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Name: Tony
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Oklahoma City
Birthday: 1/17/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: My interests fall under playing golf as much as humanly possible, reading, golf, fishing, golf, traveling, golf, guys nights out, golf, good wine and dark beers, golf, being a pimp, golf, spending as much time as I can with those I hold near, golf, long trips to Kansas, always striving to become more, to become better, to play better golf, to be a better friend and last but not least, golf.
Expertise: Given my intellect and general behavior, I like to think I am an expert on everything. There is nothing that I can't master or give you an opion about. Nevertheless, my true knowledge lies with golf and it's history, general use of the French language, chilvilary, refined social behavior, the art of being a friend, women, and the obvious fact that the K-State victory over OU for the Big XII Championship was a fluke and will never, ever happen again. (Sorry Alicia and Kristen)
Occupation: Accounting/Finance
Industry: Banking/Finance
Message: message me
AIM:  Not2BearbutAbear
Member Since:
11/17/2004
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| Good evening to all.. I am at Curtis's dorm room right now and I am starving. I've been here for three and a half hours watching Curtis and his room mate Josh play Star Wars Battle Front II and now I am trying to convince Curtis to go get something to eat. I never thought I would see the day when I would have to TRY to get him to eat. :) Anyway, I got a job! My days of being lazy are over! I have to take a drug test on Monday, hope I pass... lol.. .yeah, I've never done a drug in my life. So, I should start on Tuesday with Bank of Oklahoma. I'm excited about that. Tomorrow I am going to hang out with Carla, I can't express enough about her. Well, thats all I have. I found my self slightly bored so I thought I would update for a change. No inspiring qoutes today, that well is fresh dry for now. Its getting christmas time!!! I love Christmas... Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night! | | |
| I've discovered, and I believe this to be true for most all of us, that I have been spending too much time worrying about what is going to happen next. I have been rocketing through my days wistfully and wastefully whilst avoiding making the important descions that will alter my path for a more successful future. I have, recently become lathargic, sloth-like, if you will. Too many days have been spent sleeping untill the mid after noon and staying awake 'till my body and mind reach a zombie-esque state; the definition of the word insomia comes no where close. To say that I have merely put my future and my hopes on one opportunity would be an understatement. At present, my ship is sinking and I have not enough hands nor buckets to shovel the water out. I am awash in a torid confusion of life, adrift. I need a beacon, a lighthouse, a bouie would even do well. More importantly, I need to swallow my pride and difuse the persona and air I have put on and maintained of myself. I'm not Rockefeller, yet I pretend to be for myself and those around me. "Perception is everthing." Is it? It can be. That is, only if one believes, themselves, in the perception they are trying to put forth for others. Fancy suits, designer shirts, silk ties and italian shoes may project an image, but if under those ammenities lies something that believes he is no where close to what the public eye believes, then the perception is lost and all is left is a growing pile of nothing, in epically fake perportions. Have I lost my will to fight and to strive? I refer to this loss not for others but for myself. Can I not fight for myself anymore? Can I not achieve the goals that I once believed I was destined to? How do I find that will and that strength that was once in old days? | | |
| 'Tis not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down:
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and tho'
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.
- Lord Aflred Tennyson
Friends this is an excerpt from the poem Ulysses. I recomend all of you to read the full version. This poem is about something more, not less; a journey of the mind, not the body. Lord Tennsyon's word of epic suceess and failure have a certain way of truly inspiring a person.
I have found that despite the encouragment given to me by members of my close entourage I need to find the motivation myself to seek that witch I know I shall find. I can see my goal, just sitting there, pearched like a bird on a wire, a ripe apple for the picking, all I have to do is reach out and take it. "To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield:" that is what I must do. I have labored love for several years now, attempting slightly at expression, yet always coming up short. These feelings, now, are being reciprocated more than ever, it seems that I have been "Made weak by time and fate," nevertheless, I shall remain, "strong in will," for I know that together, her heart and mine are "One equal temper of heroic hearts."
That is all for today, my friends, "The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly." - Buddha
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| I've come to realize that I have no expectations of ever posting consecutive Xanga entries. It's just not going to happen, I hope you all learn to accept this as I have. Since September I have sold one of my two cars, invested in an awesome stereo system, lost one love of my life, fell back in love with another, quit my job, sought a new one and realized that with the right amount of wine I can become a pretty damn good dancer.
Also, I have become aware of how to obtain the one particular goal that has found its way to the top of my list of priorities. Persistance. Yes, persisitance is the key my friends. You can try forty ways to do something but if you never try for forty one then you'll never know if you could have succeeded. However, there is a fine line between admirable persistance and weird obsessive annoyance, at least, that is, when you are dealing with matters of the heart. I know what it is I want, I think I know how to get there, but can I maintain subtle persistance?
The willow knows what the storm does not: that the power to endure harm outlives the power to inflict it.
- Blood of the Martyr | | |
| Last night I went to Edmond and hung out with Curtis and my man Corje Gonzalezs... It was pretty cool. I met curty's dorm room mate and some other people in his dorm. They all seem like really cool people and good infulences. Anyway, then we went to IHOP, of course. I swear, they treat us like roaylty there. After that, back at curtessa's house, I smoked my tires because corje wanted me too. I hope I didn't wake anyone up with my peel out.. Tommorrow I'm going fisihing.
Well, ladies and gents, I'm off to waly world to get some stuff.. I love you all...
"You must understand the whole of life, not one little part of it. That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies, that is why you must sing and dance, write poems, suffer, and understand, for all that is life." - J. Krishnamurti, Indian Philosopher | | |
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