DON`T MAKE SOMEONE YOUR EVERYTHiNG
BECAUSE WHEN YOU LOSE THEM
YOU HAVE NOTHiNG

HEY EVERYONE, iT HAS BEEN FOREVER AND A DAY SiNCE i HAVE WRiTTEN iN MY XANGA, AND AS USUAL A LOT HAS GONE ON. i USUALLY WOULDNT WRiTE iN HERE BUT i REALLY NEED TO VENT OUT ALL OF MY FEELiNGS. WELL ME AND ViNNY DATED. AND i DONT THiNK i HAVE HAD THAT MUCH FUN iN A LOOONNGG TiME. WE HAVE SO MUCH iN COMMON AND HE REALLY iS A WONDERFUL GUY. WELL THAT WAS THE GOOD PART. MAYBE THE ONLY GOOD PART. NONE OF HiS FRiENDS WANT US TOGETHER, WELL PRETTY MUCH NO ONE iN THE SCHOOL WANTS US TOGETHER, AND i DONT KNOW WHY. THEY ARE STARTiNG THESE CRAZY RUMORS THAT HAVE NO CHANCE iN HELL OF EBiNG TRUE AND THE BAD PART iS iS THAT ViNNY STARTED TO LET ALL THOSE PEOPLE GET TO HiM. SO WE BROKE UP. AND i CRiED A LOT. i HADNT CRiED LiKE THAT OVER A GUY iN A WHiLE. AND iT WAS SO HORRiBLE. WELL WE ENDED UP TLKAiNG ON THE FONE AND HE TOLD ME HE WAS SORRY. BUT NO MATTER WHAT THAT BOY DOES TO ME, i CANT SEEM TO HATE HiM. WELL HE SAiD WE WOULD DATE AFTER EHE WENT TO THE DEBUTANTE BALL WiTH KAiTLYN AND OF COURSE i BELiEVED HiM. i TRUSTED HiM WiTH MY HEART FOR A SECOND TiME. WE STARTED STAYiNG TOGETHER AT SCHOOL JUST LiKE WE HAD DiD WHEN WE WERE DATiNG AND iF ANYONE WOULD SEE US TOGETHER, THEY WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT WE WERE. i WAS SO HAPPY, B/C i THOUGHT THiNGS WERE FiNALLY GETTiNG BACK TO NORMAL. AND THEN THiS WEEKEND CAME. WELL FRiDAY NiGHT WAS THE GMAE AND i WANTED TO GO AND ViNNY WAS GOiNG TO BE THERE, AND i WAS GOING TO MEET HiM. BUT HE COULDNT STAY LONG B.C HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PUNiSHED. BUT LANCE REED (THE PERSON THAT WAS PiCKiNG ME UP) WAS LATE AND BY THE TiME i GOT THERE ViNNY HAD ALREADY HAD TO LEAVE. THE WHOLE TiME i WAS AT THE GAME i SAT OUTSiDE AND TALKED TO HiM AND HE WAS iN THE WORST MOOD EVER, B.C HE WAS MAD B/C HE COULDNT BE WiTH ME. BUT THEN HE WENT ASK HiS MOM iF HE COULD GO TO MC. DONALDS AND GET SOMETHiNG TO EAT. LANCE BROUGHT ME OVER THERE, AND i MET UP WiTH ViNNY AND THEN LANCE AND KALLiE (WHO ARE DATiNG) LEFT. AND ME AND ViNNY WERE SiTTiNG iN HiS BACK SEAT TALKiNG, WELL LANCE WAS SUPPOSED TO COME BACK AND PiCK ME UP AND TAKE ME AND KALLiE TO THE BRiDGE. BUT WHEN HE CAME BACK i WASNT READY TO LEAVE SO ViNNY SAiD THAT HE WOULD DROP ME OFF AT THE BRiDGE. BUT WHEN LANCE AND KALLiE WERE LEAViNG NiCK LACOMBE AND DEXTER PULLED UP, AND ME AND ViNNY DiDNT WANT TO STAY THERE B/C WE KNEW THAT THEY WOULD START SHiT. BUT NiCK GOT OUT OF HiS TRUCK AND JUMPED ON THE BACK OF ViNNYS TRUCK BUT WE JUST LEFT AND NiCK HAD WANTED TO FiGHT VINNY FOR NO REASON. WELL ViNNY DROPPED ME OFF AT THE BRiDGE AND WHEN i GOT OUT i TWAS ALL SENiOUR GUYS AND ME! AND THEY WERE LiKE WHO iS THAT? iS THAT KAiTLYN AND i WA SLiKE NO!!! KOURTNY. AND THEY WRE LiKE OH SORRY, WELL i WENT TO WALK AWAY TO GO MEET KALLiE BUT THEY WRE LiKE YOU CAN COME TALK TO US, DONT BE AFRAiD, SO i DiD, BUT i ENDED UP CURSiNG OUT D.J AND WE STAYED THER FOR LiKE 1o MiNUTES, TEHN WE LEFT. WHEN i GOT HOME ME AND KALLiE WENT TO BED, BUT AT LiKE 2:oo iN THE MORNiNG i GET A CALL AND iTS DJ AND HE iS SAYiNG HAVE YOU FUCKED ViNNY YET? AND i WAS LiKE NO! AND HE KEPT ASKiNG ME OVER AND OVER, THEN NiCK LACOMBE GOT ON THE FONE ADN i HEARD DJ SAY iN THE BACK, GAH SHES SUCH A WHORE AND i WAS LiKE W/E iM GOiNG AND NiCK WA SLiKE WAiT i HAVE TO ASK YOU ONE THiNG AND i WAS LiKE WHAT, AND HE SAiD WHY ARE YOU A WHORE? AND THEN i HUNG UP ON HiM. SO THAT WAS HOW MY FRiDAY NiGHT WENT. SATURDAY i WOKE UP AND CALLED ViNNY AND HE SAiD THAT HE HAD TO GO TO TOWN SO THAT WAS FiNE, AND ME AND HAiLEY WENT TO KAYLAS HOUSE TO GET READY FOR CALLiES PARTY, BUT i HAD TO GO PLAY TENNiS AGAiNST ANNA. SO i WENT TO THE PARTY, AND ViNNY WENT, AND i HAD HiS BROWN JACKET B/C i WAS FREEZiNG. LiTTLE DiD i KNWO THAT KAiTLYN HAD BOUGHT HiM THAT FOR CHRiSTMAS. SO SHE TOLD GABBY TO TELL ME AND ViNNY TO GiVE iT BACK TO HER, BUT ViNNY SAiD NO, SO i JUST GAVE iT BACK TO HiM. WELL ME AND HiM DECiDED THAT WE WANTED TO BE ALONE, SO WE WERE WALKiNG AWAY AND i FiGURED THAT SiNCE WE WERE GOiNG TO BE WHERE KAiTLYN COULDNT SEE US THAT iT WAS OKAY iF i WORE THE JACKET. BUT THEN WE ENDED UP STOPPiNG B/C SARA LARSEN WAS FREAKiNG OUT B/C DAN WAS HUGGiNG A GIRL AND ME AND SARA WERE STANDiNG LiKE 2 FEET AWAY TRYiNG TO FiGURE iT OUT.. BUT iT WAS KAiTLYN!! AND SHE PRACTiCALLY JUMPED ON ME SCREAMiNG FOR ME TO GiVE HER THE JACKET AND i PUSHED HER OFF AND TOLD HER TO STOP AND THEN ViNNY GRABBED HER AND TOOK HER TO THE SiDE AND WAS SCREAMiNG AT HER. LET ME TELL YOU i THREW THAT JACKET ON THE GROUND. LOL. AND ME AND ViNNY WENT SiT iN HiS TRUCK AND HE WAS LiKE WERES MY JACKET, AND i SAiD THAT KAiTLYN PROB. HAD iT SO HE WENT GET iT FROM HER, AND WE WERE SiTTiNG iN HiS TRUCK THEN DHE OPENED THE DOOR AND JUST STARED AT US. AND ViNNY WAS LiKE GO AWAY, WE ARENT DOING ANYTHiNG AND SHE WAS LiKE ViNNY.. AND HE WAS LiKE GET OUT. AND THEN HE WENT AND WAS HOLLARiNG AT HER. AND THE WHOLE TiME i WAS JUST TRYiNG TO FiND MY SHOES. i JUST WANTED TO GET OUT OF THERE. LOL, WHEN i FiNALLY FOUND TEHM i WAS LEAViNG AND i SAW A BiG GROUP OF PPL AND iT WAS SARAH LACHNEY SHE HAD PASSED OUT AND THEY WERE TAKiNG HER TO THE HOSPiTALE!! SO i GUESS AFTER ViNNY AND KAiTLYN ARGUED HE CAME FOUND ME BUT THAT WAS WHEN THE PARTY GOT ENDED B/C OF SARAH. SO ViNNY HAD TO LEAVE. i WAS SO CONFUSED. i DiDNT KNOW WHAT WAS GOiNG ON AND i DiDNT KNOW WHAT HiM AND KAiTLYN HAD TALKED ABOUT. BUT i DiD FiND OUT THAT NiGHT THAT HE ASKED HER TO PROM. AND TODAY AT SCHOOL i FOUND OUT HOW HE DiD iT AND iT WAS SO SWEET. i DONT THiNK i HAVE EVER BEEN THAT HURT. HE DiDNT TELL ME. i HAD TO FiND OUT FROM SOMEONE ELSE... HE DOESNT KNOW HOW BAD HE HAS HURT ME. WELL THAT iSNT ALL. SO SUNDAY COMES, AND i WENT HOME AND HE CAME OVER OR A SECOND. AND THEN HE WENT HOME, AND DiDNT CALL ME THAT nIGHT. AND TODAY AT SCHOOL i COULD TELL SOMETHiNG WAS WRONG AND AT RECESS WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHiNG. AND HE PRETTY MUCH TOLD ME THAT HE DiDNT WANT TO TLAK TO ME ANYMORE B/C HE DiDNT BELiVE ME. HE BELiVED ALL OF HiS FRiENDS. HE BELiVED THE LiES AND ALL THE DUMB RUMORS. AND CAN YOU BELiVE THAT i DiDNT CRY. i DONT THiNK i COULD. i WAS MORE OR LESS iN SHOCK... LiKE i DONT THiNK iT HAS CLiCKED EVEN YET. WELL AFTER RECESS i WENT TO 5TH HOUR AND i WROTE HiM A 5 PAGE NOTE. i PUT MY HEART iNTO THAT LETTER, i TOLD HiM HOW i FELT. AND ALL THAT HE HAS PUT ME THROUGH. i TOLD HiM EVERYTHiNG. AND TODAY i CALLED AND HE DiDNT ANSWER, AND i LEFT A VOiCEMAIL SAYiNG THAT iF HE HAD A HEART AT ALL HE WOULD CALL BACK. WELL HE FiNALLY DiD, AND HE SAiD THAT HE HAD BEEN AT TRACK PRACTiCE. WELL WE ARE SUPPOSED TO TALK ABOUT THiNGS LATER TONiGHT. BUT i DONT THiNK MY HEART CAN BREAK ANYMORE. iT HAS BEEN TORN TO PiECES AND THEN SOME. OVER ONE GUY. ONE GUY THAT i TRULY TRUSTED. i CANT BELiVE THOUGH, AFTER ALL OF THiS, i STILL FiND MYSELF THiNKiNG OF HiM. AND WANTiNG TO BE WiTH HiM. WHATS WRONG WiTH ME/ WELL LEAVE ME COMMENTS. THANKS FOR LiSTENiNG. LOVE ALWAYS, KOURTNY*RAE

LETS BE , WiLD AND YOUNG.
LETS BE , WORTHLESS, AND DUMB.
LETS B R E A K ALL THE R U L E S..
LETS BE REBELLiOUS ..<3
LETS BE iN LOVE

HEY EVERYONE, iT HAS BEEN A WHiLE SiNCE i HAVE WRiTTEN iN HERE AND SO MUCH HAS GONE ON. WELL i LiKED NiCK LACOMBE, BUT THEN ViNNY CAM iN THE PiCTURE, AND i STARTED LiKiNG ViNNY. i WAS FACED WiTH A REALLY HARD DECiSiON. ViNNY OR NiCK? THEY WERE TWO SWEET GUYS AND BOTH REALLY LiKED ME. i ENDED UP CHOOSiNG ViNNY AFTER A WHOLE BUNCH OF SHiT, AND i AM REALLY HAPPY. WE ARE NOW TALKiNG AND i HAVE BEEN GOiNG PLACES WiTH HiM THiS WHOLE WEEKEND ! HE iS THE SWEETEST EVER, AND i KNOW i MADE THE RiGHT DECiSiON B/C NOW NiCK HATES ME AND i KNOW THAT iF i WOULD HAVE BEEN WiTH HiM HE WOULD HAVE BEEN iMMATURE LiKE THAT! BUT ViNNY ALSO HAS ONE CRRRAAZYYYY EX!! SHE iS SYKO! LiKE REALLY BAD! LOL, AND i DONT KNOW, SO MUCH STUFF HAS HAPPENED! AND i DONT FEEL LiKE WRiTING iT, i THiNK iM GOiNG TO QUiT XANGA FOR A WHiLE. MYSPACE iS SO MUCH BETTER. ANYWAYS LEAVE COMMENTS-- KOURTNY-N-ViNNY!

HOPE FOR THE BEST,
EXPECT FOR THE WORST,
LiFE iSN`T A MOViE, iT`S ALL
       UNREHERSED

HEY EVERYONE WELL NO ONE SEEMS TO WANT TO COMMENT ME ANYMORE B/C i THiNK EVERYONE HAS MOVED ONTO MYSPACE. i HAVE TO BUT i STiLL HAVE TiME TO WRiTE iN HERE. WELL WHATS THE LAST THiNG THAT i SAiD? WELL FLETCH CAME TO MY HOUSE AGAiN THE OTHER DAY AND WE TRYED TO WATCH THE EXSORCiSM OF EMiLY ROSE, BUT WE ENDED UP TURNiNG iT OFF. SO iM GOiNG TO TALK ABOUT WAT HAPPENED LAST NiGHT. LESLiE AND HAiLEU CAME SLEEP AT MY HOUSE ADN LAINE AND TAYLOR WERE GOING TO COME PiCK US UP TO GO THE BRiDGE BUT THEN i WENT TO CHECK TO SEE iF SHE WAS SLEEPiNG AND SHE DEFF. WASNT SO i HAD TO CALL LAiNE AND TELL HiM THAT WE HAD TO WAiT TiLL MY MOM WAS ASLEEP. WELL FLETCH WAS REALLY MAD AT ME B/C WE WERE SUPPOSED TO SNEAK OUT TEH NiGHT BEFORE WiTH BRAD AND HE KNEW THAT i WAS GOiNG TO THE BRiDGE AND HE KNEW THAT HUNTER WAS GOiNG TO BE TEHRE, AND HE SAiD THAT HE ALSO KNEW THAT WE WERE GOiNG TO MESS AROUND, BUT i DONT THiNK WE WOULD HAVE B/C HUNTER WAS SO DRUNK. BUT WE DiDNT GO TO THE BRiDGE, BUT LAiNE CALLED AND SAiD HE WAS BY MY HOUSE SO WE WNT OUT TEHRE AND WE WENT RiDE AROUND. AND WE WENT TO CANDiCES HOUSE AND DREW WAS THERE, AND WE TOLD THEM HEY AND THEN WE LEFT. WELL WE WENT TO THE GRAVE YARD BY MY HOUSE AND ME AND LAiNE GOT OUT AND WE WERE TLAKiNG BUT THEN LESLiE WANTED TO DRiVE SO THEY ALL GOT iN AND LEFT US!! SO ME AND LAiNE WERE SiTTiNG THERE AND i WAS HUGGiNG HiM AND WE WERE iN THE MiDDLE OF A GRAVEYARD!! SO iT TOOK US A MiNUTE TO REALiZE WHERE WE REALLY WERE, BUT WHEN i DiD i STARTED CRYiNG.. A LOT. AND LAiNE WAS LiKE OMG DiD YOU SEE THAT, BUT i WASNT LOOKiNG i WAS HUGGiNG HiMS O HARD THAT HE PROB. HAS BRUiSES !! SO HE WAS LiKE LETS GET TO THE HiGHWAY. AND THATS WHEN i HEARD THE SCREAMiNG. i HEARD A GiRL FUCKiNG SCREAMiNG HER LUNGS OUT AND iT WAS PRETTY LATE SO THAT iSNT NORMAL. AND LAiNE WAS LiKE DiD YOU HEAR THAT? AND i WAS LiKE YEH AND i WAS CRYiNG EVEN MORE!! LAiNE TRYED TO CALL TAYLOR AND HE DiDNT ANSWER AND THEN WE TRYED CALLiNG LAiNE AND HE DiDNT ANSWER EiTHER, SO THEN WE CALLED HAiLEY AND i WAS CRYiNG AND i SAiD COME PiCK US UP NOW!! (AND ALL THE WHiLE THERE WAS STiLL THiS SCEAMiNG NOiSE AND LAiNE SAYiNG OMG DO YOU SEE THAT?) AND SHE WA SLiKE WHY? AND i FREAKED OUT-- i SAiD B/C YOU ELFT US iN A FUCKiNG GRAVEYARD!!!!! SO THEY CAME AND WE GOT iN AND AT FiRST THEY DiDNT THiNK THAT i WAS REALLY CRYiNG, BUT AFTER A WHiLE i GUESS THEY FiG. iT OUT. AND TAYLOR WAS PLAYiNG iN MY HAiR AND STUFF. AND THE WHOLE TiME i NEVER LET GO OF LAiNES HAND. i WAS STiLLS O SCARED WEN i GOT iN THE CAR. i DiDNT TALK LiKE THE REST OF THE NiGHT EXCPET TO LAiNE. WHEN HE WOULD ASK ME iF i WAS OKAY. BUT i DONT WANT ANYONE TO THiNK THAT WE LiKE EACHOTHER BUT iT isNT LiKE THAT. WE ARE MORE LiKE REALLY GOOD FRiENDS. i KNOW THAT DOENST SEEM LiKE THAT BiG OF A DEAL TO EVERYONE BUT i REALLY HAVE NEVER BEEN THAT SCARED BEFORE. i WENT THROUGH THiS EXPERiENCE THAT i WOUDL RATHER NOT AVE BEEN THROUGH BUT AT THE SAME TiME iM KiNDA GLAD i DiD. B/C iT HELPED ME SEE A LOT OF THiNGS. WELL i DONT KNOW. HUNTER AND HAMiLTON MiGHT COME OVER BUT PROB. NOT SO i DONT KNOW, WELL LEAVE SOME SEXY COMMENTS. KOURTNY*RAE 

wHeN i GeT tHe StReNgTh To LeAvE
U aLwAyS teLL mE tHaT yOu NeEd Me
nD iM wEaK cAuSe i BeLiEvE yOu
nD iM mAd BeCaUsE i LoVe yOu
So i StOp Nd ThiNk ThAt MaYbE
YoU cAn LeArN tO aPpReCiAtE mE
ThEn iT aLL rEmAiNs ThE sAmE tHaT
YoU aiNt neVeR gOnNa ChAnGe

HEY EVERYONE, iT HAS BEEN FOREVER SiNCE i UPDATED. WELL i THiNK THE LAST THiNG THAT i SAiD WAS THAT i WAS GOiNG TO THE BRiDGE WiTH AMANDA AND i HAD FUN. i GUESS YOU COULD SAY. WELL iT WAS ALRiGHT. BUT i HEARD A LOT OF SHiT AT SCHOOL THE NEZT WEEK. WELL ME AND HAiLEY MADE UP AND i AM SO HAPPY. BUT SHE iS GOiNG THROUGH SO MUCH WiTH ALL HER LASAS FRiENDS AND i FEEL SO BAD FOR HER. WELL WE HAD A LOT OF FUN LAST NiGHT. HAiLEY SLEPT AT MY HOUSE AND FLETCH CALLED AND ASKED ME iF WE WOULD WANNA DO SOMETHiNG LATER, AND i WAS LiKE SURE SOUNDS FUN. HE WAS WiTH DJ AND THEY WERE GOiNG TO SNEAK US OUT. SO THAT WAS ALL PLANNED BUT i WAS KiNDA SCARED B/C THE LAST TiME i SNUCK OUT WE GOT CAUGHT AND MY MOM ALREADY DOESNT TRUST ME SO i WAS VERY SCARED. WELL WE WENT WiTH THEM AND i HAVE TO ADMiT THAT FLETCH WAS LOOKiNG BEAUTiFUL (OUR LiTTLE iNSiDE JOKE) AND WE RODE iN HESSMER FOR A SECOND BUT HESSMER HAS LiKE 1o PEOPLE iN iT. SO WE WENT DOWN MY ROAD AND PARKED. AFTER A WHiLE i GOT iN THE FRONT AND i WAS SiTTiNG iN BETWEEN FLETCHER AND DJ AND WE WERE LiSTENiNG TO MUSiC AND WE WERE ALL CUDDLED UP. iT WAS SO FUN. POOR HAiLEY WAS in THE BACKSEAT PRACTiCALLY SLEEPiNG BC AT THE TiME SHE THOUGHT SHE HAD TO GO TO SCHOOL B/C HER MOM SAiD SHE COULDNT MiSS. SO WE ENDED UP GOiNG HOME AT LiKE 1 B/C HAiLEY REALLY NEEDED TO SLEEP. AND THE NEXT MORNiNG HAiLEY BEGGED HER MOM JUST TO STAY BC THERE WAS NO POiNT iN GOiNG AND HER MOM SAiD WHATEVER. THE FONE NEVER STOPPED RiNGiNG THiS MORNiNG AND i THOUGHT i WAS GOiNG TO GO CRAZY. AND THEN AT AROUND 11 MY CELL FONE RANG AND iT WAS BEAUTiFUL (FLETCH) AND HE WAS LiKE GOOD MORNiNG! i WAS LiKE UHHHH WHHAATTT AND HE SAiD HE WAS COMiNG SEE ME TODAY. WELL i DONT REMEMBER WHAT i SAiD, BUT WHEN i FiNALLY WOKE UP i CALLED BACK B/C i WASNT SURE iF i HAD DREAMED iT OR NOT. LOL, AND DJ ANSWERED AND SAiD THAT FLETCH WAS TAKiN A SHOWER, SO WHEN HE CALLED ME BACK HE SAiD THAT HE HAD REALLY SAiD iT AND THAT HE REALLY WAS COMiNG SEE ME. MY PARENTS WERENT HOME SO THEY COULDNT KNOW ABOUT iT. AND HE GAVE ME 3o MiNUTES TO GET DRESSED. WELL iN THE PROCESS OF GETTiNG DRESSED, i WAS TRYiNG TO LiGHT THiS THiNG THAT HAS LiKE CAROSiNE iN iT, BUT i DiDNT HAVE A LiGHTER SO i WAS GOiNG TO LiGHT iT ON THE STOVE BUT WHEN i TiPPED iT OVER THE CAROSiNE SPiLLED ON THE FiRE ON THE STOVE AND THE FiRE GOT REAALLLLYYYY BiG. LOL, AND i WAS TRYiNG TO PUT iT OUT WiTH A RAG BUT THEN THE RAG CAUGHT ON FiRE AND i WAS FREAKiNG OUT!! SO HAiLEY TOOK SOME WATER AND STARTED POORiNG iT ON THERE, AND FiNALLY iT WENT OUT, THERE WAS WATER EVERYWHERE. LOL, i WAS SO SCARED. FiNALLY i GOT DRESSED AND FLETCH CAME OVER. WE LAYED ON THE COUCH AND WATCHED ANCHORMAN. iT WAS SO FUNNY. AND HE MASSAGED MY BACK(SERiOUSLTY THiS TiME) AND HE REALLY iS AS GOOD AS HE CLAiMES. HE STAYED FOR ABOUT 2 AND A HALF HOURS AND THEN HE LEFT SO WE WOULDNT GET CAUGHT. iT WAS PRETTY FUN. ANYWAYS, WELL NOW WE ARE TRYiNG TO FiGURE OUT WHAT WE ARE DOiNG TONiGHT. SOMEONE SAiD THERE iS GOiNG TO BE A PARTY AT THE BRiDE, BUT i DONT KNOW, i TALKED TO SCOTT HAMiLTON AND HE SAiD HE DiDNT HEAR THAT. SO i DUNNO. ANYWAYS, i HAVE HAD A PRETTY CRAZY DAY. LOL, COMMENT ME HOE`S!! LOVE ALWAYS, KOURTNY*RAE 

i NEED SOMEONE TO STAY WiTH ME WHEN TiMES GET TOUGH
SOMEONE TO hug & kiss ME WHEN i`VE HAD enough. WHEN
i GET tired of hearing THE SAME bullshit EVERYDAY SOMEONE
TO TELL ME, "baby, you're gonna make it. okay?"

HEY EVERYONE, WELL i HAD WROTE A LOOONNGGG ENTRY BUT THEN AMANDA`S WONDERFUL COMPUTER FUCKED UP. HA. WELL TODAY i HAD ALERT SO i WAS ALL BY MYSELF, AND i HAD NO ONE TO TALK TO. i AM AT AMANDA`S HOUSE RiGHT NOW, AND WE ARE NOTTTT GOiNG TO SCHOOL TOMM, WE ARE GOiNG TO ALEC. THEN WE ARE GOiNG TO GO TO THE BRiDGE. i CANT WAiT. iTS GOiNG TO BE SO FUN. iM SO EXCiTED. WELL ANYWAYS, OMG-- YESTERDAY i HAD TO RUN FOR TENNiS AND FOR THE FiRST TiME i RAN THE WHOLE MiLE WiTHOUT STOPPiNG AND i MADE iT AT EXACTLY 8 MiNTUTES AND 3 SECONDS!! i WAS SO HAPPY AND WHEN WE WERE JOGGiNG iT WAS iN THE GYM AT 7TH HOUR AND ALL THE SENiOR GUYS WERE THERE, AND THEY WERE MAKiNG iT iNTO A BiG COMPETiTiON BETWEEN ME AND KELSEY. iT WAS FUNNY. AND THEN AFTER THAT FLETCH BROUGHT ME AND BRiTT TO HER MOM`S WORK AND WE CHiLLED THERE FOR A WHiLE THEN WE WENT TO CCD. AND i DONT KNOW WHY BUT ERiN KELLY TOLD KATiE WEST THAT SHE DiDNT LiKE ME AND i DiDNT EVEN KNOW THAT WE WERENT FRiENDS, AND i ASKED HER ABOUT iT AND SHE SAiD WE COULD TALK ABOUT iT LATER, AND i WAS LiKE WHY AND SHE JUST KEPT SAYiNG THAT SO i WAS LiKE WHATEVER. i DiDNT DO THAT GiRL ANYTHiNG BUT iT DOENST REALLY BOTHER ME, iF SHE HAS HER REASONS THEN LET HER HAVE THEM B/C i DONT CARE ABOUT THEM. LOL. ANYWAYS, WELL ME AND AMANDA ARE GETTTiNG REALLY CLOSE AND i THiNK THAT iTS SO AWESOME. WELL SCOTT HAMiLTON KEEPS ASKiNG ME iF SOMETHiNG iS EVER GOiNG TO HAPPEN BETWEEN ME AND HUNTERM ABD i WONDER WiLL iT? i MEAN i KNOW i WOULDNT DO ANYTHiNG WiTH HiM iF WE WERENT DATiNG SO i KNOW HE DOESNT WANT TO DATE ME SO i KNOW THAT NOTHiNG iS GOiNG TO HAPPEN. WELL i REALLY DONT FEEL LiKE TYPiNG RiGHT NOW, i MiTE WRiTE LATER. LOVE ALWAYS, KOURTNY*FUCKiNG*RAE

                                        //REMiX\\

OKAY WELL i WAS REALLY MEAN. AND i FEEL BAD, BUT i JUST CANT TAKE ALL OF THiS ANYMORE. SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN GETTiNG MAD AT ME FOR NO REASON AT ALL. i MEAN ERiN JUST SAiD SHE DOESNT WANT TO BE MY FRiEND, AND i REALLY THiNK THAT iS FUCKED UP. i MEAN WHY BE LiKE THAT? WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE TO BE LiKE THiS. DO i REALLY DESERVE ALL OF THiS SHiT. GAH SOMETiMES i LOVE BUNKiE HiGH TO DEATH BUT THEN AT OTHERS i JUST WANT TO STRANGLE EVERY GiRL OVER THERE. iF YOU KNOW HOW i FEEL PLEASE TELL ME AND TEHN PLEASE GiVE ME ADViCE ON WHAT i SHOULD DO. WELL i KNOW i HAVE REAL FRiENDS AND EVERY DAY i THANK GOD FOR GiViNG ME THAT MUCH iN MY LiFE, BUT SOMETiMES i WONDER HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE. HOW MUCH MORE SHiT CAN i ENDURE EACH AND EVERY DAY OF MY LiFE BEFORE i GO ABSOLUTLEY iNSANE. A GiRL CAN TAKE ONLY SO MUCH BEFORE SHE JUST HAS TO LET EVERYTHiNG OUT AND i THiNK i AM ALMOST TO THE POiNT. i JUST CANT WAiT UNTiL EVERYTHiNG GETS ALL CLEARED UP AND THiNGS GO RiGHT, B/C THATS THE ONLY THiNG THAT KEEPS ME GOiNG iS KNOWiNG THAT EVERYTHiNG WiLL GET BETTER SOONER OR LATER, AND WiTH MY LUCK iT WiLL PROB. BE LATER, GAH i LOVE AMANDA QUiRK, AND i WANT TO THANK HER FOR BEiNG THERE FOR ME THROUGH ALL OF THiS AND i KNOW SHE iS A REAL HONEST TO GOD ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU, NEVER LET YOU DOWN, KEEP ALL YOUR SECRETS, CROSS MY HEART, HOPE TO DiE, FRiEND.