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Sunday, July 22, 2007

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 15:21:52 GMT

We are all just passing by and soon we will be gone. Cherish every moment you have!

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 12:11:33 GMT

Hi,

its been awhile since i last enter an entry here. Oh well we are into tthe second lap of 2007 and i still have a whole heaps of supposed dreams that is still sitting in the cobweb shelves. Seriously speaking time flies so quickly that i sometimes find it really hard to catch up with it.

Life for me has been pretty much work, home and catching up with "frends". I had a pretty depressing few months cause i had been alway catching the flu bug, cold bug and now i have recovering from the supposingly food poisoning which do not know how it turn to stomach flu bug.... seriously do not know why my immune system is so off this year. What happen to the hardly get sick me. haizzzz. I hate been sick as it will just make me feel terribly home sick and i cannot help but keep having the urge to just hop on the next plane back to Singapore. I wanna just go and dissapear.. I wish and i know it is just a DREAM as i have responsilities and commitment here which i had to stick to. DAMN!! i wish i can just be an irresponsible person and just do whatever i like and not feel guilty. I may not be a fully responsible person but i do feel the prick of my conscience when i try to be irresponsible.

Btw i had been attending korean lessons too and seriously speaking many ppl are telling me that i will not learn much from it as it is for fun and travel so it only teaches the basic. But surprise surprise i learnt a far bit... it teaches me to start from scratch which means starting from the very basic. Now i made more friends too from class and also had a wonderful teacher who's going to invite us to her house next week for dinner. I am sad that the 8 weeks of lessons are going to end so quickly but i am happy that i learn alot from my korean teacher. Kamsahanida Seung Sei Nim. :)

Recently had been pretty active into a new sports, GOLF! yes golf, been going to the driving range and golf course (so far 2). Still quite bad but dun worry i will improve on it. I like the sport :) though it does not really help to lose weight :) I blame it on winter cause winter tends to make me have more cravings for food at nite. heheh

I am still with the same company that i am 10months ago for ppl who wonder if i had actually job hopped already. I am coming close to the first year leap. hehehe i have to admit this environment is not exactly the environment that i am looking for but i am still learning. Everyday i learn something new, i've been given new responsilities which is good but it also means my work expectations will increase. Oh well there are pro and cons i guess. I will work harder so that i will eventually get what i like :)

As for studies, parents and aunty had been bugging me to continue to upgrade myself. I did think about it but i seriously dun feel like studying anytime soon. Maybe next year as i just wanna take a year off and just relax. U can say i m lazy, i m hopeless and also can say i m stupid. Yes i am stupid and lazy and hopeless.. HAPPY? I did look into different areas of possible upgrading myself but nah this year i will give it a miss. Probably next year.

I am currently bored and have nothing to do so i m sitting here typing whatever thoughts that comes first into my mind. I dun care if whatever i type here does not flow so too bad if u dun like the way the blog flows. This is my blog and i do it the way i like it.

Enough of my nonsenses going to count the number of tiles in the ceiling.

Annyeong!

Friday, March 30, 2007

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 05:27:23 GMT

We are less than 1 day away from the third month of year 2007.. Wat a year... Time passes so quickly that i feel that i can hardly catch up with it. I barely remember the time when i went to the beach for countdown with a bunch of frends. We were discussing our new years resolutions and wat we should do to keep it in mind. Before we noe it we are already almost a quarter thru it.

I just finished my 6months probationary period with ABB Grain Ltd and i can say its been a real nice experience. First time getting a job after graduation and i m still surviving :). Working in Adelaide after graduation is really something i was comtemplating for awhile before my graduation and i m still not sure whether i had made the right choices but oh well, like wat my mentor says, lifes are full of decisions and sometimes we do make the wrong choices and regret but we cannot afford to dwell in it and not move on.

Guess i made a few wrong choices here and there and dwell on it so i guess i have to learn to let go of it and move on. It is hard but i m sure i can do it especially since i been thru pretty much since the day i arrive in adelaide. Life is pretty make on my own, falling down is part and parcel of my life nw and i m somehow getting use to it. In fact i reckon i had been a much stronger person now as i dun go running under the skirts of my parents like i use to do when i faces troubles or problems.

Things around me have been constantly changing and i realise that i m adapting to changes much easily comparing to the last time guess this is part of growing.

It is friday again, here i m sitting in the office catching a quick break from my usual work load. Work had been pretty slow as i guess cause it is the end of harvest and nows the time for all of us working to catch a break from the harvest (harvest starts from aug and stretches to mar of the next year.) i should say its been a pretty quiet harvest as there is a drought (sever drought case) going on in Australia. Hope this year it will be back to normal... Just hope rain and will and pay us all a visit and give all the growers out there the much awaited rain that they need. Kids growing out in the rural will want to have the chance to waddle in ponds and pools again.

K enough of my rambling, will come back and update soon...

Annyeong :)

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 14:40:21 GMT

hey hey everyone, i m back after a long long break.. sometimes wonder who really will read my blog.....

Oh well.... i m back to update for those who still bother to come into my blog and take a peek.

Ever wonder how fragile life can be? I just learn bout it not too long ago through the hard way. Suddenly all the most painful news and experiences starts coming in my directions.. Man i must say it sure hurts. It hurts when i do not noe where to express or vent it out and at the same time i must act brave and strong.

Just had my 27th Birthday passing by like a breeze and was looking at it, i m 27 this year and i realise i still have a long way in terms of experiences and maturity. Man i wish i can just turn back clock and make it stay at the point tat i wan it to be. I am selfish...

Just got back from singapore a couple of weeks ago and i realise i super miss home.... i wish i can be home and at the same time knows that i have commitments that i need to be responsible about. Oh well i m selfish i noe but who ask me to be human. At the same time I m into the 6th months of work for ABB Grain Ltd, it is a whole new experience and culture which i m still struggling to adapt. I have a bunch of lovely collegues and they are very thoughful and helpful. I guess i still need some times to adapt to the changes.

Well these are some random thoughts, will get back to it wen i have the mood...

annyeong

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 13:27:52 GMT

thoughts been flowing in and out of my mind for the past days and finally i decided to write it down. Well this entry is going to be a different one from the one before in terms of emotions.

Was looking thru the old photos over the weekend and suddenly i missed home. I missed my family, extended family and frends back in Singapore.Sometime i wonder if i had actually made the right decision to stay back in adelaide after my studies, oh well maybe i m still searching..... deep within me is still kinda of lost though i had already gotten a job. I m really lucky to get a job i noe but still things are really going a bit too fast that i do not have time to sit down and really think it thru. Many thoughts have been running thru my mind, am i doing the right thing, am i suppose to stay on, wat i should do next? It is really making me abit emotional. oh well !!!

Suddenly thought of my most beloved grandpa who was called home to be with the lord last year. Its been a year since he was called home. I cannot believe time just flew by so quickly, i still think about the precious time i spent with him when i m young.. i really wish time can just rewind and stop at the best moments. Well nothing in this world is perfect so i guess ........

I m typing this blog now with my mind feeling cloudy.... seriously i do not noe where i m heading towards now and wat i wan.... maybe someone should just hit me hard in the head and wake me up!!

annyeong!

Updates

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 00:55:41 GMT

Hihi,

hi everyone who does occasionally still read my blog, its been ages since i last updated my blog (hehe). Alright here goes for the long awaiting entry(hmmm wonder if i m the only one who still bother to update my blog.)

I am an official graduate with effect from 18 August 2006 and currently working for ABB Grain Ltd along South Terrace as a finance officer. I m really lucky for the fact that i actually got a job in matters of weeks while some of my closer frends are still hunting for their dream job. Oh well i really have to thank God for his provisions.

My parents were over a month and a half ago for a week for my graduation. I was really happy to have them around as this time round i can drive them around and bring them to places that we would not be able to go without a car and they truly enjoy it this time. My parents even have their first try on live shooting in a shooting range in Franklin Street and bowling. My mum really surprised me with her bowling skills.... she is better than me for all those who noes me. Brought them to Monarto Zoological Park to see the wildlifes too. Its been really great to spend some time with them even though it is only for a week.

Its been almost a month since i worked in ABB Grain Ltd, still trying to absorb all the informations that was given to me (may be a bit slow but i will get there). Life for me nw is basically work and sleep. I am heading bed as early as 1130pm everyday for the weekdays nw and will be up by 715am (wat life). Oh well there goes my study life. Hmm cannot complain but cannot blame me for doing that, remember life is never enough..

Alright i m currently typing this in the office after morning tea.. will update again soon..

Annyeong!

Friday, June 16, 2006

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 09:10:40 GMT

Another week has come and go... Oh well wat can i say? Half a year is almost gone and i m one step closer to been unemployed!!! Graduation is set between 16-17 August and i cannot believe i m finishing my 3 years degree in a blink of a eye. Oh wel..... worries of completing my studies and going back to a unfamiliar setting.....

Haizzz dunno wat i m thinking nw. will continue!!

Annyeong!!

Monday, May 29, 2006

Mon, 29 May 2006 10:52:49 GMT

Hi hi,

its been awhile since i last updated, well everyone has their fair share of ups n downs, do u agree? i had my fair share, i shall not say i m not greedy but i would wish to have more ups than downs but it is not the case in my viewpoint.

I had been feeling pretty uptight and stress (maybe due to studies and also other personal factors.) Oh well, i guess this is life and i have to learn to adapt to it. I m a month away from exams and this will be my final exams in my studies life unless i decided to continue to study further. Well many questions are popping in my mind now, wat i wan to do, wat i should do and wat will be set up for me? oh well, i think it is pretty normal but i m kinda of freaking out. Can someone tell me wat i should do?? well i think i have to figure it out myself then. hahaha

I am currently preparing myself for the coming exams. it is slow but i will get there. will update soon if anyone is interested to read on!!

annyeong!!

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tue, 09 May 2006 11:04:20 GMT

feeling breathless!!!

Monday, May 08, 2006

Mon, 08 May 2006 05:18:19 GMT

Getting frustrated with whatever things that is going on in my life. Can someone please tell me wat i should do to stay sound?

annyeong!!