Making A Comeback

Currently Listening The Senior By Ginuwine Stingy see related

Selfish

Well lemme start off by saying life is good. The Lord is good to me and has me in his good graces. School is.... decent. I just have to do a little catching up because I was out for a bit wit sickness. But I'm gonna work on that today.... Eventually.... Before the day is done, lol. And my friends.... I have some of the coolest friends ever!!! lol. So I'm happy about that.

But what I was really thinking about was the fact that I feel really selfish right now about my Teddy Bear. I kinda been wanting to talk to him this weekend... And I have off and on-ish. But not really talking. Except for when we watched Dane Cook at like 1 sumthin in the morning..... Which was HILARIOUS by the way. But shortly after we had to get some sleep cuz I had church in the morning and he was tired. So i get home from church today and give him a call and he's playing Playstation.... Just like he was yesterday... Which contributed to the off and on-ish-ness of our talking.... And i'm feeling like well damn, ya kno? Its not even like i have a damn thing to talk about.... Its jus more along the lines of.... Wanting to be in his presense sort of.... Is that bad of me? Like i'm not trippin on him because I kno the relationship between a boy and his game(s) should not be tampered with. But at the same time I'm feeling like..... "What about me? "

Is this normal? What do you think?

Currently Listening Chris Brown By Chris Brown Poppin see related

What A Night!

Homecoming, I must say, was pretty hot. Not so much the music or anything like that. But the people and the feeling and the intensity..... Oh it was so hot. Just being with all my friends and people I was cool with, dancing like I've never danced before... Well I won't go as far as to say that, lol. I actually think I danced more last year. But that's alright, ya kno? It didn't even matter. I really really enjoyed myself and I hope that everyone around me was enjoying themself too. And I took a lot a lot of pictures. (and yes i meant to put a lot twice) so that's pretty grand too.... OOooh i just don't know what else to say. I'm posting the pictures on my facebook so if you have one and you're my friend, check em out there. If not, and you wanna see em, jus let me kno and we'll work somethin out.

Peace and Love (me)

Currently Listening The Phoenix By Lyfe Jennings S.E.X. see related

I Love Being A Senior

S.E.X. No more secrets, daddy's gon go crazy when he find out that his baby's filled with S.E.X., take a deep breath, and think before you let it go..... <---- That was just something personal for me.

This whole senior thing is really working out to be quite nice. I'm happy about that. Have an A in just about every class so that's sweet. Then we don't have school tomoro. (SHHH!!! Don't tell my mom, lol. I didn't.) So tomoro me and Rob and gabby and john are headin to BoysTown to browse and just generally be out. Me and Gabby went there b4 but john and Rob neva been so this'll b new to them. Then afterwards its back to Rob's house for me. (I've been spending a lotta time there lately, lol.) But yea, more fun shall ensue there. SO yay me

Let's see what else? Uhm... I really don't kno man. Homecoming's coming up. That's gonna be very hot. That's def da celebration weekend fa sure. Donte's b-day, Ashley's b-day, me & rob's anni (not as important... i mean it is but i was told not to make a big deal about it, but its hot stuff to me dammit), and jus generally hanging out. So John recommened a cute little something to do afterwards but i gotta see how that'll turn out. But i kno its gon be so much Funnnnn!!!!! Aaaah i'm so excited!!!! (can u tell?)

Oh Oh and Friday my church is having a poetry set night type thing so i gotta find some suitable material for that.... Which may be a little harder than I thought it'd be. i write some pretty mature poetry. lol is that bad? I dunno..... Gaaah this is such a stream of conscienceness entry. I haven't done that in awhile. Speaking of that i just thought about senior quotes, anyone come up with one yet? I kno Jaron has his and that's about it. I'm still deciding for mine but i think it'd be cool to here wat you guys think too...

Aight enough for now. I'm out.

Currently Listening Back to Basics By Christina Aguilera Mercy On Me see related

My Heart Can't Take This

Alright so I know I love him right... But how much... is too much? Ya know wat I mean? Like can you ever love someone too much? Like goin all da way to da west side after school jus to check up on them cuz they stayed home from school sick... Is that too much love or is that just enough? I don't know. But i know my heart and my soul says there's nothing wrong with it. And despite my friends mocking me (playfully i hope) I'ma still love him the way I do. Because it makes no sense the way I feel. Its like... Like a quote that I made up sophomore year about love:

An unspoken clarification of something that was never defined.

That's how I feel about this boy. It's like, I can explain it to myself with no issue. But if someone else were to ask me to define it... I can't. What makes me love him?... No clue. But does that question ever really need an answer? I think not. Aah.... I'm so mushy, lol. So what, dammit?! I love it and so does he, that's what matters in the end. Yep.