Today, it happened. What I was dreading, and somehow still looking forward  to. God, he looked good. Alright, well maybe I should rewind a bit.

I'm talking about Anthony.
You know, letter A on The Boyfriend List
I saw him today at church. I don't even want to write about this. It was horrible. I had been looking forward to seeing this guy because I so badly wanted to try again, to apologize & just start over because I know I made a mistake by basically deserting him and refusing to answer his calls and that. That was the dumbest thing I've ever done. I still feel bad about it. As a matter of fact, last night right before I feel asleep I was thinking about him, trying to remember what he looked like because I couldn't remember a face if my life depended on it. I know that's weird. I know this is making no sense. Alright, well I saw him at church, he walked in with James & his whole family. And just for the record, I used to think James was a weird dude. Not so much anymore, he's kind of awesome actually and I kind of wish we were better friends now, but how exactly do you tell someone you wanna talk to them or hang out with them more (just as friends) without sounding like a really weird creepo maniac? So yeah, Anthony, he looked so good today, I know, I know. Its CHURCH. God, forgive me..or whatever I'm supposed to say but, he did and I didn't even realize it was him at first, it's been so long. Anyway after church we had pizza for lunch (in the church still) & I stand in line behind him and James and just wait (to get pizza, is this making sense?) & he immediately turns around and goes,
"You're Belinda right?" and I knew I had seen him before I just, damn me....I just couldn't recognize his face. So, I'm like Oh boy, how does this one know my name too? I just said yeah. Then he says,
"Yeah..." and he turns to James "She's the one who played me out before."  Oh God, I wanted to step on his face so badly at that moment. I guess this is where I realized it was him. Well no, at first I just thought it was some random guy and I just laughed and said I didn't remember that. Of course he went on to give every detail of the situation in order to  jar my memory. I just wanted to disappear!  I'm freaking sorry okay? Jeez! I just always pictured that whole situation going much different. Something more along the lines of:
"Belindaaa!"
"Anthonyyy!"
 (dramaticly run into each others arms/cry/hug in slow-mo)
"Oh, I've missed you."
"I've missed you too."
"I'm so sorry for everything, I was such a fool!"
"It doesn't matter, I forgive you! I love you, marry me."

Forget that last part, okay? He's just a boy.

Why does my shower curtain pole thing keep falling??!?!

Moving into the house that I really liked & really wanted. It's much nicer than the old one. Also, even though I already got the job at Target, I got a call from Virgin Records in Time Square and I'm going for an interview on the 10th. I know, I've only worked at Target for a week but if I get the Virgin Records job I'd definitely quit Target & take that one. I never really wanted to work at Target, not that I'm ungrateful for the job (it kept me busy when I was just desperate for a job) but I've always wanted to be at either Virgin Records or Dorney Park.
I have to call out of work at Target to go to the interview at Virgin Records so I feel like I'm really jumping ship....betraying them at Target when a better opportunity comes along. But hey, if VR pays me more then there would be no question. Sorry

Tomorrow Today is America Day!
I've already planned on wearing red, white & blue
red converses, bright blue skinny jeans, white tank top ...I like clothes.

Unfortunately! i have to help move some more tomorrow. My family moves pretty slowly. We don't have to be out of the other place until July 15th anyway so my mom had this bright idea to move essentials (like things you can't even live a day with) first & then just one room at a time. Its such a biatch trying to get big things into this house without scraping the paint off the walls & mom is always on us about not touching the walls or getting the white carpets upstairs dirty. It's a headache. I think I need an iced coffee. seemed like it made moving fun for those kids on that Dunkin Donuts commercial.
I like commercials....