| Hey everyone! I'm back! I haven't gotten any comments though. Maybe I need to check out other peoples sites so they know that I exist at least. I have been very busy lately and I feel like it is all going to come crashing down on me. My boyfriend is being a butt-hole, and my mother will not leave me along. My twin sister is always better at everything we do, like for instance, she does full twists better than me at gymnastics and can do her double every time where as I slip up sometimes, she plays the piano AND her flute beautifully where I'm lucky if I can play chopsticks with 7+ mistakes... my own mother is always saying "Why can't you do as well as Lauren Marie?" To lower me even deeper into the pits of my hell, her boyfriend calls her every night where I have to call mine and peel him away from his stupid computer in order to get attention. (I could be standing right in front of it naked and he would move me to see the screen... how sad is that?) My dad is just about the only person I feel that I am doing well with right now. My best friend Marissa is starting to hang out with my (twin) sister, Laurie more. They still call me all the time but I feel bad because I have seen them together alot at the mall, school and other places. I fell left out... I will get over it eventually.
My older brother (he turned 23 this past year) called me because when he talked to my dad, he told him that I wasn't my usualy cheery self. David, (my brother) talked to me for almost 4 hours last night which really helped alot. I got off the phone with him at about 10 and went to sleep since I was exhausted. I woke up to a knock on my door and rain and wind pounding on my window outside. Then Sarie (pronounced S-air-ee) my little sister who is 4, came in (it was around 11 last night) and asked me if she could sleep with me. I said "sure" and she hoped into bed with me. She makes me feel specail. Like at least somebody likes me better than Laurie.
Here is the scenario:
I have gymnastics 3 times a week. Yeah, I'm a serious gymnast. I do small competitions and usually place in them. The only thing I hate is how there are some of these cheerleaders who come to my gym and they do alot of things differently than they are supposed to be done. Like take back tucks for instance, they run halfway down the floor, wasting energy, do a round-off which just wastes more energy, then they do a back-hand-spring which looks like crap (although I have seen plenty of girls do them well, I am talking about this one girl in particular,) then she jumps up and flings her arms every which way, doesn't even tuck, just kind of, does a back-hand-spring with no hands (which they call a whip-back) and land terribly, often times landing on their toes, falling forward, hitting their knees and then proceeding to do a face plant which sadly, results in them whining and crying and needing an ice-pack for their now 10 times the average size nose than has blood running out of it. It is sad. It makes me so aggravated when I work my butt off to do all of those things correctly and get no recognition, but then simply because these girls wear little short skirts, and have a whole "cheerleader aura" they are automatically popular and right about everything. I tried to tell that girl that she needs to pull her legs in more and ride her tuck up some and let the tuck do some of the work before trying to fling herself around like that, but she just got angry with me and then her instructor asked me to go to another part of the gym and leave his squad alone. ARRRGGGGG! It upsets me so!
I suppose that is enough venting for one day. I be sure to write again when I get the chance. Wish me luck!
~Cassie Rae~
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