| church tonight. found out that nicole and saum- gut went to a canton christian song thingy. nicole won 600 bucks. woot. got the live songs. both songs were really go. loved them. nicole composed her own. its was so touching. aww... i want it on my mp3... send it to me....
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so once again everyone is stressing out on how im am going to kill myself next year with my classes. if i wasn't restricted then maybe i reconsider, but the bottom line is i am force to take six classes in the fall and at least five in the spring. im not taking it just to kill my sel.f i personally want to learn the individual areas. i have thought this through, al ot to. im not doing this for college, competition, or even my parents. im doing this because i want to challenge my self. we only get to experience high school truely one, therefore i do not want to leave with any regrets. If the college does not accept me, than fine, but the point is not to get a 5.0 gpa. I doubt i can even get 4.0 with all cp classes. I want to spend learning the material. i do not want to slack of and waste my time. honestly, i actually think frocing me to be in a art class of any sort is even more challenging to be creative and imagination. in academia there is one correct answer and not where as its in all direction. i do not want to get a b in something that is graded not on right or wrong rather something that is a interpretation. how can art be wrong?seriously.... and people do get non- As in art sometime. high school is to learn what to do in life and experience. i know that i would not pick an art path to major in so why bother. why not the academia where my major can potentially be found. i still do not know what to do with my life and everyone is like do not put undecided. english i need to work on and i like having jackson sophmore year. while if i do manage to pass the ap exam, i can not take the placment test. two birds with one stone. i have to take math because i need math in the science fields anyways, and have to do four year recommended. i already am in ap stats. both calc are ap, so that is not for debate. while i truely thing that its either science or criminal justice related that would make it. thus i need science and english. ap would be benificial. i dislike physics and do not care how easy the bc is. bio and chem is both debatable. freshman year, habteab was a bad teacher, so i do not want to eliminate bio just because of that. i also loved having chem last year. it was most definatly the most enjoyable class. both requires lab, meaning hands on learning and provided with good teachers. in oppose to others that i have. leaving myself to take csm course. human bio. and than anatomy. michelle has the previlage to do it in school and on cats i need to do it outside of school, but get to work with really bodies. freaked, but none the less want to. plus kevin and wilson say that they want to take it too. coenrollment in bio and human bio would help. all that leave is one more period. ir is interesting, but considering it can be two semester, why not both. psych is always a back up and being one semester, i can have nas that way. if i truely not meant to be than i would also have ap japanese, which i really do not want..... they wouldn't.... i hope not anyways. this is the first time i am truely being firm on my decision. all my life i been a guy who like ' i dont care' 'whatever'..... ect. the thing is i am listening to all o you guys, but the things is im not just listening to the words ' don't take so many ap classes', but also ' push your self' , 'set your goals higher'. the classes is really going to prepare myself for college no doubt, and also forces me to time managment, which is a habit i am trying to break. the homework assigns is not every night like cp, an hour a night, but rather give you a duration of a week to two to complete it. time managment is entirely on yourself. while majority lies on test. i need to pressure my self to that enviroment and not rely on homework and attempts, but getting the right answers. taking csm allows be that flexibility having it only once a week. and on block days i only have half the homework to worry about. five classes means i have two hours to study before practices, which forces me to be in school. i mean what else is there to do. while flexibility can go around church and meets for x/c and track. i want to continue in pursuing both. i want these classes so badly. i will pray for it and along with all those other prayer requests that we had.
*FYI, riley thinks im crazy. but did you know that riley wanted to take the same classes i taking this year, just that he failed to check with the teachers back in sophmore year. |
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| been eight days since i got baptize. Try to devote myself to quiet time. 5/8 is not exactly the best start, but im trying trying really hard and hope i can commit to it. just same some photo albums and notice old pictures. Back in kindergarden with all my old friends- saw Steven, Claudia, and Karen's pic. Brings back lots of memories. Kind of felt bad that all of us just went our seperate ways without any closure. Maybe it's just me.... no one uses xanga anymore, but if somehow they see this... and i know i promise pictures like last year but didn't deliver. Will try to do that ASAP, which probably translate to summer. Want to reserve you guys senior pic though. |
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| 12 hrs ago....................... DUNKED |
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| revelation in my life BAPTISM |
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| no friendship is worth losing and i cannot see how anyone can see it any other way... |
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