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Monday, January 09, 2006

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 06:31:25 GMT

So first off Happy New Years to everyone. Hope ya'll had an amazing and safe one!

I made a few new year resolutions...
- Get straight A's this semester
- Find a way to go to SBU
- Make it through the whole lax season for school. (Might not seem important to you but trust me, if you've had my knee problems for the past 7 years you would feel the exact same way.)
- Possibly get recruited... cause that would just be amazing.
- Stop procrastinating.
- And finally to stop cursing so much. haha yeah that's gonna be a hard one!

So it occurred to me the next day as I was laying in my bed hungover as crap on new years day, that it's the start of a new year. I think that's exactly what I've been needing. A fresh start, a new chance, another year to learn from my mistakes and hopefully accomplish my dreams and goals. It's been a really long and hard year, like any other, it had it's ups and downs. Lost the love of my life through the worst break up imaginable, gained new friends and lost touch with some I never thought I would. Got closer with that special group of friends and shared every experience, bad and good with one another. Lost and found myself again and again. Made memories that are gonna last a lifetime. Forced to leave VJC and attend HCC. Found a new love; coaching and painting. Had to relieve the pain and anguish of a lost loved one on the 28th of November with a group of my closest friends. Had another incredible Secret Santa with my most fabulous Knockout Chicks and so much more. It's been a good year and a bad year, but I realized that as every year passes on, all the hardships I'm forced to face, are only making me a stronger person. So heres to 2005 as a whole with no regrets, remorse or hurt feelings. I pray my lost loved ones keep me just as safe and even more prosperous in 2006 & I'm looking forward to what this year holds for me.

By the way, I officially suck at this whole xanga thing considering that I haven't touched it since my birthday oh about a month and a half ago. lol

Christopher Andrew Farley-- you make me so so sad and I only updated just for you because I love you lol and you know you love me too so all is good. It better be at least... lol

<3 Reen

Monday, November 21, 2005

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 12:46:56 GMT

so basically I just want everyone to know that I have the greatest friends ever! I mean I know that I do but seriously, I really do! hahaha

A) They threw me a surprise birthday party
B) They got some of the KO's, jtowne homies, and some of my VJC crew to come.. which is by far amazing since I miss everyone like crazy
C) They had a kegger for me...

so see I love my friends and thanks to everyone who made my birthday the bestest birthday ever!! I love you ya'll!!

-- HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISSY!! I'm pumped you lived it up to.. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!! lol

<3 Reen

p.s. chris you'd be so proud, I did my first keg stand and I did two for sooooo long lol

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 04:29:33 GMT

so it's official..

I suck at this whole updating xanga thing.. I just really don't have the energy or time to sit and update my life happenings everyday.. lol oh well

but I was thinking about this today..

love sucks.. and I still can't figure out why I'm still hurting from that asshole.. I just wish it would be so easy to forget and move on but everytime I think I've got it under control something hits me and says.. no shereen, no you don't. i've been doing so well the past two months, i've forced myself to stop crying since august. everytime i feel the tears coming on i sit up and breathe and talk myself outta crying. but lately, i dunno something about this month.. something in the air, whatever it is it's bringing me back stages and now i feel as weak as a few months ago. i dunno i just don't get it. i hate love now lol as bad as that sounds i hate it. and there are nights where i wish i never met him cuz then i wouldn't feel this way but i know that's not true. for the longest time i just wanted to run away, disappear and never look back, but i don't want to do that as much. i don't really like my life one bit, but there are so many things in it that i love and i would hate to take for granted.

aside from all that.. i was all thinking, isn't it funny how at people you haven't seen or talked to in such a long while magically pop back into your life when you need those little suprises most??

so i didn't really have much to update but i guess i started writing, things just started pouring out.. lol forgive me haha..

<3 Reen

p.s. i love you

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 04:22:47 GMT

so i'm supposed to be updating because like usual, it's been a good long while lol.. but i don't really think i should be spending time doing this instead of writing my stupid paper for class tomorrow. lol

-well my knee is getting much worse, physical therapy didn't work so now i'm getting cortezone shots.. sucks but as long as it works and prolongs my season.. i'm all for it! lol

-school sucks.. but that's nothing new. had to drop that online class because the teacher wouldn't let me make up the midterm soo that grade wasnt happening for me.. bitches..

-it's november again, and i don't like november...

alert: i'm giving up on alcohol for 2 weeks.. started today.. lol who's got faith in me?! cuz a lotta people don't! lol oh welll

<3 Reen

p.s. cf.. i'm tellin you.. come visit, steak's on me lol i heart you

Monday, October 31, 2005

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 03:12:18 GMT

soo it's been awhile since I've updated again.. I think I just suck at this haha. At least this time it'll be a good update!

I thought this weekend was gonna suck.. mostly because of my parents but it didn't turn out so bad. I had one of the best days I've had in such a loong looong time.. so that made my weekend.. well month! lol

A) My girls won their game today.. 6-0 last game of the season too!!
FYI: I'm head coach for 12-13 year old girls for Bel Air Field Hockey..

B) One of the girls had an end-of-season party so we went.. actually turned out to be a lotta fun. I love my girls soo much lol they're like little sisters who I don't fight with! And it's even better cuz they listen and I'm like a coach and a big sis to them, so it makes me feel really good about myself lol

C) The girls & the parents surprised us (me and sara-- the coaches) with thank you cards and money... which I might add was a complete surprise! One that WASN'T needed but veeerrrryy much appreciated! you know I'm broke lol haha

D) The girls absolutely loved our presents and surprises sara and I made for them and bought them.. we're such amazing coaches lol heckk yess!

E) I PLAYED FIELD HOCKEY TONIGHT!! yeesss.. my pt finallly cleared me! Well not necessarily but I played tonight anyways. haha.. not the best decision but old habits never die.. and neither will my knee problems sooo screw it. lol i'ma just keep playing.

soo basically I had a wonderful day.. and I loved every second of it. lol I miss feeling so happy and not so sad.. it's nice.. but the only thing that really matters is...

I LOVE YOU CHRISTOPHER ANDREW FARLEY!!

Friday, October 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 11:51:14 GMT

so basically i'm hating myself right now and there is a very good reason for it..

the story goes like this, simply put- i missed my art history midterm.. how you might ask, is this possible? yes, i got screwed over with my online class, why? cuz for some odd reason i can't access my class from my internet at home.. but our teacher decides to change the dates for our test from our usual Mon-Fri to Sat-Wed. of this week.. so here I am thinking I have until today to take it... when I really didn't.. so basically I just missed my midterm and fucked myself over soo much.. and yes, it's prolly my fault because I should've found some other way to get this information but it's kinda hard to go up to HCC when it's not in my schedule.. the worst part is, I've been studying for it for 3 days and I would've aced this shit too.. ugh and I needed the A, well I mean I needed some grade better than a ZERO for 100 pts, so now i'm pretty much fucked cuz the drop date has passed, I can't get an A anymore. I don't even know if I can get a B, I'm praying I can get a C, so I'm basically screwed and it's gotta be all my fault.. so therefore,

i hate myself.

i just wanna cry.. buggers

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 04:15:27 GMT

okay so i'm pissed.. apparently my last layout, which i liked mucho.. and apparently krissy did too.. is now gone!! well not really gone but ican't use it cuz for some reason no one (including myself) can view comments or anything like that.. prolly something with the HTML format but honestly, who has the time to figure that oout? lol not me sooo i'm just gonna have to make do with this piece of crap layout for the time being.. which hopefully won't be long cuz i can't stand a crappy layout lol hha but on the real, i did want to post something..

Is anybody out there Does anybody see That when the lights are off something's killing me I know it seems like people care Cause they're always around me But when the day is done and everybody runs Who will be the one to save me from myself Who will be the one who's there And not ashamed to see me crawl Who's gonna catch me when I fall When the show is over And it's empty everywhere It's hard to face going back alone So I walk around the city Anything, anything to clear my head I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home Who will be the one to save me from myself Who will be the one who's there And not ashamed to see me crawl Who's gonna catch me when I fall It may seem I have everything But everything means nothing When the ride that you been on That you're coming off Leaves you feeling lost Is anybody out there Does anyobdy see That sometimes loneliness is a part of me.. -- Catch me when I fall by Ashlee Simpson -- ... couldn't have said it better myself, love how music can totally express what you feel without you having to say it.. i love it. sad, depressed, i dunno.. bed with a heavy mind like usual.. g'night
<3 Reen

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 03:29:20 GMT

HI CHRIS!!

just wanted to say i'm doing this just for you! lol haha jk love you though.. chin up hunnie :)

-- but on the real, I think I may actually start using xanga more often... at least try to haha.

<3 ya'll,
Reen

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 13:46:57 GMT

so I just came to the conclusin..

why the hell do I still have this if I don't even use it? I mean honestly my last update was a year ago.. haha. I mean seriously I would love to update regularly, but I can't ever seem the time to do it.. mad props to those that do.. shiiet!

but as for now, I gotta roll... cram sesh before physical therapy and then studying the night away.. can I just say I HATE my teacher for giving us a lab practical/exam & 2 quizzes in the same class on the same night... what is that shiiet!? i know.. the death of me!

<3 Shereen

Friday, October 08, 2004

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 22:01:15 GMT

dayymmmn it's been a reallly long time since I've updated! lol mah b ya'll.. juss been real busy. you know how it is!

i'll try to keep this short, but soo much has happened.. lol

*moved out of home & into my apt at school.. soo lovin it!
*school work has been kickin ass but it's all good
*met a bunch of people up here and i love them all.. most of them! lol
*retired Betsy and got a new car!!: 2005 Toyota Corolla S
*got a new job which I love and makes good $$$
*homelife still sucks so I'm never there lol
*drama still lives on in from high school to college. BLAH
*boyfriend situation is still not looking any good.. sigh
*done a bunch of crazy, fun, drunken shit with my new buddies lol...
*finally, PARTYING HARDCORE EVERYNIGHT!!!

Rules to live by:
Messed up Mondays
Tipsy Tuesdays
Wasted Wednesdays
Thirsty Thursdays
Fucked up Fridays
Smashed Saturdays
Sober Sundays

^haha you know you love it! lol just a tidbit.. not an alchi.. i prefer social drinker.. thank you!

hahaha.. just a couple pictures from drunken nights.. God I juust love it!! lol

"Once it hits my lips it's just soo gooood!!"

i'll try and update more often.. lol leave me some lovin'! hope everyone's well.. I miss my friends at home

</3 Shereen