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AznBratQueeN
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Name: ThikY
Birthday: 12/1/1986
Gender: Female
Interests:
Expertise: There's just to many... Hehehe. I'm just good in EverythinG...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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AIM:  AznBratQuEeN
Member Since:
10/18/2004
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| My love is like a drug...He's the drug and love is the drug dealer.
When he is with me,
all my tormented cravings are gone.
My body would possess with heavenly endorphines and blissful orgasms.
I want to smile... to sing... to laugh... to dance.
My muscles would untense and slowly relax.
Divine energy... delightful satisfaction... and uplifting serenity...
would take hold of my peaceful mind as I reach the state of nirvana.
I am just high off him.
When he is gone,
all my plagued cravings return.
I am consume with compelling agitation and compulsive fustration.
I want to scream... to grab... to punch... to kick.
My toes would curls and my fist would tightly clench.
Gut wrenching pain... endless torture... and uncontrollable desire
would take hold of my retched body as I suffer continuously.
I am just addicted to him.
Haven't been on here in forever... welp here is the update...
I am currently working at The Old Spaghetti Factory in downtown.
It is the hardest serving job ever. I am building arm muscles just carrying trays full of about 6 dinner plates back and forth to the damn customers and to the kitchen. Not to mention I have to make salads, drinks, and scoop icecream for the customers.
I don't recommend workin there unless you are desperate and can handle multiple task.
Anyhow, I am also takin a summer class... Oral Communication just to get it out of the way and build on to my credits. I am still attending Truman State University. Am leaving back to school on August 16th... (actually am goin to Rolla to visit Dinko during his freshman/party week and then to school).
Plans for the upcoming future...
1) Work my ass off everyday to save money
2) July 4th - Go to the fair
3) July 14-17- go to Chicago to visit HIM
4) Get a tattoo and my nipple pierced
5) Get a strappy black shoes and cocktail dress
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| Wow! I had sucha good Spring
Break! Let's start off with Wednesday because that's when my real Spring Break
began...
Wednesday, March 15, 2006.
Today is Dinko's Birthday! I left for Rolla. It was about a 1 hour and a half
drive. I told my parents I had to go back to school for a meeting but for real,
I went to Rolla for St. Patrick's parties. Hehe. I gave Dinko a stitched letter
T-shirt with his frat name n something else...*wink wink* We got drunk n went
to a Sig Tau party. Hey isn't this funny...Dinko is a Kappa Sigma and I'm
a Sigma Kappa? Hehe.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
UMR really take their St. Patrick's very seriously. They don't have school
today or Friday. We went to some Greek tournament. They called it "The
Goncho Games." We then came back to his frat house and took a nap. After
we woke up, we took a shower, ate something, and got ready for the parties. We
pre-partied with his frat and played some drinking games. Somehow, Dinko began
to sense my distance... This is when things start goin down... I gave him my journal to read... about our odd
relationship. After some deep and sensitive talk and some tears, he asked me
back out! I
am just ridiculously happy. I think we can make it work. We went to the TKEs
party afterwards! Everytime he introduced me as his girlfriend to his friends,
I just can't help but smile...
Friday, March 17, 2006
When we woke up, we went to the Goncho games again. We came back, took a nap,
shower, and we went to dinner. Four other people went with us. One of his
brothers girlfriend came... coincidently, she is a SIGMA KAPPA too! We went to KYOTO to eat. I never
went to a Japanese steakhouse before. It was so kool to have the chef cook in
front of us. To top it off, this old guy who
randomly sat with us paid for our dinner! Everything cost like $10 and up! He
is supposeably a millionaire. Hehehe. The tab cost about $180 and he gave the
waiter like a $40 dollar tip! That was so
awesome! At night, I we met up with some people from our highschool and
partied. We went to Phi Kapp party...so crowded.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
We went to concert. It was all hippies there. Hehe. At night, his frat host the
Greek party. It was a foam party! It was so wild and crazy! All I remember from
that night, was me n Dinko gettin it down on the dance floor which was covered
in a 4ft high foam. I remember throwing up in the boys shower. Hehe. I passed
out like whoa. I lost my shirt, I was running around in my bra the whole time!
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Hhee. Dinko had to wake up early to go clean up. Poor boy. Let me just tell
you, the house is fucked up. Hella dirty. Puke, liquor, and trash all over the
floor, mixed with foam. I was all ashy the next morning. I was so depressed to
leave and go back to school. Dammit, back to reality!
Me n my baby
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| It's time to update.... Gosh, it has been so long.
Nothin much is happenin with me. I am juz hella bz with school. Tryna keep up with it.
I'm excited for my sister's wedding tho... It shood be really fun. I love my bridesmaid dress. Hella sexi. 
Last Friday, he picked me up from Mizzou... I was so happy to see HIM. Then we went to STL. On saturday, we went to Rolla and partied there. Had some Great time! *wink wink.* He gave me a stuff animal, chocolates and candy for Valentine Day!  I love him! It was so depressing to leave him on Sunday. The times I spent with him always seem so surreal and fantasy-like... it is always enjoyable and pleasant. It fucikin sucks to return back to reality.
Hmm. Is it possible to tell someone you love him but there's no title to your relationship?
I'm very confused...
I mean we talk to each other everyday and we end our conversations with those "Three Letter Words" but we aren't in a relationship. Is that wrong?
I feel as if our passion for each other is growing and getting stronger... it's beginning to reach the point where it's considered "Infatuation." I feel I should stop this passion now before we'll both regret it in the end. Seriously, where is this love heading? and if this is not a relationship, what would it be called? Would it be called "Friends with Benefits?" What exactly is Friends with Benefits? Is it a fuck-buddy? How about when the relationship is "Friends with Benefits." + uncontrollable passion? What would that be called?
I am so happy with him right now but I am doubting this relationship....
I am afraid of falling in love so deeply that it'll just hurt me in the end... but I'm more afraid of losing him.
Seriously, I am beginning to see this as a backup for another relationship. We just haven't found an opportunity to talk with someone else. However, if one us did, how fucked up would that be? I see some heartbreak, rejection, and some major drama goin down. Personally, I don't want to date anyone. Why would I want to when I have something good in right in front of me? However, that something is not within the range of my grasp. It is just there for me to see... until someone comes along and takes it away.
Welpz, what should I do? Should I continue this odd relationship or pour water on the fire and move on?
Seriously Confused,
Thiky
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| Is my Birffdayyy!!! I hit dah Big 19 yall! 2 more years till i hit 21. | | |
| I am drunkkkkkkkkkk! I fuckin love me sorority! I juz got intiated today... I mean yesterday! So i am a real Sigma Kappa. Go to college n join a sorrority. Is fuckin fun n is dah best decision i've made. "One heart, One way! Sleepy slepeey... am out! Peace! i | | |
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