::Whoa.. it's been way too long since I blogged... School, doctors appointments, and work has kept me preoccupied. .. I guess I should start with summer session 2..
::SS2 turned out to be great. It went by so quickly, noone was suprised when Prof Renner told us there was only one more week of the session. lol I think it may have been because we were all working hard completing homework assignments, solving group questions, and studying for tests every single class, the time between classes disappeared in the work load. Although I learned alot in Psy100, strangely enough it went by SO smoothly, it almost didn't happen! But my brain was working overtime in an environment where the best thing was a best guess, and it sure was fun sharing dumbfoundedness between us.
::Of course next up is being part of fellow blogger Keone's amazing one-week non-stop adventuring! For his one week stay he cram-packed a melange of Hawaii dosed activity. My first excursion along side Keone came as a Diamond Head hike, with Momi, Iz, and Mike. Diamond Head has gone through some changes... lights in the tunnel, shave ice truck outside (which came as a very welcome and satisfying end), dollar entrance fee (better than the 6 i thought it was..) and a paved path (to make it more handicap accessible?......) The night rounded off to Gyukaku, (beef tongue++). Next up was a poetry slam, (first Thursdays??) which was the best two dollars I've ever spent on an event i think.. the diversity of the performers really broke my preconceptions of what the poetry slam would be like, and it was really quite exciting to watch. The intermission band, Makaha, was so awesome! That night was supposed to be about the poets, but the band's smooth steel guitar melodies arrested my attention. I'm so glad I got to go since I hardly ever check out the art scene around here. I think that night ended with a quick bite at Wailana's, where i got a healthy(-er) tasting loco moco.
::The hike.. needs it's own subject.. man Keone's got the best hikes down, and I can see why he misses Hawaii for it's hikes. Joining us was Keith and Nate, both of who's real names I've forgotten :p, on the hike that runs along the ridge of the valley, and ends at the top of the ridge that seperates Hawaii Kai and Waimanalo. When we got to the top, it seemed an oh-well moment, where the clouds... er... clouded our view of below, but soon enough a faint transparancy teased a glimpse of the northern shoreline, and not long after.. the clouds dissapate slowly, revealing, in ever greater color, the great expanse of the north side. it was a Land Before Time moment! Afterwards, and happy ending with Cake Cortiure and Aloha Salads. A great undertaking Keone had made, with great success!
::I've been feeling my mortality. I'm only 22! but I'm constantly worried about all sorts of things. familiy, school, work, my personal life, my personal achievements, my past. all overwhelming I can't put into words. What's worse I'm feeling the dark bite of bitterness in my heart. I'm bitter at those guys with charisma, I'm bitter at those girls with ideas, I'm bitter I made a fool of myself. Is this what happens to some when we age? without the opportunities of young age... is there hope? Today I was very down. I don't know if its medical or psychological, but I feel like I'm reverting to my former self all over again. Is this normal? I'm so worried about what i'm feeling. I can't talk to anyone because I'm not calm.. I censor myself... why? Just a couple months ago I used to be outgoing! confident! Is it the new environment? My first art class is full of girls. I'm the only male. It's really aggrivating. they're all young too. In my Expanded arts class at KCC, at least the teacher was male, and the girls were of varied ages. I'm just not comfortable in that class... I think this feeling is why women have not been allowed in the workforce for so long.. it's scary! My speech class is peculiar. they all seem to be the popular kids. They're all confident charismatic characters, and I can't get along. It feels like High School all over again. I can't fit in! I'm litterally in the corner of the class mulling over the little distance between me and the other row, while the other guys are hamming it up. this should be chicken soup by now. I almost can't stand it. I thought I'd be a great student... What's worse, the class isn't fake, they're all experienced well rounded forward thinking on it individuals. What could i possibly bring to the table? a dash of bitterness! >:P I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and just let my work speak for me. But sometimes... sometimes it's so draining -_-...
::My dad rented "I Am Legend" from netflix. I don't get it. what did he realize at the end? and man it was a much more freaky movie than I thought it would be...
