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Sunday, January 22, 2006

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 08:51:56 GMT

Sometimes love can hurt so much! Love is painful and it is also blind! Love is something that confuses you and ur partner! You don't knoe if they love you or if you love them. When you have fallen in love.....and then you get heartbroken....it HURTS....its PAINFUL!!! It feels like you don't want to live anymore...like you wish that u never fell in love! Sometimes love can last forever and sometimes love cant last forever.....for the person that you love the most.....sometimes you cant explain to them how much u love them because you cant! You don't knoe how to show them the love that u have for them because you scared to get HURT once agen! Where do i find the words to tell you that mahal na mahal kita! Sana alam mo na Mahal na mahal kita baby ko! It hurts so bad......that i don't have you beside me anymore! Its hard to forget about that memories that we share! Its hard because we shared a lot of memories! We went everywhere together...i have introduce you to mah family already!!! What else can i do....im hurting inside but i don't want to tell you...i dont want you to knoe! I want to call u so bad....but how can i.....all u will hear is mah crying voice! I want to hear your voice once agen without fighting....where we laugh together and share memories about our past...about what had happened to us! The first time we met...the first kiss....and how we met!! haha =) I miss you baby........i miss everything about u! How can this happen? WE just saw each other....we were just together....we were just happy......how can this be? Why does it that i have to fall in love so hard?How can i stop this broken heart of mine from falling.....from falling in love! Please help me.....give me ur love once agen! Tell me that you will never leave me.....tell me that u will always be here for me!!!Miss na miss na kita mahal ko! Sana alam mo na mahal kita and miss na kita......i hope ur here holding me......telling me that u will always be here for me...and that u will never give me away to someone else! That no one can have me except for u mahal ko! U knoe that i love u....u knoe that i care....u knoe that i will always be here for you! I still want u i still need u!!! Where are u now?? I cant do anything anymore! What would i do if i saw u with another girl? How would i feel if she was in ur arms? I cant do it....mah heart wont beable to take it...........i don't want another girl kissing those lips......i don't want any girl hugging u....i don't want another girl....telling you that they love you and u telling them that u love them! I cant do that......please........mah heart wont beable to take it!Stay here with and lets start over.......will i beable to find someone like u or better? But the thing is that i don't want another....i want u!!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 06:51:11 GMT

Let me see.....first i wanna say Happy New Years 2 EVERYBODY!!!!I didn't do much....but let me see......mah babes spend new years with me.......we actually stayed at home and watched movies and stuff!! We had fun...we also ate a lot and played board games hahaha how fun!!!!We were planning to go somewhere but then it was rainning hard so we decided to just stay at mah place........with the heater on and blankets and everything!!! It was nice!!!=) Actually it was the first time that i have spent New Years with mah bf!!!=)

I had 3 weeks off....and now i am going back 2 skool......actually i started today!!!=) DAmn it was hard getting up but it was harder getting 2 bed because i got use 2 sleeping late agen!!!! DAMN=) hahaha But anywayz....during mah break me and mah boo went out......and stuff!!! I had a good vacation.........i slept in and everything.....i would sleep late and wake up late.....i cant wait wen i am in college!!! Wow college!! hahaha =) Thats all i gotz to say so far!!Take care everyone!! Loves MUah =)

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 06:20:52 GMT

WElpz, let me see wat i did today........i woke up like around 12 something and took mah dog a shower!!! =) When i was done taking mah baby the dog a shower, i took a shower also!!!! =) When i was done i waited for Ralph becuase i wanted to get mah nails done!!! We went and i also did mah hair!!! Colored it..........it looks really nice!!! Neways.....after that we went home and i dressed up cause we had to go some place!!! I got ready and we went to a play at mah skool!!! It was a kewl play i liked it....took some pictures and ate a lil!!!! It started at 7pm and ended at 10pm!!!! I took ralph home and then i got home and ate!! I was soo hungry!!!! I saw lots of pple and i had so much fun but it was sooo cold outside.......but inside it was warm they warmed it!!!=) I had a blast............now i gotz to do hw so that 2morrow i can go bowling and i don't have to worrie about anything!!!! Nite nite everyone!!! Muah

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 06:02:50 GMT

On sunday hmmm i went bowling!! It was fun but we went to the one in Pasadena......it would be better in Covina cause iono!!! I think i got use 2 it!! But neways......i got home around 10pm and i had skool the next day!! GEtting ready for the tournament!!! TIghtness.....but yea!!!=) It got so expensive now....i mean its not even cheap like before...it use to be one dollar or watever and now its like 4 bucks but wen its 9pm its 3 dollars wow wat a difference!!

TOday i went to skool..........we have thursday and friday off tightness!!! We got out early today and not a lot of pple went to skool cause yea they were getting ready for THANKSGIVING!!!! Yup yup =) I got home rested for awhile and went to the football game at mah skool!! It started at 7pm but me and Ralph got there around 6 something!!! We wanted to get a good seat thats why we were early!!! DAmn i had to go to the bathroom so bad that i had to hold it through out the whole freakin game damn!!! hahaah =) its kewl though cause i had fun and everything else!!!! Oh yea ERHS WON we WON the finals!!! Yup yup it was 34 to 18 hahaha losers!!! We were on a roll but yea......it was the first time that ERHS had lights....i mean at nite with lights hehehe =) THey say that if a lot of pple come they will probably make it permanent!!! Tightness...it should be at nite cause its better that way!! I had fun though...........it was hella cold!!! I was freezing mah AZZ off hahaha =) I dropped off ralph and then decided to rent movies!!!! I rented about 4 and got home around 11pm!!! THen i went straight to mah room and wrote on mah blog.....wat i am doing now!! Getting hungry hmmm....wonder wat i should eat rite now!!!!! BUt yea thats all for now!!! Have a HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 03:58:51 GMT

Why does love hurt so much?? Pple get hurt in so many ways no matter how long u have been with someone they tend to hurt u so much! Why do they do that wen they tell you that they love u? WHy do they change wen something changes? Are they getting sick of you or what is it? I was hurt so many times and i have gotten right back up agen.........even though i was with someone for so long i took is as he isn't the one for me! Loving someone with all ur heart is not good for your heart.......nor is it good to stay away with love....meaning u do need love but not so much where it can hurt so much.....where u can feel the pain! Don't let guys be ur world be able to show them that u are strong and that even though u love him.....and he leaves u that u can stand up agen and look at him once and never turn around agen...thats all u need!! U need to be able show urself that even though ur very weak in the inside do not show them in the outside....but wat u show them is the strength u have to move on!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 05:40:58 GMT

Having lots of probelm rite now!!! I mean with this guy......but iono i have so many anyways........i hate it..........we been fighting over stupid stuff which i hate cause it makes me cry cause i care a lot about this person!! I don't knoe why he does this 2 me.......gives me a hard time with everything and gets all up on mah face about other guys he hates it wen i talk to other guys or watever!! i don't knoe weather to cry or just brush it off mah shoulders!!! Whatever i mean im use to it anyways!!! i guess iono i have no1 else to talk 2 about this i don't knoewho would just listen 2 me!!! He never understands me and he always say that he does but he really doesn't.......he thinks that he knoes me so well but he doesn't even knoe me....i don't even knoe mahself!! DAMN wat should i do??

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 16:08:27 GMT

Let me see.....what have i been doing!!!I have been fightin with mah close frend for awhile now! I been its just because his always jelly about things!! I don't knoe why........he doesn't like me talking to other guys and we just fight everyday!!! Its been 2 days now since we been fighting!!! Yesterday i fianlly got to talk to one of mah close frend from Las Vegas........i decided to talk 2 her and try to fix the problem that we were having!!! I stop talking to her for a long azz time!!! I didn't want to deal with her at a point because of what had happened but then wen i thought about it.........it wasn't her fault that thing happened.......it happened because of that person not going to mention any names!!! But yea.....i dislike him and i hope that he will never get with anyone that he will never be happy and he will be alone and not get married!!! Yea thats rite thats how much i dislike him.......he did everything to ruin me.......he mess me up like he never ever loved me!!! watever i am over it......but because of him i became stronger in relationship and it didn't make me weaker!!! But anyways.....i am at skool writing on this blog!! But i gotta go soon!!! Aiight later!!!

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 16:05:53 GMT

WElpz, here i am at skool writing on mah xanga!!! Anywayz....i have been busy i mean hella busy!!! I havent had time to talk on the phone with pple!! Sorrie about that.........just busy with skool and other things!! But yea....i gotta go cause the bell will ring soon.....imma write more next time!!!!!!!!! =)

Monday, October 10, 2005

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 02:50:55 GMT

Dang its been awhile since i wrote here in mah lil blog!! But anywayz.....guess where i am writing........i am here at Best Buy with frends!! BUt yeah......nothing have been happening......just skool and other things!!! Lauren and ate Nicole went to mah place so that they can fix the computer!!! WAIT WAIT Lauren and i took the SAT and it took forever!!! THen we went to the party and went to mah place!!!! RAlph helped them and everything and we watched movies and went to target....it was a long day they left around 12 in the morning!! Long huh!!!!!

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 06:43:53 GMT

Hey peeps!! Watzup?? People who are still reading my xanga....i wanna say that today was kewl...it was fun!!! First Ralph and mah mom picked me up....and we went to Torrance because we were going to sleep over!! So anywayz.....here i am writing on mah xanga trying to remember what we did today....so anywayz.........we got here at Torrance and i ate because i didn't eat yet!! Then mah ate, kuya, ralph and mahself went to church.....i showed Ralph the place...i showed him around...then we decided to listen to the choir....and then mah kuya Jayson, Kuya Jomark....we went to Coffee Bean and we saw pple and we talked and laughed!! It was fun and Ralph got to know some of them.....it was kewl!!!! We were all laughing and talking and everything!! I was drinking a lot though!!! It was around 8 pm that we decided to go to the GYM and see if pple were playing basketball!!! But then no 1 came and the GYM was closed!!!! Ralph was so bumped because he came to torrance with me so that he can basketball with the guys!! Oh well maybe next time!!! But anywayz.......they all decided to buy some pizza so we did!!! We bought a large pizza and we went back to mah ates place!! We ate and then we chilled for awhile!! The boys left and went to mah kuya jomarks house to play games!! When they left it was around uumm 11 pm!!! Pretty late....and its pretty late that i am still writing on mah xanga!!! But i should end here cause i still need to finish mah homework and finish the movie i am watching!! Nite everyone!!!