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| so i cut off all my relations with my ex. I'm not going to stay friends with her and i'm never talking to her again. from this day forth...i don't know of any girl named PJ. i kept talking to her even after she left me before cause i honestly believed her when she said she was confused. i thought all she needed was a little time to herself to figure things out and than she'll come back to me because of how much she loves me and how deep into our relationship we both have gotten these past 2 years...or at least i've gotten because she obviously doesn't think much of our 2 years. I talked to her yesturday and from our conversation...i found out i was wrong and she lied to me again. She wasn't confused...she really liked that guy and she really did left me for the other guy. she even told me straight up she cared for that guy more than me even after all that we been through these past 2 years...even after all the times i was there for her and all that i've done for her. I cried at that realization and i've never cried over a girl before...in fact, i feel myself tearing up right now just thinking about this. I don't understand how the love that took us 2 years to create can just disappear overnight like this...literally overnight...for a guy she've only known for a month. i feel like I've been lied to and played with like a fool for the past 2 years. All the tears she shed for me and all the times she cried for me because of how happy she was and how lucky she said she felt to have me was a lie. All the times she told me she loved me and cared for me was a lie. If she really loved me, she wouldn't have fallen for another guy. If she really cared for me, she wouldn't have hurt me like this....she wouldn't have tore my heart out and shred it into a million pieces like this. So after that realization...i told her that we should never talk again...even as a friend so this way, she can be with the other guy without "feeling bad" or without feeling any "guilt" and at the sametime...i would be able to to move on and forget about her.
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| i'm hate to say this but with both tmac and yao injured...it's over. the rockets are done for this season...*sigh* i had such high hopes too...
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| dayam. their non stop bitching pisses me off. my mom just called from work just to bitch at me. wth. I'm sick of them saying i'm a failure and that I won't amount to anything. i'm sick of them not seeing the effort i put in to improve myself. fuck you bitch. maybe i should just turn back to how i was and not care again since that's all they see in me. |
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| i got a 1740 on the SATs this time. improved from a 1570 the first time. I got a better score but i'm still kinda disappointed. i was hoping i'll get at least an 1800 on the SATs cause i spend so much time on it...i thought i was going to get at least an 1800 buuuut  i guess i should be happy. i hope i have a chance of getting into colleges other than UH. i wanna move out of Houston.
on a brighter note...i did pretty good on my Finals ^^
Government AP - i don't know yet...the exam was hard so i'm kinda scared.
English - 81...i thought i got an "A" cause the exam was so easy but 
BCIS - 100
Art History AP - 92
Chemistry - 86
PE - probably an "A" duh.
IPC - 94
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