*sigh*
*blah*
*tear*
*hmm*
All the feelings inside all mean one this n that is how sad i am n depressed. I been crying mai heart out for no reason I don't think im ever gonna b the same ever again cause everone n everything is not making it n e beter. Mai best friend i know since kindergarden is gone she left me n now who do i have... I know there are alot of people that care for me n i trust them just iono rite now.....
I care for who first:
I care for Friends
I care for Family
I care for strangers
Last I care for mai self
Question:
Wut would people do if i died? Would they miss me?
How big would mai funeral b?
Why:
Why do you guys think im so rich?
Why do you guys think im popular?
Why do you guys love me?
Why do you guys always wanna b there for me?
Why does it hurt you guys when im hurting?
Why does it matter how I feel?
Why does it matter for me to live?
Why do I half to go through this now?
Why am I so nice?
Why can't I ever be mean?
Why can't I live life like before?
Can't believe it:
Can't believe mai life has changed so much.
Can't believe that drama cam in like a hurrican.
Can't believe how I always feel like shit now.
Can't believe how I am so nice.
Can't believe how fast I can forgive people.
Love Life:
Wish I had one......
Feelings:
Sad = mai life been to sad since I cutted mai self
Mad = cause I can't tell people how I really feel
Confused = cause everything is in mai mind now
*shout*outs*:
Supatra: hmmm wut to say....All I can say now is obsession.....wait I can say stuff now...Omg im to depressed....Iono y errr imma eat alot of chocolate errr to much may make me throw up but shit I rather b bolimic then feel all this pain.
Stephanie: Hey you hope that your ok....Im sorry about wut happen yesterday it was jacked up...I yelled at him alot u should ask him about it all.....But yea love ya girl.
Angelo: Hey you... Wells im sorry for going off on you yesterday....Its just that you need to learn how to forge your own path n stop following the rest of the gay ass cousins we have... Cherish your life n cherish the fact that you have many people that care for you so much so stop hurting your self....*tear*tear* but yea.......Forge your own path cause by the looks of it the only difference from your path n the rest of our cousins is taht you have way better grades... So yeah change that k...
Sam: Wells I always feel blah now...But to keep all the people at school from know is to wear a mask n keep it to that...I need more chocolate...I had alot this weekend but I need more cause shit....Chocolate is mai confort food..Iono y its probably cause chocolate is the only thing that is cheap n I can get..
Brittney: Hope were still on for the grub on....Omg iono wut i feel but sooner or later it better leave cause i want the old me bak the one from last year....You him the happy go lucky version of me..
Jay'al: Wells hope that we actually do go to the mall but im having second thoughts cause yesturday i felt so blah...N people are making me feel even more blah...Omg im at philipping garden and people are going crazy rite now.....
Jose: Omg u never go online n e more so I don't even know why i waste mai time writing you a shout out...Its probably cause your one of the original group lol...Lucky cause if you were not I would forget about you rite now.... O wells umm hope you go to the mall wit us if not thats your bad....
Nana: I LOVE YA mai cousin really mai cousin...Wells its fun talking to you now but i think its only gonna b online cause i don't get mai cell bak till they send it bak cause i broke it n we had to send it bak for alittle while.....
Cecy: wells you never answered mai question about how you know how i feel...Either you did it cause if you did i will kill you...Lol but yea o wells its in the past now rite....Yea but imma go to your graduation k..... lol so yea call me sumtime....
End.....of.....*shout*outs*
Wells yea the list above shows y i don't really care for mai self cause i think of other people before me......
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