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Thu, 28 Jun 2007 19:11:38 GMT

Hi BabyDuDz21! It's been 1517 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga...

hmmm interesting...

new j-o-b

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 18:19:50 GMT

i got a new job! can't wait to start..

goodbye BJ's wholesale....forever! hehe

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Sun, 20 May 2007 22:41:20 GMT

i got a new fone! enV me!

get it?! get it?! haha

new look for summer `o7

Tue, 15 May 2007 23:14:01 GMT

soo...i got my huRr dyed today

Monday, May 14, 2007

Mon, 14 May 2007 23:14:56 GMT

i've actually been updating my xanga...but everything is on private

jealous?

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 20:27:42 GMT

so i'm here in my room bored as shytt.. :sigh: i miss ed.. this sucks since im so used to hanging out with him everyday..i saw him after work today..but it just it feels like it wasn't enough..i'm really tired and sleepy..so i've decided to not go to char's birthday @ dave and buster's..plus i got work @ 7a the next day..but ed ended up going anyways since it's his future sis-in-law..it just feels weird because ever since me and ed started dating we always go clubbing together..and now he went with out me..i just hope he won't meet other girls i mean i really do trust him 100%..it's just that i don't trust other girls.. :sigh: i don't know..i just feel like i get a little too possessive sometimes..i mean it feels nice when other girls find ed attractive and they start crushing on him...but sometimes it just gets on my nerves..like those CNAs @ his job..omgawsh! esp that one girl, grace..like seriously, she's throwing herself to ed..what a whore?! once i start working @ genesis this summer i'm gonna beat those girls up..grr! lol
but anyways..i'm gonna rest now...

Friday, December 29, 2006

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 16:25:46 GMT

ayyy shyetness..i feel blahhh and i don't know why...just got home from my crappy job @ bj's..& can't wait to leave that job and start working at the nursing home over the summer..oh well i get a raise in a few weeks..hmm..yesterday i visited bhe in PA..i finally get to see her after 4 long years..geeze!she was like one of my best friends back in 6th grade..so we go wayyy back..one whole day with her wasn't enough to catch up with everything that happened the past years..but anyway, i had a blast with her yesterday..can't wait until you get back from the motherland again..[uyy bhe, next time uli ahh..april?may?]
but yeah...for some weird reason i want to go back to school already..i should've taken a winter class..i'm already getting bored..i mean i still have 5 weeks to waste..i feel like i've already done all the things i wanted to do for the semester break: go out, shopping, hang out with friends...i seriously need to get serious with my school..ughhh! i hate all people with easy majorS...arggg! like i hate how you guys rub it in my face that you have all A's last semester..c'mon now..OF COURSE..you guys are freaking music/art/psych/HRM/mc/comp....etc...MAJORS!! *no offense* i mean like, seriously...i'm a nursing major and i really have to bust my ass to get flying colors.. :sigh: im already behind a year since i wasted one whole year taking all these classes i never needed..
i guess what matters most is i graduate with an RN before i'm 23.....
okay..so have you ever feel like you just wanted to be alone? like you just want to have a "me time"..? like A VACTION:
    with no parents who expect toooooo much from you
    with out your perfect boyfriend, he's too perfect that it annoys you!!
    no FUTURE CAREER to bother you
    no crappy job @ some whack wholesale club
    a place where you can just think..and be peaceful!
is that even possible?
i'm sick of everything....i feel like there's nothing to do..sometimes i just find myself crying in my room..i'm trying to keep myself busy...i started to read books again, play some roller coaster tycoon, watch TV, hang out with people, and work as much..i hate when i have so much time in my hands that i started to think..not just any regular thinking...like OVER THE TOP kinda type of thinking...i miss the days when i just worry about why is my teddy bear missing? or why did my kuya pulled my barbie doll's head again? or which toy should i play now? the dayss when life was easy...i'm scared of growing up...i'm scared of failing..i'm scared of disappointing my parents...if only i was perfect..then everything would be different...i remember when i was little, my dad would pick me up and he'll put me on his shoulders and i would go with him wherever he go..i was such a daddy's little girl..i just missed those times.
i feel so lonely..why can't i stop crying? i guess i'm just having those moments..moments when i get really emotional...and breakdown crying..errrRR i'm so gay sometimes..

reminisce---summer 06

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 14:02:59 GMT

i really thought that xanga died..and everyone switched to myspace..
but i need to write down my thoughts so i've decided to use xanga once again..

it's the day after christmas..and i have to work later...and my throat has been itching..i feel like im coming down with something..unfortunately i can't call out work since i wouldn't get my holiday pay if i call out today..and you know how much i need the money because of all the presents i bought..arrrg! i feel like crap! but yeah..christmas was alright..got eally nice some really nice gifts and stuff..but it woulda been more fun if i was in PI..there's no place like home...if i was in PI it would be 10 times better...coz christmas here is so overrated like seriously! but anyways..earlier, i've been looking at some pictures from last summer..i just realized how summer 2006 was so much fun..there were some ups and downs..but i definitely enjoyed it.. :sigh: i miss you! i really do..i know we weren't official but we had our intimate moments.. i definitely missed how we were..and how we used to be..i missed spending time with you..too bad 6 months with you went to waste..but then you were kinda like an asshole lol but then again a guy who can be an asshole is what girls find attractive but im really glad that we stayed friends after all what had happened..happy birthday buddy!

oh i how i hated summer but after a while i learned to love it..i met the most awesome guy ever... oh how i love him..who would think that i could actually fall in love again? lol i really think he's the one..i know it's weird..but once it hit you, you just know it!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 22:22:53 GMT

wow..haven't been to xanga in foreverrr..randomly, i've decided to update..

at the moment im kinda feeling blahh..feeling happy, sad, confused all at the same time..
the semester is about to end once again and crap! im still not in the nursing program..sometimes i wonder if i still wanna be a nurse..but i'm halfway there so i just gotta suck it up and move on..

i'm depressed? or maybe i'm just being moody
i'm in love? with the most awesome boyfriend everr! love you honey!
i'm a failure? yeah..CNA can wait 'til summer..genesis elder care here i am!
i'm stressed to the max out? i just hate last couple of weeks of the semester...when every paper and projects are due all in one time!
i'm broke? so yeah..christmas is coming up..haven't even started shopping for presents yet and i'm already broke!
i'm missing an old "friend"? grrr! moving on..
i'm excited? semi-formal is next saturday... my dress = hotnessss!

MY SOLUTION?! just *eff* everything! i'm gonna party it up once the semester ends! lol

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 11:24:32 GMT

i never thought it'd hurt this much......