when* every* song* reminds* u* of* them*
I'm sick of hearing people say,
Things will get better over the years,
I'm sick of everyone telling me,
I am better off this way.
If you were to lift my heart up to your ear,
You could probably hear the ocean,
If you would touch me to see if I'm still alive,
I'd be cold,
I'm lacking sleep,
I'm draining out.
Maybe I have had my happiness,
It didn't really last for long,
Maybe it will come back,
In the years to come.
Maybe I'll see you again,
And you'll smile,
And I'll wave,
We'll try to remember the good times we had,
But by then they will probably be erased.
You'll probably be with her,
And I'll be standing alone,
And every feeling that I have ever felt,
Will come back and I'll feel,
Once again.
Because without you,
I'm nothing,
I'm a nobody,
You see,
Without you,
I'm dying,
Why can't you see?
i think everyone should read all of this cause this is what mood im in right now!!!! | | |
| make sure u take my quiz!!!!! last entry!!!
*im going to smile like nothings wrong talk like evrythings perfect act like its all a dream and
pretned its not hurting me!
*after a while you learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love you begin
to learn that kisses dont always mean something and promises can be broken just as
quickly as they are made and sometimes goodbyes really are forever
*he made her a garden of roses... and sweeter happier things ... lured her in with his romance ...
stole her heart with his promises of gold but roses have thorns and the thorns made her bleed
crimson ribbons split across the floor his hands stroke her cheeks and he tells her he loves her
"no baby it wont happen again"
well im to lazy to read the rest of the quotes its to early. but ya i guess im gonna go!!!! i think u all should leave me lots of comments cause no one did on my last entry u stupid whores!!!! love you all!!!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO KENZIE!!!!
<3Courtney Nicole<3
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