| You know. These past two years having been the turning points in my life. For once, I finally had someone to hold, love and cherish. There was someone there to share memories with and show me how to feel and care. She brought me happiness and taught me that I could open my heart and not be hurt. My love has become more of a tale than anything. I travelled the distance through rain sleet and snow, endured the tests of time, and gave my heart and soul for the one person I love. Nothing kept me from seeing her because she was the light at the end of my journey. We'd laugh and tried to dance haha, and everything seemed great. But like every great tale, theres always a twist of events in the end. I leave the most perfect person in my life and come home to nothing. The last prevailing memory in my mind through all the shock and sadness is her smile. My heart was actually broken. The one thing you would never expect in something so perfect. Its as though i'm looking through a window outside a shop seeing something I really want but its not within my reach. You know you always had dreams of having that one thing but when you wake up, its all gone. Thats the feeling that I get everytime I wake up. I see something so beautiful, me and her holding each other and smiling. But when I awake, i'm all alone again. I try to tell myself that i'm ok but at times its difficult. Its as though love has made me stubborn. But like every tale, there is always a happy ending. That happy ending is something that I look forward to everyday, because I know that this random and unexpected thing can bring me happiness again. The irony of love. |
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| I'm still HERE!hey hey hey. yerp. haha ya its been awhile since i've written in this
xanga thingers..but i say that all the time lol.. anyway i just
wanna let all my old compadres out there who i've always spoken to
everyday of my teenage life, I'M STILL HERE!!! just been livin a very
scheduled life lately...haven't really done anything out of the
ordinary....and for once I actually feel like i'm loosing energy..ya i
kno very unlike me. eckk I think i'm getting old! grrrrr...hells no!
But man.. I miss talking to all of you!  ...I've
just been out of the loop lately and haven't done any mingling or
jingling....hopefully I can start acting myself again and bring some
color in my life...lol a lot of u prolly don't even think I still write
in this thing cuz its been awhile, but hey if u happen to stop by then
please leave me something cuz i've been dying to hear how u are and how
things are going...I need my friends back~~! Ahhhh haha k i'm out
cubscout.
quote of the month: "Hey is your name summer cuz your really hot." haha
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| HOLY MOLYholy moly holy moly holy moly lol ya wuteva
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| sweet, its xanga! haha.. ya i haven't written in this in awhile! but
pretty much everything is the same old same old except that now i have
a lot of activities goin for me. I feel like i need to write in this
thing right now to regain my sanity. My mind feels so saturated with
stress that I always seem to conjure up when it isn't needed. I can't
seem to find a way to release all of the negatives and refill with the
positives. Maybe i just need to be more focused..ahhh i don' t know ..
or maybe i just need to step back and stop beating myself over my
failures... and start new again...Oh well, maybe after writing in this
again, i'll be able to clear out all the things I have in mind.
Alrighty Welcome back xanga! haha cya
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| Haha daym i haven't updated in this thing in awhile... CUZ I"M ON MYSPACE!! lol ya that shits the bomb...eeckk old slang...butttt yaa i went to six flags last night and it was a fun time... Went on nitro and hung out with my gf and her friends.. good stuff.. kinda sad it ended fast and i had a drive back home alone, but well worth the trip...alright boys and girls just look me up on that space of mine. LAta banjo playa-Al |
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