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i stayed home from school today because i still wasn't feeling good. i woke up at 1:00am & i was starving! so i ate food. i think i had like 50 different things...but i couldn't eat any of them! i took like 2 bites & felt sick. normally that would have been a good thing, but i was really hungry & needed to eat. so i didn't get a full meal, but i probably ate somewhere around 800 calories. the things i was able to keep down we're horrible for me! grr...stupid food.

anyway, i restarted my fast at 5:00pm. i'm going to go as long as i can, but at least till saturday night. hopefully i'll be able to go until sunday night, but i'm not sure i can get away with skipping 3 dinners in a row. tonight i have my "i'm sick" excuse, but by saturday that probably won't work.

alright ladies, stay strong & stay motivated. we can do this! much love & support to you all <33

so i came home early today because i threw up at school...yuck. i went to the bathroom & did it, but still. i didn't purposefully make myself throw up therefore it is disgusting! so yeh, i've just been hanging out all day doing some of my big projects. yes i know, i live an exciting life. lol.

ok anyway, i ate lunch today because (01) i couldn't keep anything down so i threw it up anyway & (02) i started my fast after lunch instead of after dinner. i've been fasting for the past 5 hours & i plan to go at least till friday night. if i can get away with skipping dinner on friday, then i'll go till saturday night. so, it's either going to be a 52 hour fast or a 76 hour fast. i really hope i can go for 76 hours, i need to get back in the habbit of longer fasts! i'd like to be 154 by the end of this fast. that's only 3 pounds to lose...not too much to ask for.

hey babes! i've been fasting for the past 48 hours & i'm still going strong! i'm not hungry or tired or light header either, so that's very good. my fast ends at 5:00 so that'll be 50 hours! woo hoo.

current weight: 157

so i lost about 2 & a half pounds while i was fasting! that's not bad. i was hoping for more like 3-4 pounds, but then again i only went 50 hours. i think i'm going to start another fast tomorrow night after dinner & go until friday night. so like, 48 hours.

BUT tonight i eat whatever i want...as long as it's under 500 calories. lol.

i'm so motivated right now! i would keep fasting, but i need energy. i've got a concert tonight in front of like 2,000 parents (back-to-school night) and i'm singing a solo. heck yes =] haha...i'm so happy i got it. i really need to eat though, because today in class i was shivering so bad i could barely sing! i had a blanket around me & everything. my teacher laughed...he took a picture...lol. it was funny, but that's just because no one knew it was because i hadn't eaten anything for 2 days...

anyway, gotta go do some homework, then go to my concert! i'll update later with what i had for dinner. much love huns <33

fast is going great so far! i've haven't had any food for the past 23 hours & i'm planning on going for another 27 hours. i'm not even hungry right now, which is good.

today i ran a mile & a half in gym. it was so freaking hot outside! i was like dying, even more than i would have because i hadn't eaten anything all day. so it was disgustingly hot, but i'm so glad we ran today. i need to be doing lots of exercise! i've been slacking in that department lately.

alright, well i think this is all for today's entry. might update later, but i've got tons of homework & i have to go out tonight to get a red shirt for tomorrow. keep up the good work ladies! i'm so proud of all of you <33