"Have no fear
For giving in
Have no fear
For getting over
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open"

I don't have any more energy to deal with my shitty life. I have final exams coming up soon, guy problems (as always,) body problems (obviously) and bitchy friend problems. It is just too much! I can't handle it. I did tell one of my closest friends about how I felt about myself though. She said the same exact thing everybody always says, then when I said I hated that people said the exact same things to me all the time, she couldn't think of anything to say. At first, it felt like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders, then I felt exactly the same, because nothing had changed. So she knew! Big deal! It didn't help to say anything at all. I don't have the energy to deal with anything anymore. Everything is just way too difficult. 




<That's how I feel all the time. She is gorgeous>


<Exactly.>






 

 I don't know what to do. I repulse myself and I am scared to fast. I really want to tell my other friends what is going on with me, but what if they don't support me. They will just say the exact same thing they always do to make me feel better.... "You are really pretty and you're not fat!" I am sick of the lies. I just want them to tell me the truth. I never know what to believe now. I just want the truth....

      

Sorry I haven't updated in FOREVER. Hope you guys didn't worry though! I am doing okay. Everything is about the same at school. I am feeling a little better about myself, but I still get pretty down. Hope everyone else is doing okay, and I will update on everything eventually. Love you guys to death!

p.s. I am soooo fucked off! I was this close to going to the Boys like Girls/ Avril Lavgine concert yesterday, but since my sister thought she was too busy, we didn't go! I totally cried. They are my favorite band and I REALLY wanted to go!