These past few days has been really awful to tell you the truth. So angry but I don't show it. Some negative some people say and what I really do. I never passed one test in living environment. I studied really hard. Why? Such a failure. I don't even know if I am going to pass the course. I want to get this shirt that I thought was nice. It was a eck0 shirt. I told one of my friends and they were like why are you trying to act ghetto for? How am I acting ghetto? I just like that shirt. So what? Then I have people bragging about stuff. Gosh! It's been a awful week. Saw two fights in my skool already and it's just the beginning of the second month. How do you expect me to think that this skool is safe? I try my best in skool but then i end up failing. Why? A man got stabbed at the 4 train going to 14st. I heard he was preaching about God. Why? So many unanswered questions. I can't forget about everything. I guess today it finally all cramped in and made me in a very bad mood. Next week is my birthday. I don't want anything to go wrong. I just really want to have a great time without anything in my way. Please let me have a good time. I beg you. My birthday only comes once a year. =*( Feeling so down. Some people are so self fish. But who is perfect? Except for God. I find myself learning more and more in timothy fellowship. I think it's a great fellowship. Still didn't even start on my sunday skool homework. Feeling really really down. I don't want to type anymore. I'll blog next time.

I'm so bored that's why I decided to blog. On sunday it was pretty cool. I wore his shirt the whole day. haha I was so cold. I talked to him on the phone but I don't remember what day. hehe I love you. x33

High skool is getting hard but yet you have no time for anything anymore. No more T.V. no more anything. haha But I'm starting to like it. Can't wait to go to College. Even though I know it's mad hard. My b-day is coming up so soon. October 19. YAY!! lol So far Leo and my mom gave me early presents already. Thank you. I got my project back from English. I got 100. I was sort of happy but really didn't care. But for the first time I hear something about 100 in high skool. haha I mean I got hundreds before but like it's high skool. I have to study. I'm going to blog tomorrow. Wish me luck on my test. Marking period ends this thursday.

I GOT THE AMERICAN IDOL CD TODAY!! haha I'm always getting stuff the first day it comes out. I wrote a letter to Kelly Clarkson hoping she would send something back. I got Kelly Clarkson's song on my xanga. So happy. I love her. I'm such a big fan of her.

 Isn't this cute? I really think they should be a couple but things happen.

You should really get the chance to listen to Kelly's songs. "A moment like this" and "Before your love". They are so good and they are quite touching.

 yup this is my girl singing for 911. YOU GO GIRL!! You know your voice is amazing.

 We all know her beauty would remain.

I can't wait till her album comes out. I have to go study now so you can't say i didn't update. haha I just did. Mad love to all you guys out there.

I guess today was a much better day than most of the others. Skool wasn't that bad today. I met a lot more friends and they seem to be so nice. xD I kinda like skool now. But yet I still have to reach my goal and spread the gospel. I also have to find some christian friends. Some stuff people in skool said to me today.
Mr. Halperin : Wow, you got a neat notebook there, very good.
Mr. Coletta : What do you have to worry about? You got all the information you ever need. Everybody listen up this girl in your group has done it she has everything.
Mr. Mowco : Damn, what can I say? You type too fast. Do you practice at home? Well, I have to say that is some excellent talents you got there.
Elisa : Your an artist. I mean look at the map you did.
Carlton : You should do the drawing since your the artist.
Jason : [hallway] HA! [Afterskool] AMY!! My friend likes you. His name is Tony.
Linda : Amy! I saw you on the first day of skool. I was sitting right in front of you.

There was more but those are the ones i remember. hehe Anyways, I got a haircut today. I layered my hair. At first i thought it was ugly and it hurts. But then when the barber was finish i looked at it and i realized it wasn't that bad. Ok, I haven't even finished my homework yet. haha But that's ok.

Update on Kelly Clarkson :
- I saw her show Monday. It was awesome.
- I know for sure that Justin likes her.
- Her album is coming out real soon additionally with her movie.
- I LOVE HER!!!!!haha

Anyways, this saturday i'm going to Ronald's b-day party that i was invited to. Sorry Ronald that i can't get you a gift. haha A friendly hug. hehe I better go do my homework before I can't finish it in time.
  

30 more days till my birthday. haha I'm a loser i'm actually keep track. I wonder what i am going to be doing this year for my birthday. Probably do to a mad fancy restaurant. haha Anyways, here's my wishlist for my birthday. haha

[[Wish list]]
Webcam
Sneakers
A new wallet with a picture thingie inside where you can put pics <no sanrio or anything like that like wallets from gap, or tommy hilfiger..etc.>
bracelet
Him* <haha which i already got>
Anything of KELLY CLARKSON!!!
Tickets to the audition when KELLY COMES!! <i doubt i would get these though haha>
Gift certificate
cool bookbag <haha>
Cellie <getting soon by my parents hopefully>
*hug*&*kisses* <LOL>

I guess that's about it. Today was a ok day. In the morning Jason scared me when we were going to our classes. He just popped out of no where and he's like I'M EARLY!! I'm like OMGOSH. He scared me. haha I had that big smile on my face not cuz i like him or anything ughh..not in that way...haha it's cuz he was being a good boy and listened to me. haha Mr. Hakim is getting mad annoying and he's getting on my nerves. lol I mean i don't have problems with him at all cuz i'm like a good girl in skool but then like i don't know i just don't like gym. It's yucky. haha O yea, did i tell you? I GOT THE KELLY CLARKSON CD!!!! Well i got it when it first came out. haha I was mad happy. Tomorrow is fellowship. Looking forward to that. Tomorrow i have a math, and spanish test. I think it's gonna be easy though. I have to cut my hair it's so long. Probably going to go to the salon this monday with my dad. Next friday there is no skool. xD This saturday i might be chilling with David. I haven't seen him for a pretty long time i guess. haha I kinda miss him in a friend way. I talked to him on the phone yesterday and i was mad hyped. I talked to my baby yesterday on the phone too. It was h0t. But he was playing video games so he didn't talk much. Loser. haha jk Gonna get a camera and take pics this sunday with baby dino and pics of tiff and duchukiee. Still have to finish the "project" of that tiffany assigned for me to do. haha But it's all cool. Trudy, remember to film the pics out cuz i'm dying for those pics. haha You know i want those pics like desperately.

Happy Anniversary to Diana and Kelvin. xD

i love you all out there. x33 mad love
Especially mad love to baby dino.