This past weekend was kinda shitty i mean many good things happened,i got to see penn state and got to skate with a few friends but I have to say that i lately had tried really really hard to like my father but he just seems to be a true asshole and now i just hate him even more and it pisses me off how he really doesnt give a flying fuck about anyone, i dont understand how i can be his son, he is so fucking evil and sick such a fucking sick person spending all this time with him just made me hate him more than ever. I know it may seem harsh to you guys but what the fuck kind of person says something like this, I said to him " So what's wrong with Ana (my stepmom) is  she sick or something?" and he says" I dont know, i dont fucking care, she could die for all i care. If she dies i woudnt care i would just get the next one in line" Then he asks me " What do u think i love women , i dont fucking love them, i love pussy" dude i seriously i hate this man. If he can't love his wife, how can he love me or any of my brothers. I'm such a fucking idiot cuz i would always try to impress him and shit and try to get his respect but he never gave a fuck, he keeps telling me how he thinks he's going to die soon well im sorry to say it but it doesnt mean anything to me if he does. The same way it would not mean anything to him if anything like that happened to me. Damn i dont understand how someone could be like that, i hope i never grow up to be anything like him and for now one i'm never asking him for anything i dont care how broke or how bad of a situation i'm in wont look for his help, that greedy bastard can keep all his stupid shit to himself. I dont have a father, he died the day that he denied i was his son and that was years ago when i was a little boy.