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Name: Cindy
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Birthday: 9/3/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: ultimate, slacking, singing, procrastinating, ultimate...
Expertise: procrastination ^_^
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AIM:  aZnfriSbeEdragOn
Member Since:
9/12/2002
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| If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best.
That is all.
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| My life is blowing up in front of my face, and I don't know how to stop it. My heart hurts, my head hurts, my everything hurts, and I don't know what to do. Maybe the path I've chosen is wrong.
Also, laptoppie's blowing up or something. Can anyone take a look at it?
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| So, I went to the doctor’s today. She told me my chances of ever fully
recovering were very, very slim, and that I’d probably never be off my
medications. But it’s okay, I’ve come to terms with that fact way earlier. It’s
not really resignation, though. It really is more of acceptance, and I guess
that comes with maturity and just learning to deal with whatever life throws at
us.
I haven’t really been thinking much these past few days, since I’ve been
on break, which is a good thing. Over thinking, for me, usually leads to some
depression, or at the very least a blehh mood. Winter break’s been
very…healing, in a sense. Just hanging out with old friends, regaining a sense
of who I really am, and just relaxing. College friends are great and I love
them, but they can never really replace the people who I’ve grown up with for
the past 4+ years. At the same time, it’s been slightly emotionally draining;
I’ve yet to figure out why. It’s okay, I’ll leave it for now and think about it
later. The first half of break was just pretty much being with my family,
including cousins, aunts, and uncles, but now it’s more of hanging out with
friends. My parents have been surprisingly cool with lots of things, including
my staying up till 4am and getting out of bed at 3, 4pm, or having friends over till 6am. Yeah…^-^ <3 you guys : ]]
I’m loving being home, yet I sorta can’t wait to get back to school and
see everyone again. It’s like I’m going back and forth between two different
worlds: my home world and college life. When I left for college, I was getting
fed up with my home life, but now, I don’t mind being here. It’s refreshing to
have parents and relatives who’ll coddle you and completely spoil you ^-^ I love my family =D
Yayy
for Guitar Hero I&II : ]] I'm on the verge of becoming an addict.
Happy New Year everybunny!! <3
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| retarded buddy is awesome, as always : ]]]
Happy Feet is absolutely ADORABLE <3
Merry belated Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa everyone, and Happy New Year!!!
teeheee ^-^
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| …And I wonder, what happened to us?Not any specific us, just a general us. Remember how we used to stay up
all night, talking into the early, early hours of the morning, and then catch
an hour or two of sleep before going to school? What happened to all of that? Conversations
about everything and nothing, the future, the past, the little things we see
every day. We would marvel at the beauty of a sunrise, and we’d laugh at
whatever stupid things we did that day. Now, though…why is it so hard? Most of
the time, I don’t remember anything we talked about, but what I remember was
the laughter and the happiness. I think, perhaps, that I overanalyze everything.
I understand that we move on, and we find someone new to talk to and stuff, but
sometimes, I just can’t help reminiscing about the old times when we used to ramble
on about the most random topics for hours on end. I miss you, and I miss the
past. I was happy before, but now I’m not so sure anymore. I miss you. | | |
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