| the holiday season is upon us and i find myself getting really home sick. it's kinda funny cause for most of the year up til now i wasn't that homesick. i guess it has something to do with the holidays maybe, or maybe it's the fact that i'm going to be spending my first xmas in iraq. well me spending xmas in iraq really can't be helped cause it's my job. i'm sure that the computer and phone center's will be packed when it get's closer to the day but i'm still going to try to call home or get a webcam thing going. oh well it's late and i really should be going to sleep. til next time |
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| updating xanga has become very rare for me. mostly cause not a lot happens during a typical day. for the past week i've been going through some refresher trainging and it's gonna go on for another 3 weeks. it's not hard, i just drive a truck around and that's about it. at least after i finish i'll be one more month closer to coming home. i've been slackin off from the gym lately and i'm starting to feel it. i should really try to keep a set schedule for going to the gym but that's hard to do especially for me. the temperature has certainly dropped a lot in the past month. it prolly gets as low as 60 degrees at night and like 80 during the day. that's a big difference after being used to 90 at night and 120 during the day. i'm starting to pack a few things and gettin ready to send them home. and as i was packin i realized that i didn't really have that much stuff. i have my laptop, playstation, tv, binder of DVD's/videogames/music, my PSP, my camera and...that's about it. i don't have much to send home. all of my civilian clothing i left at home when i went back for leave and so all i have with me r my military clothes and issued items like my vest, weapon and all that which i'm gonna have to turn back in when i leave. i guess that's a good thing maybe cause then i won't have very much to carry on the way home except for a few gifts. well i think i've rambled on enough so i'll end it here. til next time. |
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| 4 MORE MONTHS!!! i can't believe that it's already been almost a year since i left. in a lot of ways i'm still the same person i was when i left but in other ways i know i've changed. i have a different outlook on life now and i also feel a lot older. i'm getting healthier and i'm in the best shape of my life because of the help and motivation of some good friends that i've made here. i know that a lot of ppl at home even my closest friends would never understand how i feel because they've never been in the situations that i've been in or lived through the things i've lived through. i've had many close calls and even closer encouters. i've seen things that most ppl don't get to see in their lifetimes. i have a lot of found memorie's and good times but at the same time i have memories that i wish i could ferget that haunt me and keep me up at night. i know that i'm doing good in the world being here and doing wut i do and i am proud of that fact. i'm proud to be a soldier for the greatest nation on the planet and i'm proud to do my duty. this deployment has definatley been a life changing experience for me and i'll never forget it. |
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| i've said this one and i'll say it again...I HATE IRAQ. |
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| it feels wierd being back home after so long. i know there have been some changes and i know that many things have stayed the same but still i can't help but feel out of place. it feels like i don't belong here n e more. like i've gotten so used to being in iraq and living a military life for all this time it feels like it's the only way i know how to live. i'm prolly just stressin out a lil bit. we were told that we might have a lil bit of difficulty adjusting back to civilian life but i never thought that it was be this hard. i can't imagine how i'm gonna feel when i come home for the end of my deployment 8 months from now. *sigh* i'm just in such a wierd place now. |
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