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so you threw out all his clothes,
&& burned the love letters he wrote,
&& the plaster dented from your fist,
in the hall where you had your first kiss,
reminds you the memories will never fade

i realized im having ((one of those times))
.. im just mad at the world && im daring it
to push me off a cliff .. just to see if i could fly

once in a lifetime
right in the middle of an ordinary life
love writes a fairy tale

i found my box of letters
lying on the ground ; the ones
you used to write me
before it all went down.

&& she said "your crazy"
&& he said "only for you baby"

ten bucks says you don't have it in you to conquer
fear and quit believing what they tell you to.

if you don't like the way i am ; theres nothing i can do.
i'm sorry ; but i don't live my life just to please you.

a best friend is someone who makes your problems
their problems so you dont have to go through them alone.

come with me tonight,
we can make the night last forever;;

it's pretty sad when somebody has no
life so all they can do is talk about yours.

One of the worst feelings in the world
is knowing that that special someone
is still in your heart;; but you`re not in theirs.

Trust your heart, && believe in Fate..
Good things come to the ones who wait.

if you think i'll let you go,
you're out of your mind.

Maybe you've been through this before
But it's my first time so please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you
i can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool

he puts the sparkles in her eyes
&& he doesnt even know it.

you were my cure & i was your disease
i was killing you and you were saving me

She was beautiful, smart, confident, free spirited.
she could turn an uneasy silence into a conversation.
she could turn tears into laughter, her bright eyes
could light up a room and give comfort and hope.
she could make you smile just like that, and she
could even make you cry, just like that. she felt like
she could change the world, paint it different colors.
she could conquer anything. she believed in fairy tales,
dreams, and love. until that day, when he took his love
away. her smiled faded and turned to tears, and now that the tears have run dry she feels empty. lonely,
even though she's not alone. her pride has faded, her hope seems lost.  she doubts herself, no longer feels worthy or beautiful. Now the silence is her own. her eyes have dulled, her laugh is forever changed. The colors she tries to paint are now dried up and gray.
her dreams have disappeared, her fairy tale is just
a memory thats long gone.

Tragedies happen when the heart breaks,
you gotta fight like hell to stay alive.
The pain you feel: that's life.
The confusion and fear that's there is to
remind you that somewhere out there,
there's something worth fighting for..

driving slowly,
watching the headlights in the rain.
funny how things change.
think of the good times.
wishing you were still with me.
the way it used to be.

here it goes again, put on that
deserving tone & don`t forget that
this was your fault, it's breathing
down your neck, you know you've
got to let it go, your such a wreck,
and now it starts to show ..

maybe your scared of the thought that this girl,
who you've seen happy and sad.           
maybe this girl is perfect for you
and that really scares you, doesn't it?

if only you knew
the things i`ll do for you
then you`ll understand
...i`d do anything.

he can buy you the most expensive gift in
the world .. but the only thing that should
matter is what is written on the card 
 

I’ve felt this way for so long,
it’s like I’ve forgotten how to be happy.
 

you never realize how much you like someone
‘till you watch them like someone else.
 

here’s to the nights when the sand is your seat.
the waves kiss your feet,
& your friends outnumber the stars in the sky.
 

you should never judge a girl by her boyfriend.
 

right now, shopping bags are more important than being held. lipgloss and text messagess are better than linking your fingers with somebody else’s. cute shirts && shoes are more important than worrying about your heart being broken. because my girls come before any guy.

do you know how hard it is for me to sit behind you in class everyday.. all i think about are all those times you brought a smile to my face, all the love we had for eachother, how we would get into stupid little fights but by the end of the day it had been resolved with a kiss, and woah baby that kiss... that kiss is one i will not be able to forget for the rest of my life.

somehow i knew that it would be this way,  <3
somehow i knew that it would s l o w l y fade...

twenty years from now i am gonna look back, and remember that you were that one person
who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. that person who lifted my head when i was losing faith in myself. that one person who carried tears on her shoulders
after every fight, every break up, every death.
that one person who always knew what i was
feeling by the look on my face. that one person
who accepted who i was when everyone else laughed in my face. that one person that accepted every decision i made believing that id make the right decisions. that one person who
knew who i really was. that one person that made the biggest difference in my life. my best friend.
 

why did i let myself believe miracles
could happen, because now i have to
pretend that i dont really care.

she wants to be with him'
but shes trying to pretend
that this is okay

and all I really want is to
lay in your arms, && look in your gorgeous
eyes and promise we'll never love anyone else

Sometimes you just have to realize
that you can't have it all &
you can't fix what you've done
you need to move on and try to be happy
even if it's the hardest thing you'll ever do

love is just a hoax;;
so forget anything
that you have heard.

& everytime the phone rings,
i breathe in slowly & pray
that it`s finally you, calling to say sorry.

it's pathetic it's over
but my poor heart won't let go

 take me to the park
& we can draw hearts
with chalk
all over the sidewalks

&& her heart was broken into a thousand pieces,
&& on each piece, his name was written on it

she's feeling worthless ..used again
nothing's different  she'd stay the night
but knows he doesn't care.

he spends most of his time with other girls.
& she's begun to wonder why she still trys

as she reached for the pills she thought of him ;*
she swallowed, & sat down, as the light grew dim.
no longer would she ever wake. it is he
that caused her heart to break</3

nobody knows what's gonna happen tomorrow.
we try not to show how frightened we are.

so we [ fall ] for stupid boys. we make
lots of dumb [ mistakes ] we like to act
stupid, talk really fast, & [ laugh ] really
loud. but us [ teenage ] girls, we're really
good at one thing ;; staying [ strong ]

She was pretty, he remembered thinking..An ordinary beginning, something that would have been forgotten if it had been anyone but her. But as he shook her hand & met those striking emerald eyes, he knew before he'd taken his next breath that she was the one he could spend the rest of his life looking for but never find again. She seemed that good, that perfect..

everybody wants happiness
nobody wants pain --
but you can't have a rainbow
without a little rain...

you don't have to be in disneyland...
for all your dreams and wishes to come true

he pretends like she's nothing ;;
boy, i know she's your world

and i hear those oh-so-famous words once again ..
" let's just be friends "

He turned around and looked right at me,
but said nothing...Not even "hi". It was as
if the two months we spent together and the
time that I spent loving him just weren't
important..As if they never happened

Hello, Im neurotic. Creating problems that don't exist. Don't believe me when I say it's all alright..
 

And there's these occasional nights when you break down and cry because you know things will never be the same
 

Do you ever wish you could die, but be alive for your funeral?  Just to see who would be there... just to see who would cry.
 

The only thing standing between me &
total happiness is reality
 

& Im sitting here rehearsing all
these things that I'll never say
 

Destination Nowhere. Look For Me I'll Be There </3

A friend is one of the best things in life

Even when I didn't have you, I always
knew in my heart you were mine
 

Don't say we're healing Cause that's not what we do
 

There’s so many nights I wasted
I was waiting for your call
Did you think I’d wait forever
I guess you don’t know me at all

best friends make the cutest couples.

listen as your day unfolds. challenge
what the future holds. try and keep
your head up to the sky. lovers, they
may cause you tears, go ahead, release
your fears. stand up and be counted..
dont be ashamed to cry.

Welcome to a world where everyone
talks about each other. Everyone lies.
Everyone tries to be something they're
not. Nobody can keep a secret for their
life & friendships that have lasted years
are broken. Believe it or not, this world
actually exists. it goes by the name of high school.
 

it`s funny how you can have
all the friends in the world.    *
...but it doesn`t feel right with-
out ONE PERSON

 

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walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in place. she sees a friend & waves, wearing a smile on her perfect face. everyone adores this girl & inside she's unhappy, & she doesn’t know why. She lays in bed at night & cries she doesn’t know what causes the tears. how could this princess have insecurities or fears? she has it all. a pretty smile, many friends, so many guys, the newest trends..her family has money & she gets good grades. her hair is perfect ;; her make up never fades. always looking happy..every single day. but inside she's feeling a different way. this wonder girl. she's everyone’s dream. But things aren’t always what they seem

isn't it fun?
realizing you love someone.
it just hits you one day..
all of a sudden.
they're all you think about.
& when you're thinking about them you either have a smile on your face,
or tears running down your cheeks.
you can't eat, you can't sleep, you just lay there & think about them.
you don't want to go out anywhere, unless you know they're going to be there.
& once you're there, you don't want to be anywhere else.
& than all your friends, & your family ask you if you're okay..
because you just seem so out of it. & they wonder why you've been spending so much time in your room,
just laying there..

i want to  tell  you what im  f e e l i n g
but i d o n t  k n o w where to  s t a r t
i w a n t  t o  t e l l  u  e v e r y t h i n g
but i'm afraid you'll  b r e a k  my heart

&& you know it’s not like she’s forgot about him
She’s just dealing with the pain
&&  the fact that she’s survived so well without him
You know it’s driving him insane

If your blood could save my heart, I'd ask for no more than one drop;
if your breath could save my lungs, I'd ask for no more than one breath;
if your tears could save my life, I'd rather meet my death because I'd rather die
than to see a single tear fall from your face

the only thing you will
ever really need, is someone
who will believe in you. <3

but she cant fake it hard
enough to please everyone.

as a single tear falls from her cheek
she looks to him for comfort; &&
all he can do is look away .. <|3

i just wanna fade right out of myself
like when shadows disappear in twilight
and it's getting so much harder to accept
the fact that i am stuck here
i can't hide from my own eyes

im a mess  && so is my room
i like it better,  that i laugh too
much for my own good ' and
I always say the wrong thing
at the right time.    im loud &&
chances are ill Never end up
hating you, even if i say i do.
Go figure   --»   i cant keep a
"steady relationship" to save
my life because im not girlfriend
material. Black hair & polos
turn me on & i dont believe in
love anymore , so kill me.

Just when i started to open up to you,
you made me realize why i shut the world out..

Sometimes we get second chances,
& sometimes we never make it past the first

 

 Y0 U   T E L L   M E   Y 0 U   L 0 V E   M E ;
BUT  THERE'S  HATE  iN  Y0UR  EYES. 

no more sleepless nights alone.
the bed is better without you.
no more waiting up for calls.
ive got nothing left to say to you

| and you just make me want to change |

I wish I was your one & only
The one you think about at night before you go to bed
Or the one that you tell all your friends about
I wish I was the one who made you smile
& the one that you ran to when times got hard
I want to be the one you’re holding hands with
& never letting go
I wish I was your one & only

 

i wish that i could be back to that warm fuzzy place,
when all i had to worry about was a skinned knee,
sharing && getting cooties.
its too bad at 5 years old we didn't know how
----->> h a r d  l i f e  w o u l d  b e

no one stops to ask if i need to talk
everyone seems to be five miles ahead
&& i'm left behind wishing i were dead

 

they say school is supposed to educate you
well to be honest the only thing i've learned
is how to pretend like nothing's wrong

 

A friend wonders about your romantic history
but a best friend can blackmail you with it

 

that boy was my first love. <3

you will never know
how many times i've laid
in my bed all night just
thinking how much you
mean to me & how much
«3 . . . i love you . . . «3

i wish i was a white crayon
so no one would use me.  *

&despite all those things you said,
it still felt like love

And I guess what really killed her
was knowing he was just a phone call away,
and she couldn't even push herself to say hey

im tired of these
puffy eyes; && wet stains.
im sick of making excuses for not socializing.
i hate that my diary is the only thing i can confide in;
&& worst of all; is that i still want you

everytime i try to give up;;
hope whispers
.. "try again" ..

i chased && chased;; but i was too slow.
i cried && cried;; but the tears weren't worth it.
i smiled && smiled; but you never smiled back.
i loved && loved; but you didnt love me back.
i am tired now;; i want to move on; but i can't
because it's you i can't have
&& its killing me on the inside

read me like a sign & play with me
like a toy //as i explain to you why
your not just some other boy</3

I know your birthday,
And I know your name.
I know your password,
And your favorite thing.
And I know what you're thinking, boy,
Almost all the time.
I know what you're missing, yeah,
And who you should be kissing.
And it's not her.

The way into a girl's heart is an
unexpected gift at an unexpected time

It's so hard to explain everything that I'm feeling ;; face to face,
I just seem to go dry. But I love you so much that the sound of your
voice can get me high. Thanks for taking me on a one way trip
to the sun..& thanks for turning me into a someone

it's just not the same anymore. you never
look at me like i look at you

 

You don't need me or anyone
else to make you feel special
because you already are.

Life is like a book. But the only problem is you can't read ahead.
Or look back at the mistakes..

Life is too short for a kiss too soft as yours,
I want someone who would actually care...

I just want to spend my life with you.
Is that too much to ask for?

 PAiN DOESNT HURT WHEN iTS ALL YOU'VE EVER FELT.

lOvE mE... hAte mE.. i dOnT cArE aNymOre..

here's a toast to all the girls out there
that are crying tonight because they made
the biggest mistake of their life.
they let him slip away because they were scared.

So many laughs over the years. A couple of stories I hope no one hears. Without you girls, I dont know what I would do. I'm so lucky to have best friends like you

Hey you're right, it doesn't matter
I'm just pouring my heart out,
RELAX, It's not like you love me back

so why dont you shove all those sweet
things you said to me down your throat
& throw em back up to HER because
shes obviously your world

&& so she pulled the
covers over her head
and silently ______
cried her pain away..

Keep to myself all the time
Try to avoid all the lines
And the things that they say
Fighting to keep this alive
Constantly fighting to keep myself going

 

It was your choice
but now I have to live with it..

No matter what, I'll always be there for you..
I will always love you.

Waking up is hard to do when no one loves you..

when someone said, "wow your lucky
to have someone like that in your life." I
simply said, "I know." because knowing when
you should be grateful is the best part of all.

telling a girl shes hot is flattering...
but telling her shes beautiful means soo much more

Sure it is nice to trust other people but
never stop relying on yourself..you came
into the world alone and your leaving the same way

these are the best days of our lives &&
the only thing that matters is following your
heart && eventually you'll finally get it right

no you can change the past. as much as you wish
you could you really can't. let go of that aching desire
and learn to love what you once had. there are no
re-dos in life, you can only move forward and learn to
accept whats's been given to you.

i don't think you understand how hard
it is to talk to you as just a friend.

&& i could conquer the world with one hand,
as long as you were holding the other.

there's a reason for everything that happens
and even if it doesn't seem fair in the start,
it will always make its way in the future

you were unmistakeably my first love. && i will never forget that. even though we have both grown apart - both changed - a piece of you remains with me. you will always be a part of me because you have unknowingly showed me what i deserve. && every guy i'm with for the rest of my life will be compared to you.

You know the world is going crazy when the best rapper is a white guy, the best golfer is a black guy, the tallest guy in the NBA is Chinese, the Swiss hold the America's Cup, France is accusing the U.S. of arrogance, Germany doesn't want to go to war, and the three most powerful men in America are named 'Bush', 'Dick', and 'Colon'.

Was it cruel or kind not to speak my mind?
And to lie to you rather than hurt you
And alarm bells ring
When you say your heart still sings when you're with me
Oh please forgive me but i no longer hear the music

When my daddy told me how to ride my bike
I wish he would have also told me that this
wouldn't be the first time i got hurt.

I shouldn't even be saying this...
           but i love you.

&& I didn't know how much I needed you until the end

I told you I loved you, dosn't that mean anything to you..?

It seems a little sad that
i was the girl whose only purpsose
was to help you find out who
you're really in love with..

NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO
i'LL ALWAYS STAND TALL
SO GO AHEAD AND PUSH ME
CUZ i'M NOT GONNA FALL

Just when you least expect it, you start to
picture yourself with him & you think
about the way he makes you happy &
you see how it all makes sense. & you
realize you care about him a lot more
than you think.

she's not the type of girl to wait by the phone. she
won't cry; she knows it'll get her nowhere. she'll laugh
often. and she'll live her own life. she'd like you
to be a part of it.. but she'll do just fine without you.

tHERE W0UlD C0ME A tiME WHEN WE HAVE
t0 St0P L0ViNG S0ME0NE, N0t BECAUSE tHAt
PERS0N StARtED HAtiNG US, BUt BECAUSE WE
F0UND 0Ut tHAt tHEY'D BE HAPPiER iF WE lEt tHEM G0

iVE CHANGED MY MiND:
i D0NT WANT T0 F0RGET
ANYM0RE. AFTER ALL ...
MEM0RY iS BETTER THAN
N0THiNG.

They'll just say "let her crash and burn, she'll
learn". The attention just encourages her.

She's been hurt many times before this.
You'd think it would be a routine by now.
You'd think she wouldn't let it get to her.
But the truth is, she trusted you.

he told her he cared,
& she was addicted.

stop falling...
you have enough bruises
on that poor heart of yours.

no matter how many times i tell you
__ I L0VE Y0U __
it will never be enough show you
how much i really do mean it.

when you hear someone screaming
your name in the pouring rain--it's me
wanting you to love me like i love you

(&&) just like you, I like to pretend like I don't know
you're there. But i have to admit I'm a little scared
you're not pretending.

re-runs of the past still go through my head For some
reason. every night I still cry in bed. its funny we went
through that. I never really did completely get over you
I wish you could understand just exactly how i really
do feel but the past is the past and love is a battlefield.

I'll wake up one morning & not miss him anymore
I'll finally understand that when he broke my heart
it was for a reason, a reason that I just don't understand
yet but I might soon. & when I do realize, I'll know that
without a doubt that he messed up, not me.

No more "hold on we can make it"
no more holding eachother as the words are breaking.
move on, you know you'll be stronger in the end.
It's sad I rely on guys to make me happy.

&& pretty soon i realized
that i'm worth absolutely nothing
&& i dont deserve someone
as amazing as you.

tears stream down my face. I lost something I'll NEVER replace.

i can`t look at my reflection because
i no longer know whos looking back.

just walk away,
you always do..

i didnt mean to fall in love with you.
but i did, & i`m sorry.

& her heart got destroyed;
by a boy she thought she loved..

everyone thought she was unbreakable.
well, she broke.

she`d absolutely KiLL ;
to hear him say she`s beautiful.

there`s always
BEAUTY iN THE BREAK-D0WN.

& she wrote his name
on a foggy window; watching
it slowly fade away ..

i want to lay in the snow with you,
we could watch the stars go down.

she's the kind of girl who you forget about
as soon as you meet. she is the b-side
to your hit-single ;; the crust on the bread.
every face you've ever forgotten.
she is the verse to that song on the radio,
the one you have to hum along with
because you cant remember the words.
yeah, she's that forgettable.
but broken hearts & backstabbing drama
couldnt touch this girl. she's so far beyond that.

I talked to you yesterday for the first time since we broke up.  And you told me that you like this girl & you both think you're going to marry each other.  I laughed because that's the same thing you said about us.. & you see how long that fantasy lasted
...N0T L0NG AT ALL<|3

She smiles, with all she has left

real tears arent those that fall from your
eyes and cover your face, but those that
fall from your heart and cover your soul

so talk   d o w n   to me   again,
 remind me of how pathetic i am
 and  how  perfect you were.

now i'll write i love you down
the same number of times you
said it to me, & i'll shove all the
pages down your throat so you
you can use  them  on the next
girl   who   thinks  she`s  your
e  n  t  i  r  e    w  o  r  l  d.   <|3

And I'll miss your laugh your smile.
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights. I hate them
Lets start this again for