Hahahaha its been a really long time. I know no one is guna check his out so i can say everything and anything.

I finally decided to quit and this time i swear on Josh's grave. I an't do it to mysef anymore. Its driving me insane. I smoked PCP. Not  very bright thing o o but i did it anyways. That nigh everything was spinning. I stopped breathing nd everyone else couldn't do anything cause gess what..I was alone. Like always. I fainted nd idn't wake up for a couple hours (11hrs) Everyone got worried i got sick an now my throat hurts and I'm in pain. lot of it. Lol thats what I get right?
Serge is slowly taking away my life. I can't eat, I can't be alone, I can't sleep. ^-^ Life is wonderful....

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But yeah i can't do shit anymore, Life is slowly tring to go down the drain i cry myself to sleep every night. I can't take much of this anymore. If he doesn't kill me starvation will. Life has show a different road lately and I don't like this one i'm on. Its bloody and very painful and i don't know how much longer i can take it...Understand? I'm sick and tried of doing things alone now.....