AzNddrChInK's Xanga

So,...

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 18:50:36 GMT

I really let you die didnt I?

Friday, July 21, 2006

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 07:46:09 GMT

I guess that this is over now
I guess it's called the falling out

So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend

Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"

Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free

Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
There's nothing real for them to see here

Another starry night in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

It rained thrice here...thrice i will rain

fucjk

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 10:00:27 GMT

i hate my ap scores! FUCK!

4- bio
4- lang
5- us

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 22:14:07 GMT

so, in the end, u shall see

that i am but a shell, of what i am

oh what a sham

what did he use to be?

so,....42?

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Wed, 24 May 2006 07:27:10 GMT

well...my paper is just about done...works cited left n thats it

thank goodness for no exams!

i can NOT wait until summer will be here and rocking

ive already kinda been outta school anyways but...i look forward to the "official" end of school

seniors '07? ...hahaha...man, i never thought id see this day come

i still feel like a sophmore

im retarded on the inside

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Tue, 23 May 2006 00:45:48 GMT

Taking it in the ass from Carman

So i was thinking...

Life= troublesome
troublesome=bad
bad=good
Life = good
Life= bad
Life doesn't make sense

Who wants to bring meaning to my life?

My failures do

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Tue, 16 May 2006 23:39:19 GMT

so, life is just as frustrating as usual...nothing really seems to be going my way and JUST when i feel things begin to loosen up and relax...it all cuz tumbling back down again in the same redundant yet vicious cycle

american society has really become quite retarded...wasting our best years saving up and building up for our "golden years" where we r not nearly half the person that we would be in our 20s and 30s

...sumtimes...i just really wanna give a big middle finger to the world

but, i calm myself down and take life in stride...I kant expect much out of other people...they do have their own needs to take care of...i cant expect the world to bend down over to my whims and wants

things just arent meant to be perfect...things just arent meant to be good...

but thats a good thing...since most aspects of life r troublesome and unenjoyable, it just makes the little amount of what is great in life that much better...its what makes perfect things perfect...

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tue, 09 May 2006 17:19:35 GMT

AP exams are OVER!

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 19:38:35 GMT

agh...AP exams are practically here

they snuck up on me

same with SAT II

this sucks

Monday, April 17, 2006

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 22:09:39 GMT

yet, it all still comes crashing down