i have learned alot over the years through fake smiles
and unseen tears - friends sometimes arent f o r e v r
that love doesnt always  l a s t, happy memories stayy
with you- those moments go by last, so enjoy the good
things that go on now cause the good shit never l a s t s

l e t t i n g  g o  doesn't mean giving up .. it means
accEpting that somethings werent meAnt to be'«3

sometimes all you can do is smile and
move on with the dayy ..  holdd your
tears backk and pretend you're okayy'

time, sometimes the time just slips away
annd your left with yesterday, lEft with
the memories. i, i'll alwAys think of you
and smile & be happy for the tiime i had
you with me. tHough we go our separate
ways, i won't f0rget so don't forget the
 - m   E  m   o   r  i  e   s  -  we made   <3

sometimes people put up walls ... not to keep people
out but to see who cares enough to break them down

sometimes all you have to do
is smile at ppl and say fuck u 

you can gr0w up with a kid but you neverr r e a ll y   n0ticee him .. he is just there on the street ; the playgrroundd ; the neighborhoodd he is part of the scenery , like the green plastiic cans on trash daay you pass thru school,each grade there he is goin along wiith youu your not frends your not enemies yu just cross patths now & theen at the park 1day you look up & there he is on the end of a seesaaw its winter and you sled to the botom of a hill & your trudging up a hill and there he g0es ; zipping d0wnn andd scrreamingg his heaad off maybe it annoys you that he is having even more fuun theen y0uu `but its a 1second thought & its over , you dont even know his name andd tthen .. one day you do you hear someonee saay a namee .' and somehow youu just know thats who the name bellongs to , it is that kid 

         whats worse ..
a lie that draws a smiile orr-
the truth that draws a tear?

everyone wants happiness no one wants pain
but you cant make a rainbow w/o a lil rainnn

sometimes you gota hold yur head up to the sky
fAke a smile' and pretend yur fine . b|c all things
hav a purpose whether its good or bad - hearts 
get broken and friends get mAd. but whatever
may happen just keep a smile the whole way thru
and neverr lett anyone get the besst of youu

ive learned never to hang on to someone too tightly because just when youu think they'll stay around something happens' and you lose your grip

courage is just fear holding on a minute longer.

"Laughter is the one true thing everyone will always need."

dont ever let anyone make yu feel like you dont 
                                  deserve what you want

real eyes . realize . real lies

"I don't believe in regret.  Even if something turns out 
           negativley,  you can learn from  that situation"

think about what you say..because it's a fact..no matter
how hard you try..you can never take your words back.

The prettiest people do the ugliest things

never regret something that  o n c e  made you smile

i keep on thinking things will never change.i keep on thinkingg
things will always be the same but wer' movin on and we cant
slow down ...  these memories play like a film without sound -
will the past be a shadow followin us around,will the memorys
fade when we leave this town?will we think about tomoro liike
we think about it now,can we surviive out there can we make
it somehow ? i keep on thinking this is not goodbye, i keep on'
thinking its a time to fly - and this is how it feels

if you saww things from my point of
view, you would think twice aboutt
the shit you thought you knew

"its true that we don't know what we've got until
 we lose it, but it's also true that we don't knoww
 what we've been missing until it arrives"

the space b e t w e e n the tears we cry is the
laughter that keeps us coming back for more *

somehow time goes by and what you had just goes away...

you never know whats behind a smile

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

They say don't cry because it's over but smile because it happened; but how can I smile when thinking of good things, when I know they'll never happen again?

even the smallest candle burns brighter in the dark

that night, the night when i finally said 'enough is enough,' was biting cold as i slipped out of the party, struggling to hold back my tears & making it only as far as the car, where i spent what seemed like ages fumbling with my keys until i finally felt the lock give & rushed, shivering, into the driver's seat. it took a minute for me to move; i sat there instead with my hands on top of the wheel & my forehead pressed against it, taking in deep breaths of the cool air that was slowly becoming tolerable. sitting up, i wiped my eyes, though it was as useless as a shoveling snow while the blizzard is still happening, & began to drive. i had no where to go, but somehow it seemed like the only option. the lights of the city all blurred into one & i could barely make out the reds, greens, & yellows of the traffic signals as i drove along. my head was no longer doing the driving, though; instead, it was my heart, & i somehow found myself at the football field. you know the one. you remember the night. & as i sat there, i saw it all play out, & through my tears, i smiled. the next place i passed was the sidewalk in front of my grandma's apartment, the one where we stood kissing in the rain. i closed my eyes, & the wetness on my face was still there, almost as if it were happening again. next were the flower shop, the gas station, the car wash...i also passed the beauty salon,  i passed meyer's courtyard & i saw the very place we had parked that night. it couldn't possibly have been almost two years ago, could it? because i could still feel the way i had felt that night, the way my cheeks had ached from smiling so hard. the bowling alley, the y, the movie theater...every place has it's own story, it's own unforgettable memory of 'us.' remember when it was 'us,' not 'you' & 'me?' i kept driving, letting occasional sobs escape my mouth as the rain from my eyes steadily fell, & i went to the place i knew would hurt the most. i drove past 'your road,' past my old house where we drove through the fog & you gave me a kiss on the cheek while i drove because you 'couldn't help it,' & finally i saw it. the rest stop. our rest stop. two years it had been ours. i parked the car this time, walked out to the table where we had layed together, & laid down in the freezing cold, listening to the rush of the river. the cold wind burned my face, but when i closed my eyes, i could almost swear it was your warm breath brushing against my face again...i could almost feel your skin against mine, here you whisper those three little words. & i swear, at that moment, the tears were gone. i sat up & looked around. the grass, the grass we had made memories on, was no longer beautiful; it was ugly & brown & had lost the magic it once possessed. i almost laughed at the irony of it all. instead, i sighed, slowly got up & walked to the car. with one last look, i got inside, started the ignition & wiped my eyes completely dry. '& this,' i thought to myself, 'this is letting go '

Lets face it, we've changed .. we've all changed. Somewhere
 between summer ending & school starting, we've all gone our
 own directions. Hearts were broken, friendshipss diminished,
 new loves stArted & new people came into our lives.    We no
 longer spend all of our time together in our circle of   friends,
 we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all.    Some of us
 are findng love while others are trying to let go. Even though
 we've changed we all know that even though we're all finding
 our own place in the world that when we find love,   let go of
 a love, or when the tears fall or a smile spreads aCross our face
 we'll come to each other because no matter where this cRazy
 world takes us & no matter what happens nothing will change
 so much thAt we're not all best friends forever    

Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was "Daddy's Day" at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. Of a dad whos never there a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats. one by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?!" she heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, She heard another father say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day." The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. and looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, Slowly she began to speak And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique. "My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, Since this is such a special day And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy and how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him. I'm not standing here alone. "Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart" With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years. And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud. "I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far You see he was a fireman and died just this past year When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away." And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day. And to her mother's amazement, she witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, Who knows what they felt inside Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side. "I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed.. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.