Currently Playing Control By Pedro the Lion see related

So it has pretty much been 2 months since my last "entry", lots has happened since then, but i wont get into that now. So listen, just cuz I don't really talk to you guys that much, doesn't mean that I don't love you. Cuz I do I really really do. I got accepted to Beyond, but I am not sure about going....if you have any insight for me or if you are going, let me know! I think about you guys everyday. I would love to talk to you guys. im me: OCgirl4god11 or e-mail ocgirl4god11@aol.com. I love you like a fat kid loves cake. I think it was Alyssa S. who said that. Oh how i miss her....

You sister in Christ,

Barbie #11         a.k.a: Amanda

Currently Playing North By Something Corporate see related

- Awesome CD!!!

BTW did I mention that I love Autumn? It 'tis one of the coolest seasons of the year! It is snowing in the So Cal mountains, you know what that means?!?! Snowboarding season came early! Yay! I am thinking about hitting up the slopes sometime this week (since my school gets Turkey week off!) I had an interview @ Biola today. I think that it went pretty well. Although it is not my first choice school, but that is ok. Did I tell you that I went to the Something Corporate concert? Oh my werd! It was beyond amazing! Ahhh I met the band and they signed my shirt! It was so so so cool! If any of you have my space (myspace.com), look at my thing and you can see pix. Alyssa would be proud. I thought of her. Anywho, I am applying for OBBeyond, so if you could pray for that. I think that God is giving me a heart for innercity stuff. Like homeless people. My mom is going to give me 100 dollars and she wants me to doing something for someone else with it. So I am thinking like on Turkey day I will make a bunch of turkey sandwich lunches and buy like a bunch of blankets and go thrifting and buy some jakets and gloves, etc. and go to downtown Santa Ana and hand stuff out. I think that would be really really aweome! And tomorrow I am dying my hair to it's natural color (dark brown) so I am getting scared. Actually, my friend is going to come over and help me do it so that should be an adventure. I am probably going to put some pix of that on my space, so check that out if you want to! I am experimenting with my little Xanga thing, I thought it would me cool to set my margin to the right instead of the left , cuz I am just cool like that

Currently Playing They're Only Chasing Safety By Underoath see related

- Reinventing your exit, and ....black and white.

Xanga pics always look blury...here is me @ reunion!

Oh, my word. What an awesome weekend. It was so so so much fun. I really think that I am going to Grace (if I get accepted) lol! But yeah, it was so good to see everybody! I got to do some quality bonding with JenJu OB style (wink wink). Anywho, I am currently doing 100 billion things and I am in the middle of college applicaitions. I learned a lot last weekend about my self. I got lots to think about. I think that I am finally getting over this whole Sean thing. I mean yeah I still have feelings for him and I probably will for a little bit, but God has been teaching me a lot. Some amazing stuff. I know that everything happens for a reason and I know that me and Sean aren't together right now becuase of some awesome plan that God has, but I am not sure what I am supposed to learn from this yet, but it will come up at the most unexpected time. That is just how God works.

My friend Jason is in a band (hardcore) and he was like "Amanda you gotta get the Underoath cd" (They're only chasing safety) so I am listening to it and i love it! Jason is one of the coolest guys that I know. He plays bass! And his band is awesome (Dead Letter Dairies). His ex girlfriend cheated on him recently, so we are becoming really close and getting through this together. But I am not looking for a relationship right now. I am focusing on God. So happy essay writing to all of you! And check out Underoath~they are b-e-autiful!

Currently Playing Autobiography By Ashlee Simpson see related

Homecoming last night was so much fun! I went with my firend Cameron. He is such an amazing spiritual guy! We went in a huge group of my friends and it was just so much fun! I went to my firned Jessica's house to get ready and that was fun. Then Kendall came over and we went to my friend Jamie's hosue to take pictures. Then we went to dinner which was so yummy! I had ravioli's (delish). And we went to the dance. The best high school dance I have ever been to! I am so glad that I went. And then we went to my firend Jeff's house and just hung out. I

I cannot wait for reunion!! I really need to see some of you guys!

Currently Playing Farewell to the Familiar By Slow Coming Day see related

You're my partner,

my pal,

my adviser,

my shrink,

my trusty  copilot,

my "snuggler"

You're my perfect companion,

the love of my life,

my soul mate forever!

...how ironic. Last night I was supposed to be flying to Florida to suprise Sean, but instead I spent the evening with my grandparents who were celebrating their 65th wedding anniversary. Kudos to them for staying with eachother that long. The words that I started this entry with were from the card that my grandpa gave my gandma. They are such an inspiration to me. They have been through so much and they are still together. He was away in the navy, she had breast cancer, the things that they have been through are endless. I am so so so proud of them . They are the cutest thing ever! It is so awesome that they stayed together, that my friends, is what I like to call love. Love is a word that gets thrown around a lot. It isn't just a noun, but it should be a verb. You should show someone that you love them. And when you say " i love you" even if you like say it over the phone or right it in a note,  mean it! One of the worst things to happen to someone is to have a bronken heart and it is so frustrating because that is the easiest thing to prevent. People say things like " that will never happen to me." I thought that, and it did happen to me and it hurts. It is probably the hardest thing that I have ever had to go through. I physically hurted when it happened. And I am still trying to struggle through it. And it will probably take a while. Because when you love someone and they break your heart, you are still going to have feelings for them. And you can't really move on with your life until you let go of those feelings. And in order to do that you have to talk to that person, end that part of your life, and try ot move on. I am telling you, be careful who you give your heart to (besides God of course). I learned a lot last night. It was definetly a God thing. But isn't everything?