Everyone needs.....

        - a shoulder to lean on

        - one life, one lover

Everyone needs a shoulder to lean on when we need it most, for example when our hearts encounter a mischevious time that causes us to lose someone but gain another. When we cry, that special someone will be the person to be there for you to comfort your tears when you really dont like to reveal problems to your family or close loved ones. But God will always be there for you! One life, one lover means that some where out there, someone has a special someone waiting for them, so we need not worry about growing old, sad, and lonley sitting on a porch on the country-side by yourself, because that is no ones ambition. In the beginning everyone feels lonely and empty at times but at the end, everyone is happy and content.

I guess that there is alot that I should be thankful for, even though I dont really show my appreciation to my parents for loving me. Even though we get into all these arguments and stuff like that, in the end, I really do not feel mad anymore because grief cannot break our family bond. I am thankful that I have Kyle by my side. I think in my heart that I really deserve a good, faithful person such as him because during this year, ive been through alot of unbearable shit that I hope that no freshmen female would ever have to go through. Tooo much shit happened, and there are some things that I regret that I did in the past and I wish that I could take it all back but it already happened and there is nothing that I can do about it. There are also some people that I was wrong about and made a judgemental mistake saying that they were nice and content whent they werent. I regret meeting the people who poured shame upon me and shattered weakness into my veins. Well, the past is over and I already prayed about all my shame and dissatisfaction. The past is over and now I have to learn to live in the present and plan for my future. I am glad that God gave me such a loving family who supports me in EVERY way, and I am also thankful for God giving me a wonderful bf *Kyle*!

                                                                             - Alisa

Happy valentines day everyone. Hope that you enjoy the day of hugs and kisses with that special someone.

                                                  From: Me

Hi everyone,

        This dude that I use to like for I do not know what crappy reason is Nabil. We use to be cool friends. I asked him if he had a girlfriend and if he did be honest with me because I don't want to be involved with any crap of people getting mad at me and so on. Well, about Saturday somewhere during the dawn daylight hours, his "girlfriend" calls me. For a minute, im in a state of shock at how someone would lie to me  and say that he doesnt have a girlfriend. His girlfriend calls me and tells me that she is going out with him and to not like call him anymore. I was astonished at how he doesnt have the manhood tell me like a civilized person that he is in a relationship. In my mind I am thinking what a shithead!! How could someone be that idle and concieded? On Saturday night at my friends house when we were having a social traditional gathering, I called my friend Bukki and she three wayed him because we wanted to ask him a question. Then, when he answers the phone, he uses profainity against her and hangs up the phone because he is a jackass like that. Then, at that moment, I am pissed because he yelled at one of my best friends. Anyways, I call him back to find out why did he do what he did to my friend? He answers the phone and then hands the phone over to his girlfriend and then she gets mad at me because I want to ask him a question and then tensions rise and we hang up the phone. He calls back on my friends house phone and she answers the phone, he uses profainity against her also and that really made me pissed because she is like an elder sister to me and she has been there for me every step of the way. She helped me make first divisions during solo and ensemble and just made the best of me and I love her sooo much. Anyways, back to the story, she hangs up the phone becuase she is furious and he calls back and she answers the phone and then he calls back again and throughout this dramatic scene, tensions are way above our heads now it is like tooo the sky. The main point is that at the beginning of the year he was leading me on and kept on leading me on to the point where I liked him and  what I was not aware was that he was trying to get on my good side to act with me in sexual congress which would never happen because I want to keep my virginity and do not intend on wasting it and spoiling it and have it being taken advantage of. Back to the main point, he had a girlfriend and he lied to me by not being honest with me and for the most part, he lied to everyone by not telling the truth. I know that he might/will start to talk crap about me but if he does, It isn't true because he is just a lying asshole. He wanted to be my friend just to sleep with me and then abandon me. And like I said, I do not intend on wasting my virginity, I want to save it and for anyone that doesnt respect that wish can kiss my SDA ass, because I am tired of putting up with guys preverted little minds. Why dont they just get their mind out of the gutter and do something with their lives instead of being like a sheet on a clothes line? I think that from this real life story, we all can learn a valuable lesson. The valuable lesson that I learned is the motto" Chicks before Dicks" because for evey girl that is out there, hang on to your female friends because they will always be beside you no matter what, but guys come and go and they will always do. Therefore, do not be tempted by anyone no matter if they say how much they love and want to be with you for evermore, do not fall for it because all you get is one chance and please do save yourself from despondency and a heavy regretful burdent that you would have to bear with you your whole life. Remember this quote " what would Jesus do?" Look through your problems through his eyes and go to him for the need of help. Do not be afraid to ask, remember that he is your true and only best friend that would be in your heart for more than a lifetime forever, and forever!!!

          The renaissance festival was awesome, Thanks Jill for reminding me and taking me. The only adversity over there was that people smoked alot and I mean alot. There drinks had nothing but alchohol and soda. But the food was awesome. Their nachos were superb some people had the lovliest gowns and some had nude attire, when I was walking to get somethin to drink with my friend Kimberly, there was this couple that was standing right in back of use wearing nothing but leaves and vines. The lady was wearing only four leaves and that was just to barely cover up her parts. The gentleman only was wearing two leaves. I kinda felt bad for them because they were cold and shivering. My most favorite part of the renaissance festeval was the belly dancers. It was awesome. I will post some pictures of the Renaissance Festival later not to menchan, the fireworks were cool too.

                                                                                      From: Alisa= SDA      

Hi Everyone,

        Today nationally, everyone is living in a world where love is nowhere to be found. It is buried under the dust on which we stand and cannot be brought back to life because of the hearts of men. People these days are concieded, selfish, hated, and living a life without love. Look at the wars and devastation that we have today, is that love? or disaster? In my opinion, that is not love, it is a turning point on which God is telling us to come together to be saved from tormentation and devastation that what the world is coming to. If everyone loved each other and was kind to one another, this world would be a whole lot different. Tax would probably not exist anymore, identification to travel to different countries would probably not be needed, there would not be sooo many crimes that we hear of everyday on the news. The minority rate of pregnancy among minors would not be increasing every year, killing and taking peoples lives would be decreased by a huge percentage, and it would show that everyone has a Godly attitude towards each other, God is our inspiration in which we need to follow and not the inspiration of men. I am tired of all this collateral that is happening every splitening second on this earth. If everyone only had love towards each other, no matter their skin color or what they have comitted in the past. I thought that America was the melting pot of nations. What happened to that pot in which we do not deserved to be called anymore? Why is there still racism among everyone? God looks beyond the color of the skin, he looks at the heart. Whey do we still have wars from people who are greedy and fighting? We should share with our brethren as what God did. Look at the last supper, they shared bread with each other that represented his body and they also shared the wine which represented his blood. Christ died for our sins, that is love, he died for us so that we might live and give thanks to him for being merciful to us, til this day we do not deserve his mercy and yet we still take things for granted and do not go beyond appearances, we need to go beyond that and discover the hearts of men, if someone has a wicked heart, still be kind to them and love them as for God said " Love your enemies, love them that persecute you and despitefully use you." Everyone needs to be kinder towards one another, if we did, then everyone would be lovable towards one another in a good and positive approach. I love my enemies, even the ones that hate me and despitefully use me but I don't hate them. Everyone who knows me knows that I do not hate anyone I never use the words hate towards any being because in that word, there is no Love and it is unGodly. Be kind towards one another. "Love the Lord with all your heart, mind, and soul." 

                                                      From: Lady Alisa

Sometimes, my parents piss me off. I can't do anything anymore, I can't hang out with my friends on weekends like I use to, can rarely talk on the phone, they get pissed when my buddies call me, they hate the music that I listen to, sometimes they humiliate me. For Example, my buddies invited me to go play pool with them, they even asked my parents in person if I could go play pool but my Dad said no and that really made me mad.   Most peeps at school think that my life is wonderful just because I spend alot of money but my life SUCKS! Mainly because my parents don't like me, they may love me as their daughter but they do not like me as a person. And, that hurts my heart alot and it seems that my sister is the only one that likes and loves me. Even though we get into arguments sometimes, she always forgets about that and says I love you! But my parents on the other hand always just cannot forget about the past and always refer to their foreign experiences and criticize me everyday and my heart cries because of that. I am thankful that I have them as my parents but it is their words/actions is what drives me buzurk and cause me to be blue at heart. Even though my parents and I have our ups and downs, I will always love them. I know that God is always their beside me but sometimes I feel that I am all alone in this world, by myself with no one to hold my hand. Like, when I am home all alone, I am scared. Everything for seems awkward and not precise. It seems like everything is a show and not a heart of love and consistancy. Anyways, I bought a new puppy, he is sooo cute here are some pics. After school on my half day, I had a great time, I went back and visited albright, went to my friends house, my friends and I went out to eat and my friends dropped me off at home. At albright, they won't let high school ppls back to visit, they say that it causes a distraction to the learning enviroment and they just simply wont allow it. And if they find like any high school peoples on their campus, I think that they will get a ticket or something because it is like violating another school campus. But I saw some buddies and they were sooo happy to see me that we fell down..lol.. anywho, their is a meticulous friend that I admire but about this person, I am keeping it to myself and no one knows except me and God. Well, Love you all and God Bless! Chow! "God is my refuge, my salvation, and strength"

                                               From: Lady Alisa