| So... Yesterday, I did really well. I didn't eat as much as I'd planned which is AWESOME! Not to mention I almost burned more than 500cals doing cardio... I did 35ish minutes on the fat burning program on the eliptical, 30 minutes on the stair stepper and 30 minutes on the bike. I was so whiped out, and felt really dizzy because all I'd eaten was a special K bar. I kept leaning against the machines and my friend would ask me constantly if I was ok. I told her I was just hot and kept going. I kind of like working out with her becuase she's fatter than me, and it pushes me harder to do better than her. I know thats mean to say when she's like my best friend... But sorry hunny... if you're fat, you're fat... and your best friend is gonna notice that!!! I've been kind of bad today... I ate a piece of pizza... it was small... but I ate it. EW... Theres times like this when I want to go back to purging... but... I know how much it hurt me. Anyway, I'm going to skip lunch today, drink a lot of water, and eat very little for dinner. Its Survivor night tonight at my boyfriend's parent's house, sooo... they always make this big dinner, so I try not to eat a lot on Thursdays so I can eat a little there. My boyfriend's mother works at a doctor's office, and she knows that I used to make myself sick, my boyfriend's sister was also a model, so I'm assuming she can tell when girls are ana. She's never had to do anything like that, she eats all she wants and is still fucking skinny... bitch. haha... But I do love her so! A week or so ago, I met with this model Kirsten Owen, because I'm doing a project at my school, I'm putting on a fashion show. This girl wasn't pretty at all... but her body was sooooo slim and long. I was envious. I'll show some pictures of her, and then some thinspo! Stay strong! I need to go work on some bio!!! ::Kirsten Owen:: 
::Perfection:: 
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